BlueDragonSword

What in the world i am thinking right now, well some things i would think most people would rather not here me of thinking of literaly in a sence of depression and anger. However at this point i have just been thinking to much and that is sometimes never a good thing. I hate myself so much at this time i feel that thinking is more of a detrimental thing than anything else, i can not stop thinking about all the crap i wish i could take back and how i am not who i thought i was. I am a annoying brat compared to what i once was, a person who was thoughtful now seems to me is a loser and so selfish that he only cares about himself to the degree o

well its long time no see once again. Alot has happened sence then. I have tested for Second degree black belt asked a girl out and have been doing well in school. Well lets start in order. Testing didn't go so well i was really angry that night as well as extremely hard on myself for some weird way of me not breaking my easiest board break ever..... yea not to mention i messed up both my open hand and weapons form. Yes and now for the asking of a girl out. Well yes i have been talking to the girl in my theater class for pretty much three monthes, and she is really nice as well as extremely inteligent. Amazing at acting and over all to me, a

Undying love I walk in a endless tunnel trying to find her. She appears in my head and I feel warm for a moment. After that moment I feel the Crisp light feathers of cold gracefully fall from the skies. They dance down to meet me. They land and begin to emerge with me leaving a soft and cold glass like shape of coldness. They fall as I walk in my endless sorrow. I wait for the day when that tunnel ends. Only then I can see my angel and feel the warmth that I long for. Until then red drops of my love will fall from my heart. The dagger that lies deep in my heart will stay until my angel comes and pulls it out. Until then I will