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Pocket Chalk
A short autistic!12th Doctor fic by me, an autistic fanfic author. This can be read as Whouffaldi if you squint really really really hard and it’s set just before the events in the episode Under the Lake.
The fic is about how chaotic everything can feel if an autistic person is unexpectedly separated from a preferred comfort object. It could be anything from a specific shirt, a piece of jewelry, noise canceling headphones, a stuffed animal…or a box of chalk.
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Cacophony.
His brain was pure cacophony, like a busy city, screeching tires, automobile accidents, a thousand whistling teakettles, dial-up modems, ringing telephones, crying babies and a black hole's gravity reverberating simultaneously inside his skull.
Scribbled equations marked the chalkboard he kept staring at, but they didn't make sense. There wasn't any chalk on the shelf below it. Worse, his coat pocket was empty. No box of chalk to sniff for reassurance. Being without its weight and scent felt wro
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In the Shadow, In the Light
 Note: Hello! It's been a long time since I wrote something for the Light!verse. For those just joining me and my TFA fics, the reading order for this series is: Faith in the Horizon, Light, Life is a Tree, Hands Free, Voice to Voice, Axioms, Paradoxes, Isomorphisms, Hindsight, Snowflakes and Tears, and this fic. I have them properly linked in the description under the story. They weren't written in that order, but that's the order they should be read for the series to make the most sense.  
 Hope you enjoy the show and thanks for stopping by!  
 Oh yeah, this fic contains SLASH.  
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 In the Shadow, In the Light  
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 "Caravan of life--  
by day and by night.  
Every tile's a part of life  
if it’s the shadow of light..."  
 --Enigma, "In the Shadow, In the Light"  
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 Distant laughter echoed off the concrete and metal streets of
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It Gets Better: A Doctor Who fanfic pt 2 :iconc-y-n-d-i:C-y-n-d-i 5 8
I'm 38 today. Geez. I feel old. XD

DA has been a place of drama and fun and I guess time pushes us on to wherever we're meant to go.

I still check here every now and then. I wouldn't call myself "active" because I consider active to be posting stuff. I haven't posted anything in my gallery in ages. I keep my account up because it's part of my internet history. Some of it is a very ugly part of it and others are fun and fond memories.

10 years ago, I was embroiled in drama over fanfiction. It's so silly when I look back on it now. That past-tense me was still very wounded from high school and had all those old wounds opened up by the drama. The death threats were the worst. I completely reverted to my school age self when all that went down because it tugged on very bad memories. I was sleeping with a lamp aimed at my window out of fear of somebody climbing in to hurt me.

I know all the drama wouldn't have happened if I just accepted that Ambrosia didn't belong on this site, but I 100% didn't think it broke the rules and felt like I was being singled out. That is why I reacted. Then the high school brain kicked in and didn't want to admit to being wrong because that always, always, always led to even more ridicule. I kept fighting when I knew I was wrong because I couldn't admit it to myself. Ironically, when I finally *did* admit it, most of the harassment stopped right away and the rest kind of tapered off.

I won't say I deserved what happened because nobody deserves that. It crossed a line into cyberbullying. People will say it was trolling, but no, personal and detailed death threats in my inbox were not mere trolling. I sent them to my aunt, who is a cop, and she would patrol past my house in her squad car when she had the time because it helped me feel safe.

Anyway, that's a decade ago and it's the past. I grew up a bit since then. Maybe the impulse control center of my brain finally finished maturing. I'm less reactive than I used to be. I cringe at 28 year old me, but I can't say I want to erase the mess like it never happened. It taught me a lot about the internet and how cruel people really are. Most importantly, it taught me there are people who care, too. My friends rallied behind me. I was able to tell myself I wasn't despised by *everyone* and that helped. I'm grateful for that.

Maybe I'm a bit wiser and my skin is a tiny bit thicker. Or maybe I finally figured out I don't have to take myself so seriously all the time.

So here's to life. I wonder who I'll be when I'm 48. I guess we'll wait and see!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you my friend Hope you have a great one and have a great time.

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Thanks! :) :) :D
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Ayyyyyy thanks!
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Oh you're welcome by JJJMadness   
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quarkes Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2018
You still around?
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C-y-n-d-i Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2018
Not much no lol. This is just here as part of my history. :)
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quarkes Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2018
Oh. That unicron music video you made with his theme was awesome. 10 years now.
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This is streamofawareness, right? I LOVE YOU!
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C-y-n-d-i Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2018
Yup. I don't use Deviantart much anymore, but I'm keeping my account up because it's a part of my history. :) Thanks! :D
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologize that your greeting has arrived late this year.

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happy birthday!! Minecraft cake (Pixel art) 
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