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Unicorn Tank - Animation by BlueBlankey Unicorn Tank - Animation :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 5 7 Shadow by BlueBlankey Shadow :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 3 2 TrainCity by BlueBlankey TrainCity :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 3 0 SketchupDump #2 by BlueBlankey SketchupDump #2 :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 1 0 Zio by BlueBlankey Zio :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 0 0 Mobile super destroyer [WIP] by BlueBlankey Mobile super destroyer [WIP] :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 5 6 MechaTank Wip by BlueBlankey MechaTank Wip :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 15 9 LineCity by BlueBlankey LineCity :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 3 2 Decimated Post-Apocalyptic MC model by BlueBlankey Decimated Post-Apocalyptic MC model :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 10 10 GameConcept- Leg Layouts by BlueBlankey GameConcept- Leg Layouts :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 2 CannonViews-Outside by BlueBlankey CannonViews-Outside :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 6 2 CannonViews-Inside by BlueBlankey CannonViews-Inside :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 3 0 GameConcept- TriHierarchy #1 by BlueBlankey GameConcept- TriHierarchy #1 :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 2 Native Lineup- Female by BlueBlankey Native Lineup- Female :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 0 Folding Geocannon- Test Render by BlueBlankey Folding Geocannon- Test Render :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 21 2 Folding Geocannon WIP by BlueBlankey Folding Geocannon WIP :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 10 4
I don't delete my old work, so there's lots of sub-par cringe.
(Featured is all for same universe)

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It's been a very painful year.

My grandfather fell down a flight of stairs and broke his neck, and became a 24/7 job. There was no one able to care for him except me, and feeling guilty for not doing enough for my other set of grandparents that passed away, I promised not to leave him until he was stabilized. It turns out the fall altered his mind, and was very senile and just overall toxic, as well as physically demanding with me having to do just about everything needed to be done and NOT needed to be done. I'm not the kind of person that says no, and the few times I tried just resulted in more emotional trauma than what was already there.
I had to tap into a coping mechanism that I used for the entire year of my senior year in highschool- silence. No one I know could have lasted seven months of social isolation with the most unreasonable person on the planet, so I guess stoicism was a useful ""skill"" to have learned. It won't help me forget the pain, but he's physically near to where he was before the fall- the 'debt' is paid, and the nightmare is over.

Moving forward, I see what needs to happen with the way I make art/code. I had time to think about things when I was there, pacing back and forth in a snowy moonlit field in the deep hours of night. I've always made by trial and error, fumbling in the dark until I make it to the other side. What I need to do is ask "why" first, not "how" or even "what", just why. Why do I need it, why does it exist- only then can I decide where it needs to go, what it is, and how to make it. Knowing what void in the world it fills will determine exactly what needs to happen, so I can complete it without losing direction, speed, or scope.

The first step of this is to reach a state of "mindfulness"- organization, steady routine, and replacing detrimental activities with better alternatives (replacing videogames with reading material, etc.)
I'm still in a state of transition, so I'll attempt to complete the large things I've started, and simply post what I have of small things I know I'll never complete (just for a sense of closure).
Everything in the future will be planned ahead of time and structurally organized, with "why" being the foremost question. (fingers crossed)

^ what I've been up to this year when not crying myself to sleep
  • Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lO-rC9EfYrw

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BlueBlankey

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Carpal tunnel at max velocity
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TomyGames Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Student Digital Artist
Yes longer will recieve comments the usage of Hasbro (
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Beastthedog15 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2018
Happy B-day mate
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Unreal-Forever Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Eightshot Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch, really appreciate it. :)
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Toon-Risu Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Btw, your 3D arts and concepts are really imaginative. Very well done! =)
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Toon-Risu Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, do you still keep in touch with Anozke? I really miss their old RCT3 stuff. =( And their musics..... infact, I think it might've been me who introduced them to FL Studio several years ago.
Anyhow, if you can, please tell them that "Chinatown" wants to be friends again, and encourage them to send me a PM.
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection
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ShadowLinkster Featured By Owner May 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanx for Wacthing! ;P
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NOMANSNODEAD Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
thank you for the watch! :)
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DCkiq Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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