It stings. Sometimes it helps and I fight harder to be a better artist but I'm tired of fighting and failure.
Someone just told me it's because I'm not as good as I think I am but here's the thing, I don't think it's any good either! Do many artists? I know exactly how mediocre my artwork is but it's so hard to give the dream up. If I don't have art in my life I don't know who I am but right now I feel like throwing every piece out of the nearest window and never creating more. Maybe I will and a blank slate will make me feel better, the installation of a lifetime of art strewn across the lawn could look quite effective......
Please people, I'm begging you. Stop writing spoilers about the new TMNT film! Or if you really must rant/enthuse please leave space before you start writing so that if someone is scrolling through they can't accidentally read what happens.
The film isn't out on a synchronised release, the UK has to wait until October for example and I can't avoid DA and TMNT all that time, I'll go mad :D
Thank you for your consideration and those of you getting to see the film already, enjoy! (Or not ;) )
(I'm feeling philosophical, bear with me folks ;) )
Living in either is a tangled path, worrying about what could be or dwelling on what was seems like a sure way to be consumed by it.
I know it's easy to say leave the past behind you and if life has dealt you a rough hand no matter what there will be days where those events will rise up again to challenge you. These are the days that shape you. Carry them with you and accept that you cannot change what happened but they changed you. You're better than those dark days, stronger and braver because of them, at least that's how I see it.
As for the future, eh, I like to think we have a certai