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Thank you. I love you. by cherryusagi Thank you. I love you. by cherryusagi
please listen to this… while viewing for more heartbreak and tears~

I have a lot of things to say about this and honestly if you don't feel like reading my nonsense about this particular piece and the fanfiction that goes along with it you're welcome to just exit the page or continue scrolling because fuck man I have a lot of things to say about this fuck.


lol hey dA how's it going it's been awhile huh? ha
jesus christ this took longer than it should have but that's mostly because i'm lazy and procrastinate a lot. meh. bUT I GOT THIS IN JUST IN TIME FOR NEW TRIALS 14TH ANNIVERSARY. (STFU IT'S STILL SEPTEMBER 1ST WHERE I AM SO BLEH SMD)

there's a lot to be said about this fanfiction man. i have a lot of feelings for this damn fanfiction man it's ridiculous and like it's been a month since the latest chapter was added and i'M STILL NOT OVER IT FUCK. but yeah okay. it's weird thinking that this fanfiction has been going on for 14 years and even weirder that i've been following it for about ten years now... (i thought it was less than that but there's a timeline on one of the websites and it has when each chapter was posted and holy shit man it's so ridiculous how long i've been reading this thing) and honestly the only thing that i've followed for that long is freaking Kingdom Hearts (dON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT KH I'LL JUST SIT THERE AND CRY FOR A GOOD HOUR OR TWO JUST GOD DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT IT) and even that's just insane.

CCS has a very special place in my heart. I remember watching the horrendous dub as a child on CN and finding the manga at my local bookstore years later. I would beg my mother for money every time I went to the mall so I could buy the next volume. It was my very first manga and it's still one of my favorites. Heck the second CCS movie was one of the first anime DVDs I ever bought. And New Trials was also one of my first CCS fanfictions and is probably my favorite out of everything ha.

I have so many feelings when it comes to New Trials and Wishchan (honestly if you've been following the story for as long as I have you'd probably have a lot of feelings too man) but it's weird because honestly I've never really talked to anyone in the NT fandom or even Wishchan herself. (i can't talk to her even tho she seems like one of the nicest people ever??? i'M SHY GO FIGURE) this is actually probably my first contribution to the fandom that's actually going public??? (i have more fanart around here somewhere but it's from like five/six years ago so lol no one's gonna see that shit)


I won't say much (even tho this picture gives away everything l o l) but when it came to that scene... I lost it. I remember reading it, getting up to make some tea, coming back to reread what I just read, and crying for a good hour or two. I mean deep in my heart I knew it was coming. I just never really expected it to be... so emotional for me??? It reminded me of that scene in TRC which i'm sure was intentional and it made me go back and read that scene in TRC which then made me cry for another good hour or so. ha.


i have a lot of theories about why things played out the way they did in NT but that's for me to keep to myself because i'm so dumb omfg. a;lsdfkj;adsf but when i thought about what the heck Sakura could be thinking during that time i got really emotional and wanted to do something about it. because the scene happened so quickly it reminded me a lot of another anime (Mawaru Penguindrum) which i kind of referenced in the last couple of panels. (basically the "Thank you. I love you.") because in that anime one of the main characters is suddenly met with an end they can't escape and yeah i'm not gonna say much because it's a good anime you should watch it.

but yeah. i felt there's a lot of unresolved things between S+S and if things have to stay the way they are now then i think this might've been what Sakura was thinking in those last couple of moments. maybe. (of course she would've thought about her family and shit but let me kill myself with shipping feels)

a lot of things brought this on tbh. the fact that i've been following this fanfiction for so long, the fact that it's almost over, the fact tHAT EVERYTHING HURTS SO MUCH BUT DAMMIT I SAW THIS COMING WHY, and a bunch of other things and i just... i'm just really confused and need a drink ha.

there's a lot more i could say about NT, Wishchan, and basically CCS in general but then i'd be here for days man and no one wants me to ramble on for that long trust me. and honestly there was a lot more to this piece than what is seen. stuff that kinda made this feel more deeper and shit. but was cut because i'm lazy and was pressed for time. but if i ever go back to re-add those parts in i'll probably replace this piece with the original one i wanted. (in all honestly the essential message is still the same it just had more scenes to it i guess...)

i guess what i'm trying to say is i love this fanwork, i love the author, and i love the work that started the fanwork to begin with. and while it pains me a bit to realize the end is soon near for our dear NT it's brought me a lot of joy and sorrow over these past 10 or so years. and having it followed for so long and to finally see the end of it is something that warms my heart greatly.

if you haven't read her fanfiction and you like CCS i highly recommend it. you'll laugh, you'll cry, it's great.…

also check out Wishchan's dA because it's pretty fabulous too.

i have a lot of feelings oh god if you actually read all of this nonsense kudos to you because i can't even get out all the words i want to say about this damn thing fuck.

later taters.
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wishluv Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013
Wow, that is soooooo beautifully done and sad. I love all the flashbacks, one panel to the next, the sakura petals. I especially liked the panel with long-haired junior high Sakura. Oh, and the disappearing Sakura and shocked Syaoran... beautifully executed. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful piece with us! Oh, and I played the song. It's the Dango song! Sniffles.
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
//heavy breathing

T-Thank you. omfg it means a lot that you of all people enjoy this piece o-oh my gosh... a;lskdjfasdoiarejh

I'm so glad you like this... I--oh my gosh alsk;dfas

A-And yes the song! I thought it fit perfectly for this and it also fits Sakura so well don't you think? v w v;;;
KireiBlossom Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013
Why have you been all by yourself for all these years and never joined the community? Believe me, we all have immense attachment and emotions over this fanfic, but actually being able to share our feelings with each other is what has made this fandom what it is today - every single member counts, and you are one of them.

This piece is fabulous! It's heartbreaking but so beautiful at the same time - I really like how you incorporated the flashbacks as black and white sketches, it gives the whole thing a different feel and depth.

Cheer up, I don't believe Sakura's dead, maybe she was just planning something all along and is absolutely fine. You don't need to get depressed over this or make yourself miserable over it. Please do come and join the Yahoo group because we would love to hear you ramble, and feel free to ramble and vent as much as you would like or share with us whatever artwork you'd like to. Okay? Looking forward to seeing you there.
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
omfg--it's you alkjdsfa;sld
tbh I've been asking myself this question for many years now! Most likely because I was still fairly young when the Yahoo group came around and back then talking to strangers on the internet was frowned upon haha. Of course now's a different story... (i think it's time to give in and join don't you?? l o l)

Ah thank you, thank you. v w v;;; It makes me very happy you all seem to enjoy this piece and yes ;lakdsj;fadslf

O-oh honestly I don't believe she's dead either. (though let's be honest if she was it be pretty darn interesting and quite a heartbreaking plot twist) Ah you're all just too sweet. OTL;;;
KireiBlossom Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013
Hoe, it's me? @.@; Yes, I'm me, and you're you and everyone's equal in this world, dear. You should have some more confidence and respect for yourself. What's OTL mean, by the way?

We'll be more than glad to have you at the discussion group - you can pitch in whatever ideas you've been keeping to yourself all this time.
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
A-Ah by that I mean I know who you are! Like AmethystBeloved you're pretty well known throughout the NT fandom as well. ;;;;;

It's not a matter of confidence or respect really it's more of a matter of I'm a big dork who's never very good at expressing herself or talking to others ha.

OTL is basically a man on his hand on his knees l o l;;; you have to tilt your head a bit to see it...
Draugurok Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Student
Wow. It's amazing. So beautiful and sad at the same time. It really moved my heart and with that music from Clannad (really great anime:P) it almost made me cry. Thanks for sharing this :)
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ah thank you very much. v w v;;;
And yes Clannad is a fabulous anime. So heartwarming and heartbreaking at the same time haha.
F-Testarossa Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013
The background music seriously gave my heart an extra punch while reading your piece. 

 This is really touching. I think it captures the essence of S+S relationship thus far. 

Definitely swing by the NT yahoo group - lot's of nice people there who share your passion and love of CCS and NT. 
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's a lovely heart wrenching melody isn't it? Really packs a punch in the feels.

Ah thank you. v w v;; perhaps I shall drop by one of these days.
Mesaku18 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Student General Artist
Wow. I love it. So. Much.

I love the last panel...

The last sakura tree petal and "I love you."

So simple yet mind blowing impact!

cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you! v w v;;
I'm happy people enjoy this piece. 
Mesaku18 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013  Student General Artist
You're welcome.. :D

That piece is really good..! :D
NewTrials Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013

Well hello, and happy NT Day to you! Thank you so much for your lovely contribution. Wow, I remember when I first reached out to you last April 2012 when I first launched my NT Fan Projects site  (…). Thanks for remembering that little snippet of our conversation regarding how long you've been following NT and mentioning the timeline. I always get so excited when I hear that someone visits my site! 


What can I say about this piece? So many FEELS!! It opens the wounds all over again, but it doesn't matter because you've captured Sakura so beautifully. The flashbacks are touching. And Junior High S&S looks so sweet. Your last Sakura looks like she's at piece with her decision. Syaoran's eye has nothing but shock. That heart shaped cherry blossom petal at the end broke my heart. Let me recommend a one-shot spin off by a fan about her interpretation of Sakura's justification:…


When I saw your update, I was thinking, "yup, definitely S&S". But then I did a double take and thought "Wait a minute, it's her first NT contribution! :squee:". Welcome to the club! I will be adding your name to the Artist Directory and include your fanart in my next NT Fan Projects update next Sunday.


You have a lot bubbling inside of you so I recommend that you join us on Facebook (…) or Yahoo (…)! Just start anywhere and people will comment. There's a lot of theories zipping left and right and we would love to hear your thoughts as well with the two major camps being those who believe she is and those who believe she isn't. It's your choice, of course. I would love the fandom to see this piece. Would you like to post it on Facebook (if you want to/have an account) or can I do it? I'll wait for your answer but I'll definitely :+fav: it for the NT Picture Book right away.


Needless to say I read your entire post and I would love to read more about your thoughts. Please use me as a resource if there are scenes that you want to revisit but don't want to go hunting for. Between organizing the New Trials Picture Book and writing the New Trials Chapter Summaries, I have a very good sense of what happened and where in the story.


Finally, can we please, please, please see the NT fanart that you drew five/six years ago?? :please: There are many ways to justify it as older art work:


1) You can add the year in parentheses next to the title

2) You can upload it directly to Scraps to keep it out of your Featured Gallery

3) You can e-mail it to me and I can upload it on this account and either credit you or keep you anonymous.


Seriously, a fandom (NT) from a fandom (CCS) is pretty tiny. Every single contribution is seen by every active member so your work WILL be appreciated.


Thank you again for this. You do know that now I'm looking forward to more New Trials related work from you in the future!!!


cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ah yes Happy NT Day~! The website is simply amazing tbqh. I was browsing it the other day and it's just really nice having it around for both the old and new fans of NT. You really outdid yourself on it. :>

Ah thank you, thank you. v w v;; it truly means a lot. I have a lot of emotions concerning this piece and knowing someone else can sort of understand those emotions is truly wonderful. hehe. and omgosh that one-shot is truly lovely.

u w u;;;

Oh gosh I would love to join the NT fb or yahoo group (I've actually thought about joining the Yahoo group for a couple of years now) I've just never really gone through with it haha. OTL;; I think I got to the front page for about ten seconds a few years back before chickening out and never going back to it ever again. Although perhaps maybe this year will be the year to not chicken out lol. As for FB you're definitely welcome to post this piece there yourself. I have an account but I usually like to keep my artwork off of there because of reasons l o l.  But do feel free to post it~! I would love for more of NT's fans to see this. v v v;;;

As for my own thoughts I've thought about making a journal post here or on my tumblr about the 10+ years of feels and emotions I've been holding back over NT for awhile now and perhaps now's the time to actually sit down and write it. I'm sure someone, somewhere would appreciate reading it ha.

oh my gosh I would love to show you my older NT fanart (actually that's a lie lol) but tbh I really have no idea where those sketchbooks are! There somewhere in storage that much I know and even then I'm not sure if they're actually in the storage or if they were thrown away from when I moved from my house to my apartment a few years ago. But if I ever get the chance to go looking through that horrid storage area I'll definitely keep an eye out for them~ I know there's quite a few...

Ah but I do believe I have a few fanworks (mostly unfinished sketches) saved here on my laptop from last year and earlier this year that I could probably scrape together and upload one of these days. (maybe i should actually sit down and finish those there's quite a few...)

but that's for another time. v w v;;
NewTrials Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013

I'm super happy that you enjoy the website. Do you mind leaving me a comment under my feedback section?… I love receiving reviews!


What you feel is what we all feel over at the NT community. Please don't feel shy to join our groups. There are hundreds of people who joined FB, Yahoo and followed on and deviantArt, and most people either no longer active or just lurking around enjoying the theories. Plus, you'll be kept up to date with the latest NT news.


If you wanted to make a NT tumblr that would be very cool because the topic of making a NT tumblr has come up, but no one's ever done anything about it. And there are more and more artists leaving dA to join tumblr.


If you ever come across your old sketches, know that there are people out there who would love to see them. For now, let me be your cheerleader and encourage you to follow through with what you already have. I'm looking forward to seeing and sharing all of them.

cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Of course! I'll probably post a small review when I have time over the weekend~

Ah true, true. Maybe I should just give in and join (if I can ever remember my Yahoo password...) This weekend perhaps ha.

NT tumblr would be interesting since I remember seeing some fans on there asking why there wasn't a tumblr or tag on tumblr for NT! Hm...

Ahh ;;;;; you're too kind. 
NewTrials Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013

I really appreciate it. :huggle:


Even if you don't remember your password, you can always make a new account. ;)

I ran the "New Trials" tag in tumblr and I found three posts. It would be nice to have an official NT tumblr where people can post their thoughts, fanart, and other fan related projects. Would you be interested in starting one up?

cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist

Haha this is true.

Honestly I was thinking about whether or not to start one up and out of sheer impulse I went ahead and some small progress in making one for the NT fans. (still working out some kinks but pretty much ready to go?? ;alsdkfjaflkjasd)
NewTrials Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
I'm really happy that you started a NT tumblr. Let me know when you're ready for me to tell the community about it!
cherryusagi Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ah you're welcome to start telling the community about it now if you'd like! I'd rather people come to me first and ask to have their art and whatnot uploaded before I start doing it myself.  v w v;
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