Im actually quite happy for you ^^ Looks like you found something that you truly enjoy drawing. To be honest, Hating yourself or your work is what will truly hold you back in not just your work, but in life too. Wishing you the best, and fluffy hugs
Dude! Don't worry about not getting time to work on OC. Nobody minds. X3 Sorry you're feeling like this, but trust me, the amount of people who want to support you / you to do what makes you happy will surprise you.