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~Wintry Pastry~ by Chalysane ~Wintry Pastry~ :iconchalysane:Chalysane 2 0 Wintry Pastry (Work-In-Progress) by Chalysane Wintry Pastry (Work-In-Progress) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 2 0 Mei (Always Human Art Contest Submission, WIP) by Chalysane Mei (Always Human Art Contest Submission, WIP) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 0 ~Mei~ (Always Human Art Contest Submission) by Chalysane ~Mei~ (Always Human Art Contest Submission) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 0 ~With Gratitude~ by Chalysane ~With Gratitude~ :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 2 ~Vocaloid Rana~ by Chalysane ~Vocaloid Rana~ :iconchalysane:Chalysane 2 1 Vocaloid Rana (Work-In-Progress) by Chalysane Vocaloid Rana (Work-In-Progress) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 0 ~Easter!~ by Chalysane ~Easter!~ :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 0
When I played Jenga,                         it always began by sliding                     the blocks out of the box.
You see, they were prestacked in             the box so that it                 would be easier to start playing it.
After that it’s                                              time to start                                    
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Fencer - Chapter 2 - Initiation
Chapter 2 – Initiation
            When I was 4 years old, news of a war had already begun to filter down to the slums in which I lived at the time. At that time, my sister, Amy, was drafted to serve the military. She went quietly, as opposed to my parents, who were in outrage and despair. When the military police came to our door to pick her up, my father had grabbed his gun and threatened to shoot the person. She was a girl as well. She didn’t flinch when my father pointed his hunting rifle at her face. I stayed in my room, pretending and wishing to be asleep, even as I watched from my door. I was afraid of what was going to happen, but I stayed quiet so that no one would know I was awake. I would get in trouble if I was up at that hour. It was my sister, who was 16 years old at the time, who stopped him. She said that she would be back in no time. I remember this time very well.
            When I was 5 years ol
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It's a Curse.
It’s a Curse.
Is a curse.
The only thing worse
Than seeing
The people you love
Pass away,
And living a life
Long enough
To know that no one
Could ever
Be like those people,
Is to know
That you’ll have
All the time
In the world
To realize it.
And that there will be
So many others
Just like them.
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Fencer - Chapter 1 - Emily
Chapter 1 - Emily
            My best friend from kindergarten was Emily. The other boys called me weird for having a girl as a friend, and she was called weird by other girls for having a boy as a friend. It was that way for a long time, but we never really stopped being friends. Sure, here and there, we had our arguments, but we didn’t really care or know enough about anything to do anything serious. In the end, we were just friends, and no one had the right to tell us otherwise. We probably just didn’t care. Friends are friends.
            In fourth grade things started to change. For the first time, boys would ask a girl to be his girlfriend, and girls would ask a boy to be her boyfriend. There was a serious skew towards the boy asking the girl, but we didn’t care. Me and Emily were still friends, and we didn’t care about their “relationships”. As far as either of us knew, we already we
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~Maple Merigold~ (My take) by Chalysane ~Maple Merigold~ (My take) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 1 3 Link - 422nd Nisei (For CarbonaQuadrangle) by Chalysane Link - 422nd Nisei (For CarbonaQuadrangle) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 0 1
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The 21-Gun Salute :iconchalysane:Chalysane 0 0
~Topped with Strawberries~ (Letter to a friend) by Chalysane ~Topped with Strawberries~ (Letter to a friend) :iconchalysane:Chalysane 0 0


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I'm confident that anyone who reads this journal thing or lives in general knows what it feels like to plan something only to never do it in the end.
Like preparing for a certain convention that will more than likely be occuring in a few days.
Or maybe going home, promising that you're going to do homework, only to go surf the internet instead
Or coming up with the BEST idea of how to continue a story you're writing only to decide to play a game.

I personally find it hilariously frustrating. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person who's gone through this.

I was told the other day to "live as if it were my last day alive". And I've been told that years before that day.
However, I only really understood it recently.
We all make plans for tomorrow and such, right? But what if tomorrow never came?
We've all had dreams about doing something really awesome, and we've come up with plans to do it, only to put it off. But what if tomorrow never came?
There are so many different series of anime that I want to watch. But what if the day came when I would never get to watch them again?
I have so many ideas for stories, and I've promised myself that I wasn't going to die (a huge boon against any thoughts of suicide) until I'd written them all down.
But what if I died by accident?

Every single day passes us by, but we never actually do the things that we really want to do. And of course we wouldn't. Of course we shouldn't.
If we always did what we wanted to do, nothing would get done quickly: Think of the people who exclaim "Yolo" before doing something dangerous.
But what if you had that idea for how to improve a story... What about that idea for the ultimate game, the most amazing piece of art?
What about that person that you swear to god you've loved him or her for how the deuce long, but you never worked up the guts to confess?
And then, all of a sudden, one day, you died?

I was told to live as if it were my last day alive. And I actually understood it for once.
But I don't live like it anyway, still doing the same monotonous things I've always done.

I can't help but wonder: What about those series of anime that I've never watched?
If I suddenly died, who would come to my funeral?
What would someone think if, one day, they came across the stories I've written, never actually finished?
What about the pieces of artwork on my wall?
What about the dolls on my bed, the one random nendoroid placed next to a coffee mug filled with pens and pencils?
What about that binder that I cherished so deeply, tattered as it is, filled with handwritten text?
What about that shelf that had one level -just one- filled with manga?
What about the letters that I'd randomly written to people?
What about the 3DMG that I built by hand, so tirelessly worked on only to fall apart after use, and promised to be repaired?
What about the tertiary corrections to What Could Have Been?
What about the pencils that constantly hang from my collar, people always saying that it's "dangerous"?
What about that computer that sits in my room, a four terabyte drive filled with videos, pictures, and text from the internet because I was afraid of losing it?

What if, one day, I had suddenly died, whatever the reason may be?

To think I live like I always do, mindlessly going about my daily business, never doing what I really want to do...
And yet I still ask these questions, and promise that I'll finish my stories before I die.
And to think that I never ask: What the heck am I doing?

Plans and such.... eh. Just do stuff for gods sakes. That'll accomplish so much more.


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My Handle is Chalysane. Perhaps you recognize this name from somewhere. I specialize in writing, but I want to learn how to draw better. A pleasure to meet you.


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Yukia-kirazawa Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2014
Thanks for the watch! ^^
Mxt777 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014
Thanks for the watch :D
Chalysane Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
My favorite part about your art is that it seems to be done entirely in pencil.
On that note, I personally like how you place your pencil in the picture as well~
My favorite of what you've posted asofar is your "Fading Away" piece.

I'll be looking forward to seeing your future drawings ^.^
Mxt777 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014
Yes my all works are completely drawn by pencil
 I am glad you like my art  :happybounce: 
Aerode Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the Favorite! :la: How's your day?
Chalysane Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, it's been going relatively tiring, amusing, frustrating, productive at times, and a plethora of other things. ^^"
At the moment, though, mainly tiring. And soon stressfull. Have to message someone in four minutes x3
After that, hopefully back to productiveness~ Aiming to finally scan and post something (scanner was derping ^^")

Also, sorry I didn't favorite yesterday ^^" Only just noticed that I hadn't. xP

Hopefully your day has been going generally well as well~
Aerode Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I think I'm feeling the same palette of emotions now. :D And I hope you resume all you've done and manage to finish!

It's no problem, and thank you!
JinxedEye Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014
ur gallery is all ur work?
and post something u drew recently. wanna compare wit the one u drew 2-3 years ago. ^_^
im sure u know quiet a bit of drawing already
Chalysane Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not at the moment, but, admittedly, it's probably close.

My gallery currently consists of two scans that I already have on my computer.
My most recent drawing cannot be posted: I gave it to someone else, already.
(I could ask for it back for to scan and such, but I think it might be rude...)
The second most recent one is from 1-2 years ago. (I don't draw often...)
I'm actually not all that experienced in drawing: I've only made perhaps half a dozen.
JinxedEye Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014
the time btween most recent and 2nd most recent is over  a year... safe to say you may not be that great. but from ur profile pic, i wanna say that  u know what ur doing...
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