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In the last fourty-eight hours i have been witness to some of the most inspirational and amazing live music...

friday night (10.nov) - Mike Patton's "Peeping Tom" project which is in
                                 proper Patton form... in your face as ever, and
                                 exists to rock your socks off.. KILLER SHOW!!
                                                  Melkweg-Amsterdam

saturday night (11.nov) - The men of "suBtle"... and to be honest i am                        
                                     still lost for words for what i had seen.
                                     If you ever get the chance to see this band...
                                     do so... you will not regret it.
                                     www.myspace.com/subtlesix
                                                    013-Tiburg (Holland)

other than that... my day is just begining and the first cup of mud is the order of the moment...
so i'm gonna wake up a bit first have something to breathe on, and let the suBtle record (for hero:for fool) kick start me day...

i hope all is well with my fellow deviants...
take care for now
christian

other great music to check out:


(my project at the moment) Jimmy Slipper- profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?…
13&god- www.myspace.com/13andgod
boards of canada- www.myspace.com/abeautifulplace
Atlantis- www.myspace.com/atlantissound
IsIs- www.myspace.com/sgnl05
  • Listening to: Thomas Dybdal-suBtle-Thom Yorke-Peeping Tom
  • Reading: Evolution Deciet - Harun Yaha
  • Watching: The Kingdom - Lars von Trier
  • Playing: my mind
  • Eating: cucumber
  • Drinking: moo juice
Listening To : Tom Waits "Franks wild years"

             and  Bonnie Prince Billy "i see a darkness




I guess it's been about 3 months now, and to be honest i was just getting irriated seeing that journal entry of mine every time i check in for a bit...

The sad thing is i really dont have that much to say right, life is just the way it is... at this time...

do you have any idea how many times i've thought about writing about the paper i'm writing on?...

i have... does'nt help one bit.

well... that's that
till the nearby future, barring any un-forseen incidents that might hold that back...

take care
christian
I feel good...
The weather has taken change...
Sunrays have given my face a pinkish hue...
And a stir in my mind ihas giving way to a buzz... that i can't quite place yet...
What more could i ask for...

BRING ON SUMMER!!!

listening to: Mogwai's new album "Mr. Beast" - for the evening hours best enjoyed
                  Blockhead's new album "Downtown Science" - daytime grooves
   -both are kickASS!!! so give em' a whirl if ya get the chance...

Take care all
Christian
It has been quite the weekend...
and to be fully honest i've been off work since wednesday... and it's been haze that actually needed to be reckond with, but i could'nt help myself.... i just gave 'er on the river and went for the long haul...

And now it's Sunday night...
and the long anticipated Nirvana tribute in the good ol' 'Plein 79" went just as expected... it ROCKED!!!
I am ashamed to admit that i showed up way too late and only caught "Moodswing" doing their part in the rememberance of our long lost inspiration...
And it was nothing less of perfection in my mind... songs like "radio friendly..., aneurysm, tourettes and milk it"... so well done, i almost felt 12 years younger at a Nirvana show with a head full of THC and the a proper amount of beer to boot.

Our show on friday with "Flying Fortress" went pretty good as well... considering we had to abide to the sound level restictions that were put into place... AFTER our soundcheck!!!. It was actually kinda funny thinking back on it. The venue was a place called the "Azijn fabriek" or the "Vinegar factory" in english..
And it's for the most part a neat and tidy joint with a reputation for having a middle line kinda atmosphere... thus "NO metal" or heavy, heavy music. And for some reason we got booked there...
All in all it was a pretty good night.. plenty of friends out for support, and enough frosty beverages to help it take it's course... what more could you want?....

As monday morning begins to creep it's way into sight... i'm finding hard to come to grips with that fact that i need to go back to work sometime tommorow... oh well, it pays the rent...

I hope all is well with whom had taken the time to read my senseless ramblings...
thank you for your time...
take care
MeeeeEoW!!!....
I just watched a film that i've seen about 4 times already... and i remember why.
The film is "Amores Perros".... and it's got that actor from the "motorcycle diaries". What his name is i could not tell you...
But this is one of the best films i have ever seen, and i highly recomend it to anyone... it is in Spanish though (but that's what subtitles are for).

Right now i'm gonna sit down to "one point 0"... another mind bender of a flick, but i'm not even gonna begin to explain what happens in this one...
SO WATCH IT YOURSELF!!!   only if you feel like it of course... hheh

mood: glued to a screen

have a good one now!!!
I watch from where the silence had nothing to gain
And the playing of light had you fitting in the frame

Lost in where we might lay down together
Dreaming of how this all could change
Counting the seconds...
Waiting on the change...

I'll carry our light to the safest of places
Ignore the the burn of the staring faces

Safe on the inside where your dreams have their say...
I wait for the warmth...
And the turning of some soon to be forgotten day...



Mood: not quite sure...

listening to: Explosions in the Sky - "First breath after coma"
stuck in here for days
with progress at it's knees
no chance for renewal
like the patience had it's say...
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like J. Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses. (sometimes)
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart.
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on the computer.
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window.
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inch long. --- LOL
68. My favorite color is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a vagon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I have a third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little. He-Man btw
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very sensitive.
99. I love being "ab-normal."
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.
i've seen the ways she looks away...
it never ceases to amaze me
with seconds to spare
running with thought in hand
of what the day might bring...

i can feel the numbness fading...
as i watch the silence fall in her mind
what could be the way out?
where might it go when set free?
she whispers under a quarter-tone breath...

and i wait for the day to come
when eyes meet again
and i wait
from time to time
now and then...
I am back to where my heart has no desire to be... and i could not feel any more lost.

Looking back i had three of the most un-forgetable weeks that i can remember, and it was a shot to the gut to have to leave it behind and carry on...
It was strange yet surreal being back on soil and breathing air that my soul knows best... giving more the reason to look ahead in the near future... to set goals in getting out of this place i'm forced to call home for now...
It can't take any longer...
I won't let it take any longer...

I need to let this go...
i am counting the days...
still five to go...
till my bitter departing...
Upon reading my previous journal entry...
i realized the state of mind i was in at the time was somewhat vague ... and i had plenty of frosty beverages that night to help it's unstructured existence come to be...

I found that i should toss it, and make another... considering it was'nt really what i wanted to put down...

So yeah... hmmmmm....
how 'bout that weather eh...
I leave Europe to expect some snow and sub-temps... but it's like 10 degrees here on the west coast of B.C.
and a fair share of rain to go along with it...

So i go and check out what's going on over there in Holland...
and all they seem to be getting is a proper beating with snow and ice... to the point where emergency shelters needed to be set up for stranded folk trying to catch trains to their warm abodes... go figure.

I mean... i guess i have no grounds for complaining...
but i sure was in the mood for a good ol' Canadian winter....

It's still good to be home either way...
so i'm gonna stop bitchin'...

take care now...
till the next round of brain farts i guess...
i have returned to my place of displacment...
this after three long and homesick years, and it has been quite the trip...

i have now been a bit more than a week back on Canadian soil, breathing the clean heartwarming air i have missed so dearly... and i have not felt this full of life in years.

i seriously believe that this here escape from my reality as i now know it, a serious turning point is in the decision.giving up my reality over there on that side of the pond as i now know it... and comig back to where my heart truly lies...

but i need to think clear...
i need to field my options...
wonder what life will be like after all theese 7 years...

this is shaping up to be an interesting year...

take care all... and all the best wishes
I need some direction...
I need some inspiring stimulation...
I need some new options to ponder upon...

I can do without the monotony of day to day life...
I can do without the bullshit they try to feed us theese days...
I can do without the caged in feeling that overcomes me when i wake...

And it only can get better...
It is indeed that time again...
the days are becoming shorter, nights are getting colder and my love for the winter is slowly creeping it's way up my spine... and into my mind.

Why this is?... i cannot give any logical explanation for, it's just something that has stuck in my mind since i was a wee-one...

(random outburst of memories)

You cant believe what you dont see...
each grain of sand beneath the sea...
you have no faith in a dream...
fade into the landscape unseen...

breathe in breathe deep
a lifetime is too long too sleep
waiting for winter's first snow
to cover your tracks so no-one will know
that you ever lived or ever lied
you wouldn't give
and never tried...

In a field of weeds killing time
a winding river rushes by...
all the while you seem to be going blind
a cold numb grey in your eye...


counting the days...
counting the days......

mood: drained and exhausted
           living on dreams of nights gone bye...

listening to: Tom Waits, Lamb of God
I can't be far off now...
too far from the ways that keep me bound here
i have been long before
maybe some past life that ended abrubtly...

These dreams keep me from loosing all grip
i wake... bring forth the day
with the constant hovering feeling that i'm gonna fall...
but i never do...

and you only see me in bad dreams...
And as reality slowly kicks it's foremost quality into my mind... i cant  help but wonder when it's all just gonna end.
This past week i had expirienced one of the biggest trips of my life.... I went to the Dour Festival in Belgium, and it blew my mind away...
We arrived on Wednesday night with enough light to find a campsite and set up the tents amongst the other 30,000 campsite freaks.... when that was all done, we assumed our drinking positions and prepared for the next day.
The next morning i was rudely awakened by a sound check being done on one of the stages a half click away... but it was all good, cause this is what we came for....
The day began ranting and screaming French and Belgian folk... as i sat in my chair sipping on my hot cup'o'mud i could not imagine what waited for me in the coming of days...
And indeed i had no idea....
Sunday night was to be the last night... and it carried on till eight in the morning, or at least that's when they stopped serving anything to drink... and as you could imagine the Natives were restless. Everything flammable was set ablaze, anything that could be used to hit something (wood, metal ect)
was gathered for a rythmic use... the stage in the 24hour tent became a massive percussion section.. with tripped out hippies not wanting to let go of the trip that they had so dearly been holding on too for the last five days... and they pounded on and on and on... till they had to be removed by security.
We left later that day considering we had a 400 mile drive ahead of us... we needed sleep... or at least something to stimulate the mind...
On the way home i realized that fivedays had just blown by me... and the only recolections i have are graciously stored in the 4 or 500 photos i had made in space of five days...
And i count the days till i return....

Mood: FUBAR'D!!!!
Listening to: Amon Tobin, Isis and Dalek

Chowda!!!
I'm tired... and i need to sleep like never before...

i just realized i had not done a journal entry in more than a month... hmmmmm...

listening to: Boards of Canada
            "music has the right to children"  
                     and
                  Biosphere
                 "substrada"

both highly recomended for chillaxin' and staring at the rain in the window...

take care all