Cathary

(Updated with... NOTHING.)

Yay, it was spring for 3 whole days. I was okay then, I think. Now I'm not. Again. I'm helpless and hopeless and I don't know what to do. How would I? Every decision I'm almost-about-to-make feels wrong. I miss drawing dragon tattoos. They always took my mind off everything else. I can't even pick up a pencil anymore/now, though. Doesn't feel right. Nothing does anymore. *stops whining (in public) and hides in her dark and gloomy corner*

I'm still alive. Sort of. Atleast school started again so I can get my mind off things and people every now and then. Yay for homework. I keep having these irritating and disturbing dreams of being back in my old school... Must've been traumatized for life. The dreams bother me, the thought of being there again scares me like hell... A lot of other things do, too. I feel scared a lot these days. Weeks, whatever. Not sure, what of. *hides*