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I wanted to try and illustrate how it feels to be called the wrong pronouns. Before I went on hormone therapy, every 'she' or 'her' made me feel like I was being attacked emotionally. Nowadays I get it a great deal less and can deal with it a lot more, but I still remember how it felt.

I intend to do a photo shoot of myself wearing a dress, to show the discomfort and awkwardness when faced with such a feminine item.

I bought a dress from the charity shop where I volunteer and in seeing it, drew this picture as a concept for the photos to come.

Image is Saku Smith aka *CreatoreMagico
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BubblyBunnyBash Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Student Artist
I know it's a bit of a different context, but I sort of feel your pain... only more in my short stature than anything else.. 

my shortness makes me look like I'm 12, so I often get people saying "aww, she's so cute!" "How old are you?" "How tall are you?" etc.. I know I shouldn't be one to complain about this, but I do get tired of it and would maybe like for people to see me for more than just my height..

on a completely different note, every now and then my boyfriend and I will get a few comments like "eww! that's nasty" simply because my height makes them think I'm the younger one, although in all honesty I'm the cougar ;)

Oh well. I wish you the best for your future. :)
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for telling me your story, and how you relate to my picture. I really think the great thing about art is that it speaks to everyone, no matter what they are going through.

Being called something you are not must feel very similar. I'm so sorry to hear about your plight, it's a form of discrimination and you have every right to be upset about it.

Perhaps you could prepare a response for the next time it happens. A polite but informative "Actually I'm [however old] and I actually find those sorts of comments offensive, so could you please refrain from them in future. Thank you so much."

It's always hard to communicate our needs to others, especially when it's about something to do with our bodies that we can't help.

If it's people you know and care about, I'd say make the effort. As for passers by and hecklers, they don't know you and they are frankly morons.

You and your boyfriend stay strong and I also wish you the best of luck. <3
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BubblyBunnyBash Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Student Artist
Waahh! so many kind words!

I honestly don't know what to say now..

^^;
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You are so cute. You don't need to say anything!
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SynWilliams Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know exactly what you mean. This explains 100% what it's like for a lot of trans persons, MTF or FTM. Thanks for this, it's amazingly well done.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for your comment. I know this piece caused a little negative feedback so I'm very grateful when people understand what I was trying to do with it. :hug:
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SynWilliams Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, i can understand how it could be taken the wrong way, butni find it just helps to explain to others how a transperson can feel
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Evometheus6082 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
On the behalf of all those who used religion to bully you i am sorry masculine madame
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GaiaMIX Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Saku identifies as a man, not a "masculine madame". Or he won't have made this picture.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very kindly for the sentiment. You have no need to apologise. However, I tell you I do not identify as a 'madame' as I am FtM (female to male) trans. Sorry for any confusion!
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Evometheus6082 Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Oh no problem what so ever i mean sure you turned into a dude i still think your a lovely lady FtM or not and i am sorry if i sounded like a pervert and i hope you meet the girl of your dreams good sir.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you, and for taking the time to comment. I have indeed met the girl of my dreams, she is very supportive and very sweet.
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nekophoenix Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Professional General Artist
1. Slight reference to the comments here - people claiming that trans are anti-feminist need to go roger themselves with something large and barbed. I am so fucking sick of that argument. I actually UNDERSTAND it, as I've spent many a day reading feminist literature (I AM a feminist ffs) and I can see what angle they're coming from but it's from the angle of someone who does not and cannot understand what it feels like to have gender dysphoria.

2. AAANYHOO - love this. I love the style you've taken, it's cute and it's almost chibi, yet it doesn't take away from the seriousness of the message, it just draws your eye in quickly.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*hugs* You're one of the gender-queer feminists I know and as I said, all the activists/feminist I know and have known have either been that, trans or very lgbtq accepting. I think I can see the point of what the commenter was saying but like you said, it's a little uninformed from the gender diaspora pov? I think that it's easy to be enemy of something as large as feminism without even trying, because it's such a huge part of the world around us that we don't fully understand. But I don't think half the people who are 'enemies of feminism' want to be, or even understand why or that they are. Because when people don't know about something and just go on interacting with society and the world, it is easy to become an enemy of many things. But rather than being called that, they should be taught further so as to gain further understanding then make a concious choice to be for or against something. Does that make any sense? I feel proclaiming someone an enemy is harsh, teaching and discussion should always come first.

Thank you for your comment on both the discussion and the artwork here. I appreciate both immensely. :hug:
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Deutschtard Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012   Writer
I like this, and I can't wait to see the photoshoot.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much. I have taken some pictures and hopefully when I am recovered from surgery tomorrow I will be able to edit them!
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Deutschtard Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012   Writer
awesome! :3
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FungalZombieX Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
And yet my parents don't understand why I act so hurt when they just fucking continue calling me she, haven't I tried enough to get them to stop? Haven't I proved that I'm not going back to even TRYING to fit that fucking role?
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BubblyBunnyBash Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Student Artist
In this case, I think it's more of they don't understand so it scares them. I can't actually say I understand why people are transgender, but at least i'm not afraid of it anymore.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hang in there bro. Whether they ever understand or not, you are who you are. All you can do is give them time and patience even though it hurts and you'll always feel angry. After all, how much time and patience can a guy give? Parents (in most cases) never want to hurt their kids but they do, often. It's hard on the path you've chosen but I wish you all the strength in coping with your parents.

:hug:
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FungalZombieX Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
u.u thankyou. I need all the support I can get, especially when I can't get it from my parents.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your most welcome. If you ever need to vent, go ahead and do so in the comments of my work. Maybe you will find more people who relate to you and who can support you as well.
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FungalZombieX Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Heheheh, well I just got my perscription into the pharmacy to get 50 ml of T, so I'm excited about that, I'll be getting a larger dose in about ten weeks from the first shot. :3
Gatta book and appointment to get the shot though. I8
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Is this your first time on T? Congratulations if so, you will see a change really quickly. Good luck with your first shot and be sure to take someone with you who understands what you are gong through.

Also, I recommend making a video diary each week to document your change, since you will never see this version of you again once it's gone.
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FungalZombieX Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'll be glad to never see this version of myself again honestly. I love myself, but not my gender. A lot of people think I'm insecure in myself but no, I am quite happy with who I am, just not "What" I am. XP
And yes, this is my first shot... And I'm getting it in a week! I can't wait!
Only 50 Mg but it's something for sure!

Hmmm Just wish I could figure out how to take videos/edit videos and whatnot... I can snap pictures though... So I'll get all dolled up and snap a pic when I'm about to go, and then before my next shot I'll do it again, and then repeat forward. Make a collage or something.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Even so, I hope you will document all you can because even if it's a part of yourself you can not wait to be rid of, memories and records hold such value even so. A collage or something like that would be a fantastic expression!

How did the first shot go? You must have had it by now?
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keh-arts Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012   Traditional Artist
I think that will be a brilliant photo concept - it would be awesome to have cut out speech bubbles like this image as well and maybe people holding them out into the photo?
It would also make me feel ~ I don't know - uncomfortable to see you looking uncomfortable in a dress. So I guess that means that at least the image would have a lot of power - the cartoon version is powerful as it is!
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's going to be a difficult photo to do but I think I can do it. I'm not sure what I really think about it all but that's why I want to explore. <3
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drazzi Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This one is my favourite piece of the set so far. I cannot explain why, being that its fairly simple, but it just seems pretty damn perfect to me. The shapes and lines and colours and just everything about it are pretty damn amazing to me. Its definitely my favourite and I love it to bits.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*hugs* Maybe I'll be able to sell the original drawing one day.
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drazzi Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I buy for a million kisses.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ghuuurl you KNOW I can get dem kisses for free.
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drazzi Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Darn.
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84-29388498905029375 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012   Digital Artist
You do realise 'feeling' like wearing a dress is right is just a reinforcement on sexism on women? A gender binary is counterproductive to equality.

Trans people are inherently the enemies of feminism.
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hot-jupiters Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012
Can I ask you to clarify the ideas expressed here? Feel free to take it to my journal if you like. I may not immediately agree with what's said here, but it could make for interesting discussion and I'm open to understanding why you feel this way.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I've read your comment several times, unfortunately I'm not sure exactly what you're trying to say. I may be misunderstanding.

I will say however, in response to your point that "trans people are inherently the enemies of feminism" that the most active and intelligent feminists I have ever met are both trans people.

Not all trans people are activists representing all others either. My work is about me personally and my own experiences interacting with this world as a trans man. I do not 'speak for the trans' or claim to be the Lorax of trans gendered people.
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Epiblast Featured By Owner May 12, 2013
(I'm cis and I've only ever known one trans person IRL, so I'm sorry if I say anything stupid.)

I don't agree with 84etc. in the slightest, but as I understand it what's going on is that certain people in the more radical-leaning branches of feminism have decided that transness is not a "real" thing, but a construct of the patriarchy. They believe that it's nothing but a form of internalized sexism, and that if society weren't sexist it would disappear, along, presumably, with gender as we know it.

For what it's worth, I do not believe that. I think that if we as a society are to have true equality we need to accept that gender is a complex thing and that forcing people toward a gender identity or expression they don't want helps no one. If all genders are valued, then there cannot be any problem with being transgender.

I've also known some excellent trans feminists, BTW.
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for your comment ~Epiblast you did not need the disclaimer at all, your comment wasn't the least bit stupid, it was well worded and very enlightening. I can see why that opinion exists, and it is certainly an interesting one. I've thought about it so many times myself, asking myself if I hate women or find them weak in any way. Of course, I don't. I just know what I am, and it's not female.

I think what you have said here is quote worthy, I just wish that the original commenter had said what they said with half the eloquence.

Thank you again for your comment, so so much appreciated. :hug:
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Epiblast Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2013
You're welcome.:hug:
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Lokifan Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012
<3 You do not claim to be the Lorax of trans people!!!

Thank you for making an annoying comment into an opportunity for LULZ.

Also, this is awesome. I love that the dress is pink and white - alllll of the femininity. But I wanna hug poor past!you!
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have a photo shoot to accompany this now so hopefully I can get to working on the pictures soon. Hehe, I am a little naughty aren't I? Pleased you got a laugh out of that.
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drazzi Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I find trans people too friendly too be enemies of anyone.
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84-29388498905029375 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012   Digital Artist
you must have never heard of tumblr
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drazzi Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Troll-lolololo-lololo.
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hot-jupiters Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012
Another awesome piece. I cannot wait to see this photoshoot.

Your art just plain makes me happy. It has this softness to it here that manages to be tender and vibrant and honest and whimsical without being childish at all. This is a really great example of your overarching style, I think! It just feels very much all that is Saku Smith.
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hot-jupiters Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012
It will indeed attract discussion, and I'd like to be part of it in some instances. But I'll do my best to maintain a respectful approach -- the last thing I would want to do is bring a counter-productive and just plain hostile attitude to a place meant for learning, exploration and communication. :) Courage and bravery!
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Anyone would be lucky to debate with you, you're intelligent and open. It's your anthropologist coming out <3
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cambiare-magico Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you kindly once again. I feel intimidated sharing this work not only because it is so personal, but because it will attract discussion and debate I may not be wholly ready for. I feel I still want to make and share the work though. It's the only way I can further learn what it all means. Meep.
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hot-jupiters Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012
Woops. Somehow my above comment went in reply to my OWN comment rather than yours. Fail me. XD
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