After practicing a some more, I realized something that fundamentally affects my ability to draw well or not. It has also been found in my school activities or studies. Let's say I saw an anime character and I identify the artists style. I try to replicate it and then I say in my mind (Before I've drawn it) to look at it again and repeat this process several times doing only single strokes with every look.
Then I remind myself "Wait, I know how to draw eyes, heads and faces by now. Why do I still need reference." Moreover, I need to look back at it after I just saw it. I may have something relating to Aphantasia. I only have wavering images of something but they're not constant enough (As constant as looking at an apple in nature). When I visualize, I see different color apples and a ton of random, mundane images flood through my mind WHILE trying to visualize the apple.
This is a detriment to being able to draw from imagination and it keeps me in a state of stasis when I'm on my art journey. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? Or know any way to correct this.
(Aphantasia: Aphantasia is the suggested name for a condition where one does not possess a functioning mind's eye and cannot voluntarily visualize imagery.)