My Pet Succubus has been going now for 4 years. My longest running comic... and possibly my last.
After 15 years as an obscure webcomic creator, I think it's time I accepted the fact that I'm never going to create anything noteworthy or objectively great.
It's kind of depressing as I'm really not good at anything and it appears that even if I concentrate all my efforts into one thing, it's still not enough. I always seem to get a sharp rise only to be followed by a steady decline. It's no longer a question of whether I'm failing or not, but how badly.
I'm tired. It has been an endless struggle where I had to fight and pay heavy prices for every centimetre I gained, only to fall flat on my face.
My health is failing. I'm literally killing myself and that's still not good enough. There will be a point where I can not longer go on. Not at the price I'm paying at the moment anyway.
I guess if I'm going to kill myself, I might as well do it in a less depressing way. Alcoholism, drugs and excessive food consumption seem like good viable options.