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Literature
the forgotten one
the anger inside
it burns me.
you see
he called to tell me
he was going to be
out
with someone else
at a place i had long wanted to share with him,
had mentioned many times.
so inside
i rage
and want to fly
to cry
to say goodbye
to scream and slam the door.
i want to shut him out
and end the endless series of petty hurts.
i glare at him in my mind
for thoughtlessness
and doubtfulness
and especially his taking-me-for-grantedness
and most of all forgetfulness
and never making me a priority.
instead i sit
in our home
the forgotten one—alone.
i cry out the hurt
shed the empty tears of pain
move on
and forgive because i know that i can do nothing else
and still be happy.
i love him.
i am doomed.
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Literature
I'm no good at poetry
I'm no good at poetry
The words seem unoriginal
The words my inside voice comes up with
Uninspired, drab and dry
I try too hard, I think
Maybe not hard enough
The voice inside tells me its insufficient
Not enough to Impress
Inspiration, I can see
She taunts me everywhere
It seems as if everyone has her favor
Yet I cannot grasp it
She smiled at me just then
As those last few lines left my hands
And were born into this world of words
And now I know
If everyone, everywhere
In every way, at every time
Knew always and most perfectly
Inspiration's intimacy
Then none of us
Would truly, deeply know
How sublime it is to feel and read and see those gifts she gives
Thank God, for writer's block
©2004 by Johan Baumeister
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Literature
dissolution
you mean the world to me,
and i never even showed it.
please take me back--
let me be
yours and i\'ll ever show it.
eidolon, dark phantom,
i clung to it so desp\'rately.
i bow\'d, as black
confusion\'s
curtain dropped so heavily,
obscuring all my sight.
envenomed and ensnared by lust--
my golden calf--
Babel\'s knight--
my perfidy, my fell thrust.
unraveled--at wit\'s last--
my heart cried out, disbanding pride.
soul rip\'t in half,
fading fast
one side jekyll, one side hyde.
©2003 johan baumeister
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No One Loves Me :iconvishstudio:vishstudio 176 17
Of Epic Proportions by Xiion Of Epic Proportions :iconxiion:Xiion 23 15
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April Fools
Some ideas for a mischievious day...
> Post on your friends DA pages 'omg congrats on the DD!'. They will definately spend time looking through all their things to work out what the hell you are talking about.
> Save the mudkips avatar and continue using it after DA removes it.
> Convert your entire journal text into Russian and tell people somethings wrong with the font you are using.
> Make a list of all of your DA friends. Then remove them all til tomorrow and tell them you cannot associate with fascists any more.
> Post something in the artistic nude section that ISNT porn. It'll confuse the hell out of most people.
> Thank people for faves they haven't given you. [random deviant button!]
> Play the opposites game. Using :( for :) and vice versa.
> Ask a few of your friends what the 'tick' or the 'hat' by their name means, and did they get promoted?
> Post on someones page (preferably BeccaJS) that you are their biggest fan and you have seen them in all of their movies.
>
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Live Your Creative Passion Scholarship Competition

"Psst…hey you, yeah you, what are you working on? Wow, that looks pretty cool! Do you do this stuff for a living? No? Wow, why not? You seem pretty good at it! No way, seriously? Well, I guess I can see why someone would want to hire a person with a creative arts education instead of someone without one, but what do you do if you have a full time job or if you don't live anywhere near an art school? It seems like you're in a tough situation. Oh well, good luck to you and keep at it!"

Does this scenario seem all too familiar? Worked your fingers to the bone on your portfolio, get to tha
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blueminneapolis
Johan
Artist | Literature
United States
Current Residence: Hollywood, USA
Favourite genre of music: jungle | trance | ambient | :::
Favourite photographer: can't decide:::
Favourite style of art: see favorites:::
Operating System: Mac OS X 10.4 @ home | Windows XP @ work
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Wallpaper of choice: Frostwork by <a href="300beatspm.deviantart.com"…
Favourite cartoon character: Green Lantern
Personal Quote: The future is here; just add water.
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For a Change of Pace

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 4, 2007, 1:58 PM
  • Reading: In the Service of the Sword edited by David W
  • Watching: Latter Days
  • Playing: Zelda: the Twilight Princess
  • Eating: Sweet Basil Eggplant /w Beef from the Pink Pe
  • Drinking: Dr. Pepper
So... In a gutsy move, I've decided not to embark upon another soapbox rant today, and will instead attempt to entertain you with more traditional journaling fodder.

First off, Cheers and a very Happy New Year to you all.  My deviantART New Year's Resolution this year (as last year's remains unfulfilled) will be to average more than one deviation a month.  What's your devious resolution?  (see new poll question on journal page)

A big thank you to everyone who helped with or participated in some way in the first-ever deviantART Presents dAPresents tour featuring BT & Thomas Dolby in a Virtual Battle for Sonic the Hedgehog...  Errmmm... or was it a Battle for Sonic Virtuosity...  or maybe a Sonic Battle for Virtual Supremacy.  At any rate, it was a resounding success (meaning lots of fun was had by those who attended) and I believe it bodes well for future :dapresents: events.

On a side note, I've found I'm quite attached to a new website called twitter and would love for you all to join me on there.  Twitter is essentially an abbreviated and easier to update blog.  You simply update twitter when and as you wish with a couple sentences.  Could be a running tally of fashion disasters you've seen, or a quick log of social adventures, or quick blurbs on movies you've seen.  Its up to you.  You can post via AIM, Google Talk, twitter.com or even from your mobile via SMS (my personal favorite).  And you choose how and when you receive updates from those you'd like to follow.

I've also discovered a neat little site called MyChores which is helping me to beat down my natural tendency to procrastinate on household chores by scheduling them for me.  Its so easy, really.  All I had to do is set up an account and log in daily to check my chores and now my roommate has stopped nagging me about how often the toilet needs scrubbing.  The options for customization are pretty comprehensive.  Way to go Aimee!

And speaking of awesome things I've stumbled on in the last month, I finally watched Latter Days, a movie my roommate owns and keeps recommending but that I had never gotten around to watching.  Nick, the new beau, was reluctant about watching the movie for a number of reasons.  He was recalcitrant in naming them but I think they have something to do with his Mormon upbringing and his own struggles reconciling his sexual orientation to his faith.  I've walked that hard and painful journey myself, so I can understand its not easy to open up about it for some people.

But I digress.  The movie, I thought, was good.  I honestly haven't been more emotionally affected by a film in a long time, if ever.  Not even Brokeback Mountain hit home as much for me.  I would highly recommend it, and its one of those that bears watching the whole way through before you form a judgement of it.

I'm off.  Catch you all later!


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rawrpixelkitty Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2009
hi ^_^
this is way random...
first nice work!
second...i saw a comment you made on one of j.baxters pictures of audrey kitching and zui suicide...it was a long time ago that you made the comment...but it was a picture they had glitter sushi in and giant sushi pillows...
well i noticed you asked where they got them...and i'm not sure if they are exactly the same but they have some very similar to the ones in the piccha on shanalogic.com ^_^ just thought i'd let you know
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frozenpandaman Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2008   General Artist
:hug:
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oliviaolive Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2008
cool gallery
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storytellersdaughter Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2007  Student Traditional Artist
I noticed you faved a 'Vailant' piece, thought you might want to look at mine.
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pinkandfluffy Featured By Owner May 16, 2007
thanks for the watch :D
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AXISs5 Featured By Owner May 8, 2007
THX for Fav'ing my girlfriend!
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walloftruth Featured By Owner May 2, 2007
Hello there ^^
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Atzur Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2007  Professional Interface Designer
thanks a lot for to add my Fashion Boy and the rest of pictures to your favourites!!

^___^
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alex1502 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2007
Wow Johan ... Many thanks for the :+fav: on "Pay me first" !! Im really glad you liked my work :D :hug:
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MarkSatchwill Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2007  Professional General Artist
Hi Johan, many thanks for the favourites - much appreciated :) -Mark
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