I regret not telling him all of my negative feelings for him (so I could spare his feelings) because now I'm left with the feeling that he thinks the reason I stopped talking to him is because it hurts too much to think of the happy times rather than ...
It's stupid how I'm still angry at him, and I think I always will be, which is why I stopped talking to him and why I couldn't (and probably can never) be friends with him. What he said to me and how he treated me near the end of our relationship (and recently) will probably always be a part of me, whether as a way to remind myself never to have someone like that in my life again or because I just can't seem to let go of things that hurt me. There is no doubt in my mind that in some way, my personality also led to the demise of the relationship, but I still can't bring myself to forgive him, and there was definitely precedent for my fears/wor
It boggles my mind just how much anger I feel towards my second ex. Sometimes I wish I could just go back in time and take back those last months (and my virginity).
http://thecleverestwitch.com/2013/09/16/an-open-letter-to-the-guy-who-took-my-virginity/ Shit. This letter sums up my all of my feelings.
"I guess the point to this entire letter was just for you to know. I’ve never really told you how angry I was or how much I cried over all of this. I kept it inside. Maybe I let it slip once or twice, but I don’t think you fully can ever understand the deep impact all of this has had on me. Not only does it hang in my past, it als