SeaOfDreams

I don't often say how I feel. There's plenty of reasons behind that.

Sometimes I think it's best to say what I mean and mean what I say. Sometimes I don't think I should say anything at all. Then sometimes I feel the pain of not letting how I feel come out and I end up crushing my own spirit trying to hold myself up against it. I want to say I'm in pain. I want to say I'm lonely. I want to say I'm lost. I want to tell people that I love them more than anything else in my life. Then I don't.

I've found sometimes you don't need to wait on occasion to speak how you're feeling. You don't need an invitation to do so. You don't need a guarantee that you'll be listened to or that what you want to say will not fuck things up and end badly.

Sometimes I just need the relief of finally taking those bottle up feelings and sending them out there. I don't know who will hear it. I don't know if it make things any different. I do know that it feels good to use my voice and find that relief and let go of the pain of pushing everything down. I know that sometimes you should just say how you feel.

I guess that's why I like art so much. It helps me let out that part of me that gets hidden away.