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Cookies

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Cookies

Cookies and me, man, have a love-hate relationship. I love to love 'em, you see, and they love to hate my waistline, my heart, my health overall. Sometimes, though, late at night when I'm the only one awake, it's all I can do to keep from eating a whole bag of them, tears rolling down plump cheeks, as I feel alone and without friends. I love cookies for being there whenever I need comfort, even briefly. They hate everyone because of their unhealthy side effects and addictive properties.

Storm

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Storm

Being a random glory, the sky slowly darkens as the storm rolls in. Lightning arcs across from cloud to cloud, and near-constant thunder shatters the heavens with rolling, unending sound.

Heady

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Heady

A long, slow sip from the fountain of lust has brought us here, the sweet wine of passion sweet and light on the tongue, yet heady, making me drunk on you, your body, your mind, the sexiest thing about you.

Randomness 4

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Randomness 4

Being hungover without drinking the night before is totally unfair.

Who Needs Sleep?

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Who Needs Sleep?

Staring at the clock, listening to it tick-- I should be asleep, but instead I sit, staring, staring, as the second hand moves along in the tiniest stumbles-- a drunken atom making his staggering way home.

Chemicals

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Chemicals

When I grow up, I want to be a ballerina astronaut dancing among the stars. As I twirl in my tutu in the planetarium lobby, I fall, twisting my ankle. Such dreams are no more. When I graduate high school, I want to go to college to become a teacher, perhaps, or a webpage designer able to put dreams on screen. However, when I start missing class due to migraine, I know these castles in the clouds are not to be. When I feel better, I want to be a writer of tales that send shivers down spines, poetry that takes breaths away. As weeks stretch into months into years, I wonder if I will ever be able to be what I want to be.

A Little Respect, Please

Kissing the sun

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Kissing the sun

This new lightness, as if I have wings, is freeing and terrifying. I feel as if I've lost the worst parts of myself, full of anger and hatred and fear. Those things tied me to the ground; spreading my wings, I soar into the sky and kiss the sun, Icarus' warning be damned.

Senryu ...3? 4?

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Senryu ...3? 4?

It is frustrating trying to train oneself out of bad habits

Blue

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Blue

Many people assume blue is always sad, but let me remind you of clear sky, blueberries, bluebells, the bright blue of His eyes, and the beauty of slate roofs in the light of the setting sun.
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Storm

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Storm

Being a random glory, the sky slowly darkens as the storm rolls in. Lightning arcs across from cloud to cloud, and near-constant thunder shatters the heavens with rolling, unending sound.

Snow

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Snow

I fucking hate snow.  That shouldn't surprise anyone, considering I was born and raised in Hawaii, but shit.  Why did I ever move to Pittsburgh?  Aside from, you know, family here, a career, and the love of my life. I blame the internet.  If I'd never have met Caitlyn, damnit, I'd never have moved out here.  I'd be sitting out on my lanai, drinking a Mai Tai and eating spam on rice.  I wouldn't be clinging to the oh-shit handle in her car, whimpering with my eyes mostly closed as we drive through a blizzard. "You wuss," she says, exasperated.  "It's just a little snow.  There hasn't been a run on toilet paper and bread yet.  We're okay." I

So close!

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So close!

80: So close... so far.  Splat!

More insta-poetry

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More insta-poetry

The silence, shattered by a sudden, loud noise: a gasp of air, followed by invisible explosion.  A split-second heartspause followed by the inevitable blessings and dirty looks from employees. A tissue is passed, followed by another, quieter exhalation, soft apologies, and then a return to silence. Never sneeze in a library during finals.

Five minute poem redux

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Five minute poem redux

Love is a fox, sneaking in on whisper-soft paws and stealing your heart, a quiet moment you never notice until it's too late. Whiskers tickle and tingle, making you giggle with glee when you see the fox who took your core, your soul, the part that makes you who you are. Foxes are cunning and beautiful; red-gold hair makes hearts pound. Keep me as your own.

Five Minute Challenge

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Five Minute Challenge

Today is a day full of bravery and fears-- broken hearts and fresh resolve, and coming through to true freedom. Freedom, you see, is a funny thing; we're so used to lying to ourselves that we forget how truth can bring you to life. Truth is odd--people beg for it, but deep down, they're lying to themselves. By saying "tell me the truth," really, people are saying, "tell me what I want to hear." I'm breaking the paradigm. I want to be set free. Break my heart in the best way possible. I want to see how you see me, though your eyes, through truth's rainbow lens.

The Caper of the President's Seal

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The Caper of the President's Seal

 The brown-haired girl enters my office and sits quietly, eyes darting around the room.  My secretary looks at me over her head as she shows her in, face filled with curiosity. "Thank you, Marisa.  Please hold my calls for the next hour."  She blinks, but nods in the affirmative before heading back to her desk, closing the door behind her. "Hello, Miss Sandiego," I say to the girl in front of me.  She offers me a superficial smile, wan and wary. "Hello, Chief."  Undeterred, I try to continue the conversation. "So, you won a huge prize on a game show a couple of years ago, right? &

Untitled

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Untitled

Halloween: A day of darkness. Zombies and vampires; werewolves and ghouls. All vie for your flesh, your soul, your very essence as their candy.  You allow them camouflage as they walk around without a costume. She stands alone by the punch-bowl, sipping Garbage Pail as she hunts. Her blonde hair is straggly and unkempt, clothes black and prosaic, green eyes bored. He is beautiful, stupid, drawn like a moth to the flame, unable to resist her animal allure.  They speak briefly, and she offers a taut, harsh smile before they leave, tripping over each other in the rush of desire.

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First NYC devMEET of 2013

First NYC devMEET of 2013

:new: The weather didn't cooperate, so the Shops it is! We'll meet in the lobby, either near the front doors or around the Big Naked Guy statue by the escalators. If you're lost or late, :twitter: me (@Tales2BeTold), :note: me here, or comment on ThisIsNYC (https://www.deviantart.com/thisisnyc)'s :facebook: page. :eager: This Memorial Day weekend, Cassildra (https://www.deviantart.com/cassildra) is coming to town. What better excuse to have a get-together? So come join Nicki, thorns (https://www.deviantart.com/thorns) and myself for an afternoon of fun, creativity and possible prizes! The Date: Saturday, May 25, 2013. The Time: 2:00 to 5:00 p.m. (possibly later) with dinner to follow. The Place: Time Warner Center The Shops, in Columbus

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The Caper of the President's Seal

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The Caper of the President's Seal

 The brown-haired girl enters my office and sits quietly, eyes darting around the room.  My secretary looks at me over her head as she shows her in, face filled with curiosity. "Thank you, Marisa.  Please hold my calls for the next hour."  She blinks, but nods in the affirmative before heading back to her desk, closing the door behind her. "Hello, Miss Sandiego," I say to the girl in front of me.  She offers me a superficial smile, wan and wary. "Hello, Chief."  Undeterred, I try to continue the conversation. "So, you won a huge prize on a game show a couple of years ago, right? &
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Anorexica

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Anorexica

The sign on the wall read, "Welcome to Anorexica."  Jane looked at the sign, perplexed.  She had never seen this part of Anytown before; she and John and their 2.5 kids had only stayed on the right side of the tracks, with the rich churches and the nice restaurants, the beautiful cinemas and the museums.  Jane didn't even know how she had gotten here.  She must've made a wrong turn on Main Street.   The heavyset minority crowd viewed her pale face and slender form with disdain.  Jane Doe was definitely in the wrong part of town, where her looks were out of place.  She tur
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My Bio
Late 20s. Geek. Writer. Spoonie.

I'm sick but I'm not my illnesses.

Favourite Visual Artist
Manet, Naoko Takeuchi
Favourite Movies
What Dreams May Come, Constantine, Brave, The Hunger Games
Favourite TV Shows
Dead Like Me, The 4400, Curiosity, HIMYM
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Ludo, Assemblage 23, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift
Favourite Books
So many, omg.
Favourite Writers
William H. Keith, Neil Gaiman, James Daniel Ross, John Scalzi, more...
Favourite Games
Cthulhu Saves The World, Audiosurf, Desktop Dungeons (video) Fluxx, Arkham Horror (board)
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
Word, college-ruled paper in a top-spiral notebook, blue ballpoint pen (preferably Bic Atlantis)
Other Interests
Role playing, reading, music

Blargh

Blargh

Not dead.  Just flaring a lot.  I'm sorry I've not been around like usual.

Bitches~

Bitches~

No more fucks given today, I've run out~ (dealing with a flare post-move, back asap.  Leave a message or a note if you desire my new address and I'll try to remember to give it to those I deem ~worthy)

New York, New York

New York, New York

It's a wonderful town. I'm in NYC until Tuesday!  I met thorns (https://www.deviantart.com/thorns), Mr. thorns, HaveTales-WillTell (https://www.deviantart.com/havetales-willtell), and many others today! It was my first devMeet, and I had a great time!  I kept wandering away because I was in pain and standing was moderately more painful than walking, but everyone was very sweet and understanding of my pain issues and my needs. I also had decent grocery store sushi, spent too much at Moleskine, Papyrus, and Sephora, and was randomly awesome in my Communist Party shirt (not pictured in anything because I had a pink hoodie on over it). I will be in NYC until Tuesday, and I can't wait to see more of this fantastic ci

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another year gone by.. hope you're good :hug:
Happy Birthday! :huggle: <3
Happy Birthday!
happy birthday :hug:
I got your caard! :eager:
Thank you for the :llama::heart::iconsmile--plz:PEACE
Thank you for the watch. :glomp: