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Still Life March 2019 by brea83 Still Life March 2019 :iconbrea83:brea83 1 0 Eleven Character Sheet by brea83 Eleven Character Sheet :iconbrea83:brea83 1 0 Hornedworm Cold by brea83 Hornedworm Cold :iconbrea83:brea83 2 3 Odd Saturday Wormup by brea83 Odd Saturday Wormup :iconbrea83:brea83 0 0 Hornedworm Snowflakes by brea83 Hornedworm Snowflakes :iconbrea83:brea83 3 0 Flowers jan 3 2019 by brea83 Flowers jan 3 2019 :iconbrea83:brea83 1 0 PennyBun by brea83 PennyBun :iconbrea83:brea83 0 0 [reworked] Erik as the Hanged Man by brea83 [reworked] Erik as the Hanged Man :iconbrea83:brea83 3 0 Day27_hornedworm_Lightning by brea83 Day27_hornedworm_Lightning :iconbrea83:brea83 1 0 Muttonchops Worm by brea83 Muttonchops Worm :iconbrea83:brea83 0 0 Muddy Worm by brea83 Muddy Worm :iconbrea83:brea83 0 0 Erik as the Hanged Man by brea83 Erik as the Hanged Man :iconbrea83:brea83 3 0 Day19_Scorched by brea83 Day19_Scorched :iconbrea83:brea83 3 0 Bottle of Horned Worm Scales by brea83 Bottle of Horned Worm Scales :iconbrea83:brea83 1 0 Swollen Pride by brea83 Swollen Pride :iconbrea83:brea83 0 0 Angular Worm by brea83 Angular Worm :iconbrea83:brea83 2 0

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Nixie by DAV-19 Nixie :icondav-19:DAV-19 2,017 90 Precious Metal by DAV-19 Precious Metal :icondav-19:DAV-19 2,757 95 Shima Enaga by DAV-19 Shima Enaga :icondav-19:DAV-19 2,986 193 noodles noodle! - F2U by omenaadopts noodles noodle! - F2U :iconomenaadopts:omenaadopts 542 61 Tranquil by AlviaAlcedo Tranquil :iconalviaalcedo:AlviaAlcedo 2,377 79 Inktober Day 2: Tranquil by TsaoShin Inktober Day 2: Tranquil :icontsaoshin:TsaoShin 4,316 342 Winter plum wine ear cuffs by JuliaKotreJewelry Winter plum wine ear cuffs :iconjuliakotrejewelry:JuliaKotreJewelry 130 10 Martin Luther - Dorm Room by Lyraina Martin Luther - Dorm Room :iconlyraina:Lyraina 81 3 Ceremonial by wlop Ceremonial :iconwlop:wlop 16,001 303 [346] Noble by mcptato [346] Noble :iconmcptato:mcptato 655 0 Paru Magician by caly-graphie Paru Magician :iconcaly-graphie:caly-graphie 82 26 Timeless: Hunting Grounds by WhiteMantisArt Timeless: Hunting Grounds :iconwhitemantisart:WhiteMantisArt 2,443 37 Father by wlop Father :iconwlop:wlop 13,018 304 Morrowind..new home by Selann Morrowind..new home :iconselann:Selann 67 3 The 36 Lessons of Vivec by EileenLyn The 36 Lessons of Vivec :iconeileenlyn:EileenLyn 6 4 Bitter Coast by Eldanaro Bitter Coast :iconeldanaro:Eldanaro 740 75
Okay let's look at the goals I set for myself.
  • Making a "finished" drawing every day.
  • Be drawing a heck of a lot of hornedworms.
  • upload these drawings every day, or at least once a week.
  • tweet about these drawings every day, or at least once a week.
So I fell short of my goal of participating every day, but I did complete a drawing for 22 out of 31 days. I feel pretty good about that considering I was also adjusting to having four hours (or more on homework days) of my day taken up by my new Swedish language lessons. I remember now why I avoided class schedules that had me going to school every day when I was in university: Being around people is exhausting and I take way to long to recover from it, regardless of whether I was having a good time or not.

Next goal. "Be drawing a heck of a lot of hornedworms." This was a resounding success. I have drawn so many good worms. A+

How did I do on my upload rate? I seem to have managed slightly more than once a week, but not quite every day. Generally weekends were my weakest time.

Similarly I managed to get all of my works posted to Facebook, but I had a much harder time tweeting about all of them. I think part of this is that I actually had a community of other artists on facebook to commiserate with. I was usually excited to share there, as opposed to twitter which felt like exposing myself to the great mysterious void and tempting fate just waiting for the trolls to show up and tell me how I'm inktobering wrong. That last bit never happened, so I guess that part of the anxiety was disproportionate. However I think this is really telling that I still haven't really figured out how to interact on twitter yet. I don't really know what I want to say there, what I want my "brand" to be so to speak.

Over all, I think I made great strides to meeting my goals for a first attempt. I certainly learned some things about myself. Now some general thoughts about the whole process:

I bailed out on several of the weekends due to how exhausted I was from essentially trying to maintain two part time jobs (my art and my school)... especially since some days I was so into what I was drawing that I was not able to keep myself to short hours. I ended up working a few 12+ hour days. I think this is a place where inktober works at cross purposes to the things I need to practice. I felt such an intense pressure to get my art posted within a single 24 hour period that I did not take enough care of my health, both physically and mentally. Thankfully all of my ailments were minor, but I did experience basically all of the stress induced issues that I used to only get during midterms and finals at university... All month.

On the plus side sharing my art regularly with deviantart and facebook was Really motivating and reassuring. I draw a bit on the slow side, especially when I set a complex composition for myself... which are the kinds of things I love to draw. And I am super susceptible to the self doubt that creeps in when I go a while without any feedback on what I'm working on. These things combine to mean that I have often gone very long periods with nothing that I feel is "good enough" to share with folks, and thus long periods without feedback, resulting in a mess of nasty thoughts about myself and my work. So even though I pushed myself too hard for this Inktober, I am really glad I participated. I was able to reach out and connect with other artists, friends, and family, and that really helped ground my motivations and give me more strength to fight off my brain spiders... at least regarding making art. Brain spiders are awfully tenacious jerks.

I think next year I may reduce my goals to better reflect the time I need to work on multiple projects and take care of myself. But I am definitely going to be giving this another go.

Thanks to everyone who went on this journey with me.
To you and everyone else I wish you, as always:
Love & Peace

Pride

I AM PROUD

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brea83
Brianalana
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United States
I am in the middle of moving to Malmö Sweden from Portland Oregon.

I am the curator of The Crooked Thimble, a self employed programmer and artist. I create, I dream. I enjoy sparring with pole-arms and swords.

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DebasishPhotos Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks a lot for the fave.:) (Smile)
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brea83 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Your photos are so lovely! It's hard to not favorite them all. :D (Big Grin) 
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DebasishPhotos Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Glad that you liked them.:) (Smile) 
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