BlenketheGoblin
Downward Spiral
My engagement level hasn't been this low since I started a year ago:
When I say things like it's time to go... it's not my imagination. When I visit the wonderful art of people I follow, their numbers generally look good. It's not a DeviantArt issue.
It's a me issue.
My one regret? Three years ago starting up on DeviantArt. On the plus side, I did scrap four images today that truly deserved it.
Not art but a concept
I liked the idea, the concept. Namely the idea of *Meow Meow* ... and developing it into a challenge. Plus the April Fool theme... an opportunity for a humorous (I had hoped) narrative... and while these elements were there, something was missing:
Execution of engagement. I won't call it bad art... That mandates that it is art. Apparently not that. More like rubbish masquerading as art and no one was fooled. Not that I was trying to fool anyone though. I thought a Meow Meow badge challenge would be fun...
Instead it was pointless.
Need to remember that the art in DeviantArt is why people are here. Art that appeals visually. This deviation clearly fails that criterion. I was too blinded by my concept and narrative to see that. But all of that withered on the vine with art that is perceived as atrocious.
Makes me the April Fool
Fitting, I suppose.
This is art that I would, at this point, delete ... Not scrap... It is an embarrassment. Except a lovely lady did purchase it so deletion is not an option. I will scrap it though after I submit this and if it can't get rid of it, I can at least hide it.
I suppose this is a wonderful analog for my DeviantArt presence as a whole. Built on the premise of concept and narrative and not execution of art.
I will not say I'm leaving... That doesn't appear to work... There are some (not many, to be very clear) that say they would miss me. That is appreciated and you are treasured. But I can safely say I will not even consider any sort of creative process today. If I could ethically shut down this page, I would... but that is unethical so I won't do that. That won't ever happen.
I need to redirect my .. life .. to something other than creating faux art.
And stop being the April Fool.
Ladies Night Chronology
Ladies Night is the latest narrative and animation content set in my fantasy world of Citadel.
L A D I E S N I G H T
Ladies Night
Ragna and the Seamstress
The Greedy Goblin
The Mighty One
Dungeon Delve
Taking Care of Business
Raw Power
True Power
Stalwart Defender
Queen of Citadel
Dismissal
Chain of Command
Dark Angel
Summoning
Call to Arms!
Inescapia
The Mighty Onyx
Dragonfear
Royal Scepter
Royal Sacrifice
Royal Power
You Won't Be Needing That!
You Have Been Warned!
Seal With a Kiss
There has been some dialogue on when will the heroes return. Soon, I hope! The story is narrative based and I have to move through what needs to unfold. Anyway, the next chapter with the malevolent dragon...
Warning
The next is a teaser (no prose yet) for a potential future scene in the narrative...
Aurelia
G O B L I N R I S I N G
The early days of Blenke, before she was a hero or even a refueling tech in the Goblin Air Corps. Prequel to Ladies Night.
Soldier of Fortune
Thrilling Heroics
Beware of the Goblin
A L L T O O E A S Y
Ladies Night was inspired by a small storyarc of five episodes, which I list below as All Too Easy and some of the events therein may be contradicted or superseded by Ladies Night, the current and official chronological storyarc, but the content with Mercy the Paladin is completely consistent with content in Ladies Night.
All Too Easy!
Stop!
Long Live the Queen
Take Me
Ragna to the Rescue
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Not the goblin you want to see...
One of my deviations was recently added to a deviants collection of goblins. You might think with a page named after a goblin that there may be some possible interest in said goblin. Honestly? Honey's art of Blenke shows up more in that collection than my Blenke art.
Hence the tagline above.
This is not a complaint about Honey. It's a complaint about Blenke. Character and creator.
The diamond I have will be expiring in about a week's time. Between donations and sales, I cam afford CORE+. The question is Do I subscribe to CORE+? I can give back the donations. If I do not subscribe, I will do that. That much is definite. I have failed to evolve with the community, for a quick summation, and I see more meaningful art all around me. Goblin and everything else. Certainly I have the wrong idea of what a goblin should be. And most likely the wrong idea of a good many things.
There are a handful of you who support me and that is very much appreciated but, realistically, that is a reflection of your kindness and generosity and, also realistically, not a consequence of anything I have done. It is all about the goodness in you.
I have endeavored not to be a hack artist or anything like that, but I suspect I am failing in that capacity. Investing tine and money in what I do... basically, uninspired mediocrity... seems to be an unintelligent response. Maybe it's about time I got smart about this...