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Alex
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Surpassing Normality
It could kill you, you know? Yes.  That's why I like it. Hang every threshold of stimulation and bring a crown of lively chaos upon my brow. Frustrations caused me to open gates previously unrecognized, unconsidered, untouched, unrevealed. All on a path of growth, dismay, and hope.
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Artificial Severance
What do you feel? You were at liberty to tell me. You felt free enough to let me know. Little did we expect that the technology that brings us together can just as easily seperate.  (Just as the machines that support our lives can clasp and burst them -- puncture their thin film and let run the liquid that once kept them supple.) Although sometimes, that's the only way to move on. And I know it's positive overall, at least this time for in spite of this severance, we are given the opportunity to reunite more promptly under greater circumstances.
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Interconnection in Darkness
Patches of darkened amber are the light connecting my various city sections. We're living in this post midnight world I've created And at this moment it holds in place just as I wish for it to. A reflection of a place only distantly rendered, perhaps, in thoughts; its outline fitting perfectly inside a cut-out, matching silhouette Witnessing patterns in the sun, frozen in space Just as they did in fractal dreams Walk the path of True, now, with what you've gained (The end of which is wonderfully unknown) And we'll all continue in grace.
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Throes, Clouds
Are we ever joined?  Accompanied solitude runs  through my 24th hour My synchronicity is spent And throes, clouds surround View scrolling  Left  Inward  Right  Carefully Concealing the erratic violence within my mind And later, I'll enjoy nightmares that have crossed over
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blueNINE Poetry Amber
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Turning to Nothing and No One
When I'm taken over There is nowhere I can go to now; Sit in the Eye and let resonate the sounds of the hurricane And by the red escaping from my ears, it seems that surely I cannot endure much longer.
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Ljilj
Lean forward and sink.  Fall into thoughts of colorless (but blue) light from the arising of dawn, fading out what was night. You're a new energy and a different type.  Like a geometrical shape previously unseen, unimagined.  An overlooked element. And while origin and communication seperate, the fact that our true source is one and the same is inescapable and defines our reality. I beg my consciousness not to regard a lesser reality as an ultimately seperating factor. Forever existing with silver chimes spiriting between my thoughts, I'll continue on my way.  Wish for the best.  Don't step back.  Embrace the present, and create the futur
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Intrinsic
Elevating from the bottom of my forgotten well Cold blue walls reflecting the light of a bad moon You return to my consciousness, bursting between the drumming of my heartbeats Gushing, distilled. Unorthodox harmony of elation and dissonance Am I to be cast away? Is this the undoing of my soul\'s precious armor? Tear through tear, I will perpetuate my scattered equilibrium.
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Sadness - Fantasy
In sadness and fantasy I am...daydreaming of relationships nonexistent at present, dark nights, pale green lights with art and happiness flowing through my veins.  If only...
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Nothing Could Ruin
I long to look out and see black, blanketed by sheets of sonic metal and rain -- endless, forever Then nothing could ruin.
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Choler
Unjustness ratified Tangible, now, is the wall of control The rampant fury is now loosely confined Run your edges through me once more, malign ones I am mortally wounded again... Retire the covinous portrayed figure My content appearance lies FOR HOW LONG CAN ONE SUFFER YET SURVIVE WITH FESTERING HOPES?
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Choler II
Unjustness ratified Tangible, now, is the wall of control The rampant fury has been freed Run your edges through me once more, O malign scythe I am mortally wounded once more... Retire my covinous portrayed figure My content appearance lies to you The unworldly red stain Ungodly, forsaken Trails across the blue ceiling Acidic tears burning through the memories from the life once lived FOR HOW LONG CAN ONE SUFFER YET SURVIVE WITH FESTERING HOPES?
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The Construction of Life
The construction of life Built, raised, and given feeling Over time, thoughts tainted, bloodied, raped, and maligned What is it that kills me? I am distant in existence, yet I am manifested here As long as I live, I see myself impaled Charcoal spear through my heart Killing my mind, building tension in my body As long as I live, I see myself before a wall of red Devourers of life and love As unbelievable as a dream, the wall collapses over me Always
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Candles in the Snow
What they call imbalance we believe is our evolution. They seek to alter us because they can't change. One must adapt to the other, as fire may not burn on ice But they force candles to survive in the snow...
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blueNINE Downward Spiral
blueNINE Downward Spiral
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Critical Reactor
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Blue NIN Logo
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ThieF Icon
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Foliage
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goodbye darkness.
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Right.  Another year is now past.  I plan to give some attention to this page.  This profile will be refined, I think, and then perhaps I will move forward. Also, any entries or updates that I had previously said I'd make later on in this journal...that is all null now. 23.  I'm still here.
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Yes...I am twenty-two as of today.  Crazy how time passes so quickly.
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Still Around
Right.  I am still around.  And (of course) I still create artwork, although it is primarily music.  I have been taking more photographs, though, and it is possible that I will start posting some of those (along with some writing) here.  Maybe not.  Maybe not for a while.  In any case, though...hello, people.  Keep making art.
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angelnatasia's avatar
Hey there long lost friend.... Just thinking about you. I don't know if you even get on DeviantArt anymore but I'd sure love to hear from you! If you are on Facebook... find me. Angel Natasia McVay. LOVE!
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ValvadorHobbyist Digital Artist
Hello and happy b-day, Alex! :boogie:
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CackleberryHobbyist Photographer
Hey there! I see that its your birthday either now or very soon.. well, I hope you have a great one! :hug: Celebrate it to the fullest, its YOUR day! Best wishes.
~9th September.
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synconi Artisan Crafter
:wave: Happy belated birthday!!! :party: :cake: :heart:
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frozenpandaman General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :boogie: :party: :cake: :#1: