So in about 54 Minutes from typing this I'm going to be "Celebrating" New Years 2019 in an office park where I am literally the only person in this office park. I know, exciting isn't it? You end up with a good amount of time to think about things in what you want to do and accomplish. Now, with 52 Minutes I'm going to proceed.
I am going to release a game this year. Not sure what kind of game but I'm going to - I'm going to leave that statement as is for right now. I went to school for game development but I haven't been in school for 10 years so I got to brush up on my skills. I'm rusty, and I gotta relearn shit. I'm not just talking about programming either, honestly that's probably the easier part believe it or not. You can find and engine to help develop a functional game but without proper game dev theory you are just going to make forgettable crap. Don't believe me? Look at a lot of *Other* indie titles on steam.
So in order to address this, I have found naturally the games in my extensive collection with editors for me to start making levels and experiences using other peoples engines. This is important because if I am going to be developing anything - it would be good to practice.
I'm also getting kinda fat, I'm now at 30.0% Bodyfat and Man am I having all sorts of dysphoric issues stemming from it. Yes. I used that word right. I am not going to go into details about what sorts of dysphoria I get sometimes, just understand that I am far from where I feel I need my body to be to express myself.
I still don't know what to do with my Patreon Account, I really want to have one though honestly I just don't want to be another artist that relies on sexy girl pictures for guys to throw a couple of bucks for fap fodder. Yes, I went there. And I'm not here to knock you if that's your hustle, I just feel like there is just this over-saturation that feels imbalanced and I just don't want to add more to it. Don't get me wrong, I love drawing sexy ladies but I don't want to be limited to them or just use the female form to make a few quick bucks. Sheit if anything I'd love to draw sexy women, men, and unconventional sexy forms of the non binary variety... who knows. I had another idea for a Patreon to basically do up mods for games - like have a roster of games and make content for while I'm working my way to developing a studio. Throw a buck or two, and people who throw money get a say in what games I should be making content for (that I have access to do) and maybe even specific content. I'd make all content public but it's the influence people would pay for.
...I swear to gods please let this not devolve into making "sexy patches".
I need new glasses too, also I'm working 2 jobs to pay off debts so I can really focus my time and energy in this game studio.
I have a website that needs work, maybe if I can find a reliable blogging platform to migrate to that would be compatible with Wix then I'll migrate this blog portion to there.
...if you read all this I'm amazed - long story short- you're gonna see more art.