bluegoldrose

life is overwhelming... there is so much I'm worried about... so much unfixable... that I just don't know what to do anymore...  I keep trying and trying.  This isn't about giving up on life or anything.  I'm just overwhelmed... so overwhelmed.  I cry a lot... but seriously given how things are right now crying is understandable.  Even if we had the money for the bills, doesn't change my dad having cancer. My oldest cat disappeared last saturday... most likely he left to die... that doesn't help any. I feel so lonely... no one that i know has really been in this place before... so idk what to really do... and it just makes me feel so scared

I just want to give up on everything in life... all of it.  I feel like I'm a failure who will never make anyone happy or do anything right.  I always screw things up, especially at jobs.  I just want to crawl in a corner and never do anything again.  I can't do this anymore.  I'm not strong enough.  I want my best friend back, but I can't have that.  I feel like everyone is abandoning me because I left that friendship.  I hate that I will always feel something for that person, and that I can never be totally free.  In the end I feel like no one will be here for me, and that everything in life will be miserable.  My friends will leave for him

Life is always moving forward, not really ever stopping.  We can't let our lives be caught in the raging downpours because we'll miss the beautiful mountains.  Life has ups and downs but we must never forget who we are or what matters most to us.