November 2nd, 2016: Hi everyone. It's been a long time since I last updated this journal. With things going on lately, I feel now would be the best time to kind of give an update on what's been happening. I've mostly tried to keep a lot of this to myself and handle it on my own, but I've already let some friends know about my recent life circumstances through different places we interact at so I thought I'd let everyone else know too for anyone who reads my journals these days. I'm going to paste what I already said about it on Discord, since it best summarizes everything we've been dealing with. Honestly I'm hoping to push this journal out of the way soon enough, or even delete it after a short while since it's been a painful reminder of everything.
So, below in quotes is what I had to say about it. For clarification, my Dad had to be rushed to the hospital two weeks ago at night because of a sudden medical emergency, in which he was admitted and a few days later he was told he would need a pacemaker and would need to undergo a procedure to place one in him. My maternal grandma also passed away last Thursday after her health took a downturn from Parkinson's. My grandpa who was married to her for sixty years has had his share of physical health issues and this recent turn of events of losing her isn't going to be easy for him. The mention of my paternal great-uncle is because he has also been not doing so well, with his cancer returning and he can no longer undergo chemo treatments at his advanced age, and is doing his best to hang in there for as long as he can.
"Thanks a lot for the support, guys. I really appreciate it, honestly, and I'm honestly very sorry that a lot of the times you do see me around whenever I'm not commenting on your art elsewhere, that you see me all sad and down about life when I'm almost sure you guys have had your fill of it by now. Wouldn't blame you there at all for feeling that way. It was already a jolt with my poor Dad, where a routine afternoon of doing laundry out at the laundromat resulted in this emergency. If we hadn't called 9-11, it is almost certain that we could have lost him according to his doctors, and when they were working on stabilizing him he said he passed out and had this vision of all these blurry-faced angels working on him to fix him, thinking they were preparing him for Heaven or something. I'm lucky he's still here. With my grandma, I mean we were told things were going downhill, but I had no idea it'd be this fast. My sisters and I visited her and my grandpa with other members of my mom's side of the family just last Saturday while my dad was still in the hospital for their 60th wedding anniversary, and I mean she was really out of it and zoned out and couldn't say much at all, but man...it happened all so quick. She passed away at home surrounded by family; my dad and I couldn't make it to see her but my dad did call the church in their town to call a priest and he rushed there right away to give her a prayer...and my grandma's sister and her husband who happened to be passing through the state managed to drop in and visit just a short while before she passed away that afternoon. Her services are on Thursday morning, so I know it's going to be hard trying to make it through. I'm even less certain of how well my grandpa will be going forward, since everything in his day was about her and now with just their live-in caretaker, it's just them and last I heard he isn't taking this too well at all understandably. As for my great-uncle, he called our house the day before my grandma passed away I think and he had a nice long conversation with my Dad about things, so for the time being I'm just hoping he'll be able to keep going for as long as he possibly can...and if God forbid something happens to him she at least has plans to move in with her daughter and husband in Virginia so she'll not be lonely. And with my own health issues, I've been struggling a lot with my winded feeling and anxiety among a few other things, but those are the top two that are really knocking me around and I really need to see some specialists. I have a few appointments booked this month as I'm trying to get seen while I still can, since I'm afraid of losing my insurance what with this upcoming presidential election going on and I have mine through the Affordable Care Act exchange, which has been a pretty contentious issue this campaign season. Money's been tight and whatnot, so we're just trying to make it by with what we can. And...that's about all I can really say about this right now. I'm honestly sorry for being so like this and you guys putting up with me like this. You deserve much better. Just gonna try to hang in there the best I can, I suppose...and hope for better and easier days ahead...hopefully..."
Also, I just wanted to post an update regarding anyone interested in my art updates. I've still been working on them, and my second-to-last picture I had worked on since earlier this year is already finished. I'm just waiting on a friend who kindly volunteered to digitally outline the shaded drawing for me at their own leisure and once they complete it, it'll be done totally. It's the new character drawing I mentioned a long while back. All that's left to do is shade my friend's long overdue birthday gift...but it might take me awhile longer to finish than I anticipated given life's recent events and the fact I'm having trouble trying to shade it the way I want to. My sincerest apologies for the lateness, dude. New updates are ready and will be shown when the time is better, hopefully soon enough once things hopefully settle down more so.
Thank you for reading...and I hope things can get better soon in some way for all of us.
And thanks for all the page views and favorites and comments! Without you guys, I definitely wouldn't be here right now.
I really appreciate all your support!