Chaos' Toy (BAK) *pre 2013*life is complicated
i hate it
the emotions make things miseriable
and terribly difficult.
I never understood how to be
"true to yourself" because frankly who doesnt
lie to themselves about things.
Its almost immpossible to be completly
honest to yourself.
Because YOU know what YOU wanna hear!
Another thing is everyone isnt always honest
with you either!
Its hard to have real friends,
Theyre hard to find,
And you sure as heck cant really make 'em anymore!
I hate this, Life loves throwin me curve balls im already
insane i dont need a push!
The Chaos Cat is watching with a grin for i
am his ball of Yarn!
This equation doesnt add it never did but
these problems keep rising up everythime i fall!
It as though i can not win at all.
Lies Lead to Lonliness (BAK) *pre 2013*Some say time heals all wounds well i beg to differ with that!
you sit there & sit there & think about whatever it is was more & more
which makes it worse and that helps nothing!
Others say when you start a lie you end up weaving a web i say thats quite incorrect as well.
or that person just sucked at lying & got caught early in their process
when you start lying you start falling off a cliff into a deep dark trench.
sure you hit a legde climb onto it thinking ur safe now but it.
isnt it cracks & crumbles
it gets lonesome.
yes it does this trench is your mind your own personal prison.
you cant run
you cant escape.
you can call for help but whats the use
no ones rope of support they toss you is never long enough
or moving fast enough to catch you.
Lonliness isnt a "a stone in the stomach"
its a dang bullet to the chest
an arrow to the heart.
thats barely a comparision but its close enough.
dang it lonliness is the bars that go around
Invisible Kid (BAK) *pre 2013*Invisible Kid (BAK) *pre 2013*
Here's the story of a foolish girl
She got tired of ponies
Seeing, hearing, and even touching her.
So she wished for invisibility.
Then she was lonely,
Her thoughts a drone:
"I see them but
They don't see me.
I speak but
They feel air.
I touch but
I am not there.
No one can help me,
Nor can they hurt me
Because to them I don't exist,
Not now not ever.
Oh what I would give to be seen again."
I would know how she feels,
For this foolish girl
Alas was me.
Voices (BAK)*pre 2013*VoicesVoices (BAK)*pre 2013*
Voices are something we all have.
Whether one inspires another
Or, one says great things to try to bring peace,
or solve a life-changing mystery.
But not everyone can speak with their mouth
some use their hands,
others their paintings,
their writings or
Just any way to be heard by everyone else in this ignorant world
with their own special kind of voice.
The problem that saddens me is that most of those with voices don't use them.
Because of their fear and fright
that may trouble them each night.
So why don't they just speak up and tell us what the problem is?
Don't you see that's where we cut the wire
because we may lecture too much and listen too little?
So wherever they are they've been scorned
by those who try to help them.
So listen more when someone needs to tell you something important
you might be one of the first to help them.
Like some have for me