First I want to apologize to everyone especially my close friends for my absence. Actually, I truly never was absent. I supposed inactivity would be appropriate. I'm trying to be more active and supportive, but unfortunately, I'm not the only one who was/is inactive, but now I'm here and ready to be the friend/watcher I should be.
I also want to thank everyone who has reached out to me even though I remained self-absorbed in my own issues. It's easy to be anti-social and isolated which worsens depression. I'm trying to avoid that again.
September 3, 2013
Well, my niece, Sydney, has started kindergarten. Some of you may remember her. She had cancer when she was 2, but she's in remission. Unfortunately, she has a genetic disorder that causes tumors and she had to get surgery last year to remove one that grew on her liver, but of course she's a trooper and it was removed. Today she started kindergarten. It was a happy experience for us all with all that she had been through. She cried on the bus because she was nervous, but she likes her teacher and her class. So that's awesome...my little Sydney Poo. End of Edit
I'm proud to say that I haven't made a suicide attempt in over a year despite what my former psychiatrist believed. I'm in a much better healthcare system; with a lot more support, assisted programs and understanding. In all honesty though I still often have suicidal thoughts. Thankfully though currently and surprisingly I do not have them now.
So today my dad was fired under the pretext that his work performance was low. Wow, it took them 17 years to think so.
We'll have to make some adjustments, but I want my dad to know that we know we're going to be okay even if we have to make sacrifices. It isn't fair, but that's the world we live in. Unfortunately, a lot of people are worse off than us. I just want to say thank you to my little dA sisters sanjis-bride
for putting up with me. I love you both. End of Edit
You think it wouldn't happen to you, but it can. My dad may seriously lose his job; a job he's worked at for 15 years. Mind you I nor my mother works. He takes care of this family and I'm preparing myself mentally for the sacrifices that I must make so that our needs (and not our wants) are taken care of. If he does get fired that means no more dA subscription. It's funny; in the last 5 years that I've been a deviant member I had never gone without a subscription. It's funny how easy one can get spoiled, but a dA subscription is nothing compared to needing food and shelter. I was panicky at first, but then I remembered where I could find the greatest comfort and some are in these words at Matthew 6:32, "So never be anxious and say, 'What are we to eat?' or, 'What are we to drink?' or, 'What are we to put on?'... For YOUR heavenly Father knows YOU need all these thing."
I must admit the thought of dad not having a job is very disconcerting, but I intend, along with my family to make the best of our situation and whatever changes we may have to make in our lifestyle. Perhaps we won't have the luxuries we do now, but we have faith through prayer that no matter what in the end we'll be provided for even if it's only basic necessities. Philippians 4:6, 7 "Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let YOUR petitions be made known to God; and the peace of God that excels all thought will guard YOUR hearts and YOUR mental powers by means of Christ Jesus."
Thank you for reading my friends and I wish you all the very best.
For the Nostalgia, My niece Sydney