Sitting in silence Waiting for a sound Some kind of sign that you are around. Waiting in the darkness Hoping for your light The silence is deafening. I just want to hear your voice I want to know that you're okay I want to know that we're okay I hate the silence Paranoia It takes over me.

It's hard to express my thoughts into words To put memories into verses and light up this page It's been so long since you left my arms And I can't seem to fill the hole in my heart. I've got to find a way to close you off, To switch off every thought and feeling, I don't know where I'm going anymore Without you in my life. I've loved you unconditionally I've betrayed you more than I care to admit We've broken each others hearts over and over again Only yours seems to be repaired. I guess all I want to know is where I stand Or what I ever meant to you I refuse to admit I was a faze or a fling But I guess I'll never really know. There's a

I wake each day with you on my mind, Picturing your smile and hearing your laugh, As your eyes look at me, And your lips form the words, That take me away. My world seems incomplete without you in it, My day doesn't start until I've said good morning to you, My happiness almost relies on you, You're the one who... Completes me. I'll never understand why it was me that you chose, With all my flaws and the mistakes I've made, But I won't question why, I'll smile with you by my side, You're the reason I'm alive. I love you truly, My heart is yours, I want your hand in mine, I want you by my side, To be my lover and my wife, Th

To the one I used to love; By now I've probably left some form of mark on you in the form of all the brutal things I've written in your name, and I feel ashamed that I've written such things. I won't apologize, because there isn't any point. I was angry, I was hurt, and I hated you. Or at least, I wanted to. These last 6 months have been the hardest I've faced in my life. In the scheme of things probably nothing. I imagine you've had it pretty breezy, with support from all your friends and family... diving into your world of Guild Wars and music. I'm happy you found your support, but I never really had any of my own. I've faced 6 months al

The face of anger The face of pain The heart that says I won't be doing that again The awkward silence I can't get any peace Quietly brewing those voices in my head Watching you Waiting for failure Keeping myself afloat Hoping you'll feel pain Tearing down walls Letting in the darkness Dwelling makes it worse Pain becomes my own. Can't think about it anymore Causes too much stress I can't get it out of my head It's buried to far down. Why? Can't I let it go? Why? Can't we see past the hatred. Why has it consumed me Why has it doomed me Is this all I've become? Have I really come undone? I can't pick up the pieces I can't find my peace No mat

There isn't enough bourbon in the world That could drown you out of my mind The memories and the disappointment The times I was out of line. As I crack another stubbie I turn the track up louder, I try to tell myself it's over Euphoria washes over. It's well established that its over Whatever love I had is gone It's not that I'm dwelling on a love lost But that I had a friend that betrayed me. You don't see it I think it's more that you don't care I know there's no point trying Because you think it's all my fault. Dwelling on the things I did wrong by you, I guess you could say I have a lot to answer for But you allowed yourself to become

All my friends in far off places similar suffering, different faces Making their lives however they choose, not knowing what they have... what they're willing to lose... You all part of what makes me who I am. I watch your pain, I make it mine I swallow it up, I take that time It becomes part of me, what makes me see What it takes to live your life. I hate seeing the pain, I want it gone I would happily take it off you to see the smiles on your faces. I want to be your heroes, I want to make you happy Because thats the way I am. Call me crazy, call me stupid, But your lives are worth living... I wish I was half of what you all are... You'r