This is something I MUST get out and I will feel better once I do, But I want to make a major apology for the way I've been...
I sadly have been succumbed to and known as 'The Clinger" A clinger is someone who is a needy person and relies on people constantly to feel better, whilst not giving them the space they need whilst they feel empty inside. I have been this way for a long while now and I'm now getting assistance from my doctor and therapist for it. What hurts the most is that I never knew how bad I had become, until I saw the signs from my friends, I won't name them in this journal though.
This has now made me finally open my eyes and realise what damage I have been doing to my friends, particularly my closest ones and I feel so ashamed for how bad it got without me knowing, its hard for friends to tell you this sort of thing without hurting you.
So from now, things will change, I will not be smothering anyone anymore, we can all look out for ourselves, but we can still help each other but I will let everyone go by their closest of friends, ones that matter most! I will be watching what I say and do around here and other servers from now on!
I love everyone here, I really do, you lot are more then great <3 Thanks for taking your time to read this <3