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I suppose I should explain myself a bit more than I already have. I may have cries for help, I may vent here and there and want help, but I will never accept it. In fact I will run away from it for as long as I can. I've said before, I have self hatred and this unfortunately doesn't allow me to accept help. My previous experiences of asking for help have been pretty bad as well. Anytime I had asked for help as a kid I was shunned, ignored, yelled at or hit for being too stupid to solve the problem all my own. It's discouraged me to ask for help.
Any help I receive now from, may I honestly say, kind and generous people/followers just.. hurts. I know it's not intended to but it does. It makes me realize how pathetic I am. I take every word in as a negative impact on who I am and want to be. I am personally offended and often end up feeling worse than usual. I guess it's my anxiety at work but still.
If it's any justification, yes. I am a dick. I am an asshole, a piece of shit, selfish prick, etc. Or... I can be anyways. When touching on sensitive topics I may behave that way but that's not all there is to me. Don't judge me so quickly by my short temper and snarky attitude. It's only part of a whole. No, I'm not the victim, but still. I felt the need to say.

Anyways, relating to the previous vent, yes. I hid your comments. But that doesn't mean I will never read them. I may read them when I need them most, which isn't right now. Anyways, thank you for reading. Unwatch me if you want, Block me if you feel the need. You can comment whatever here and I will not hide it. I just felt the need to explain.

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SwiftHidden Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2017  Student Digital Artist
I respect that and understand that could affect ones view on help. I still wouldn't mind talking some time, doesn't have to be about issues or anything. 
shortishgirl12 Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2017
Well, if you ask for help now, you can always ask for it nowadays. People (including myself) would love to help you if you would like but respect if you don't want any help. The only hate you can get from the internet is hate comments, which can be easily ignored.
iLoveCreativity14 Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry for not knowing of this.
I am still willing to help anyone and everyone. Even if they don't like it.

So I'm sorry for not knowing of this sooner.
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