This is a journal that I should've made a year ago, the only reason why I hadn't is because I have been too ashamed of myself to show my face on this site aside from talking to close friends in Notes.
I have made a great deal of mistakes. I have hurt many people who have called me their friend, I have turned people against each other, I have been extremely selfish in more ways than one, and I have ignored some of my closest friends who I have known since I joined this website.
No apology I can give can ever truly make up for all of the things I have done, but I accept that. I have lost a great many friends, and as much as it hurts, I understand that they have their reasons to have left me and I have no one to blame but myself. My behaviour has been toxic and malicious to many people, most of whom have called me their friend. Were I in their shoes, I would have done the same.
But in all of my years of being on this site, I have met some of the greatest friends I've ever made in my entire life that I would never have met elsewhere. I realize I have not been the best friend to anyone, with all of my mistakes and wrongdoings, but know that I cherish each and every one of you that calls me your friend. I have never been happier than to have met you amazing people.
As the title of this journal implies, I am turning over a new leaf. Disregarding the sins of my past, but not forgetting the wrongs I have committed against others. With the grace of God and the support of my friends, I hope to better myself and grow as a person.
I do not expect forgiveness towards those I have wronged, nor do they have any obligation to do so, but know that I am sorry for all I've done.
Never again will I misplace the trust in those who call me their friend, I will live the rest of my life by this promise. God bless each and every one of you.