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Love Sick
Cures to take away the pain Happy pills--to fake smiles Bottle of alcohol--to mask the tears Drugs--to force laughter From my parched loveless lips And this is my life Trying to get by Fighting the neverending heartache Why don't I just give up? I've thought about it But that would make them all win Everyone who fights against me I'm a fighter In a losing battle All the "cures" are just temporary Wasting my life away Destroying my mind and body Trying to win at a losing game But it all seems the same I'll never be good enough no matter how hard I try My heart will always be broken Friends will always betray And abandon
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Some People
There are some people you'll always love Some people you just can't forget No matter how hard you try To break the bond of steely ice That cut and freeze Giving you no release There's just some people you can't hate No matter how hard you try People who will be with you forever People who make you heart beat fast When you see them And twinge with the pain of longing When you think of them But they are the people who will never feel the same about you Who will make you pine yourself away Growing more forlorn every day Some will even see your plight And take advantage of it in spite Keep you at arms length But tease you with
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My Dearest Friend--Mary Jane
I'm a fallen angel I thrive in debauchery I feed off all that is uncouth In the graveyard With my dearest friend Mary Jane That's where you'll find me Passing the time Leaving memories behind Ghosts of the past That shit won't last And companionship's a must Because all my dreams have turned to dust And I'm consumed by lust Why must you question My obsession With smoke that chokes the tears Fights the demons With green leafed spears Mary Jane will always be there to catch me when I fall Yeah she's a true friend She's helped me through it all She was there when my boyfriend left me When depression settled in And I could
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Alcoholism
Looking into the mirror Pleading eyes Begging the girl to step out and say it didn’t happen Running hands over bruises I don’t remember getting Searching my own eyes for hints of memories Tracing scars What did I do last night? Haze Drunken haze I can’t remember a thing Why would anyone do this to themselves? Why? You say you won’t do it again But you’re lying to yourself And others They may know better than you Fool yourself Say you’ve learned your lesson But they sadly shake their head They know better You’re an addict A criminal You’ll return to the scene of the crime But can
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Hold On
Just when I think I meet my prince He turns my heart to mince I sit here consumed in my own thoughts Where did I go wrong? Am I the one to blame? I look at you with mournful eyes Pleading looks Barely parting lips As if to say The things that beg to be said But all I’m met with is indifference Or worse Scorn Everything felt so sunny yesterday What happened between now and then? Where did it go wrong? What was the cause? Who’s to blame? All these questions Theses uncertainties Are driving me insane What can I say? What can I do? To reverse this horrible wrong I’m so honest So loving So caring So willin
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Ominous
The clouds are rolling in Though I can still see the sun on the horizon Life is like a dream That’s turned into a nightmare Seeing things through a haze Trying to forget Memories of times gone by Trying to relive the good And forget the bad But I’m destroying myself Trying in vain to be happy Short moments of ecstasy Are they worth the price? Or is it all just vice Is it sad That this is how I cope? Can you blame me? Imprison me When my mind is already one But I’m not alone It’s why we commune In smoke filled rooms We see things for how they are Primal fears Primal urges Primal desires Free flowi
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Bondage
You twist the knife in m y heart It’s been this way from the very start I give and give and all you do is take You say we can be friends But now I see that’s just a means to an end It feels so good to be in your arms Your soft kisses feel like ecstasy You make me feel like no one else can I truly thought that you were the one To lose that I cannot bear So I snatch at bread crumbs in the air I hungrily eat them Devour them in seconds And I’m left hungry Unsatisfied Empty Yearning for more Because it’s all a lie And I try to savor the taste of your kiss But it’s venom on my lips Seeping into my vein
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When I'm Feeling a High
When I’m feeling a high Don’t let me come down Wipe the tears from my eyes Cradle me in your arms Enhancing the warmth inside I’m in a dream It’s all so serene Thoughts racing a million miles a minute Around and around in my head Heart racing Muscles twitching And it’s my escape From the world that I hate The world that hurts me This is my antidote To all the pain and woe I can’t feel the pain I can’t feel my body My thoughts unbridled Flow free from my lips And the sway of my hips Is so free Without inhibition I dare to run Through open fields Under moonlit skies Night air fillin
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Living Dead
I think I’m going to throw up All the memories Of cold eyes And calculated lies Of drug hazed decisions Without allibies I’m going to throw up the past Rid myself of this pain Of this lump in my stomach Of this aching in my heart I feel sick My eyes are blank My body limp Lifeless Used Dead And broken I didn’t know you could break my heart more than once But you have Your words sear like acid Burning me to the core I feel sick You held up a mirror And I shrank back in despair To show me what I’ve become All I’ve done It’s more than I can bear So I’m ridding myself of all these me
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Longing
I'd rather have you now Then not at all Because I know you'll be there To catch me when I fall Even if you were the one Who pushed me off in the first place You're my pillar of strength Without you I fall Just to be your friend Fills me with hope When you leave my life for good There will be a gaping hole I don't know what I'd do without you You taught me so many things To find myself To know myself To accept myself You saw me learn these things And I did it all for you To show you I can change but your view of me remains the same And I'm so easy to discard You confuse me You frustrate me As I look up at you with tear
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Snow
So pure, so white As it flows to the ground Where it accumulates However, if you try to touch it, you will poison its beauty Its grace It will die on your hand Its chill More pure than your warmth For your warmth Is covered with hate But its coldness Is covered with love Every one is different "How can this be?" we ask ourselves Well think about it Every human is different So why can't they be We think our way Is the right way The only way We poison the snow with acid rain Just as we poison each others' minds And hearts However, Even though the snow bears acid rain It makes the best of it And doesn't let it sm
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From Childhood to Adult
Isn't it sweet, The innocence of a child? They watch hate, war, and violence As if it was a cartoon They laugh at issues that face adults and teens, Yet they can sense when you need them They go to a place of death and disease To face death and disease They treat it like a game And smile at the person on the gurney, dying They tilt their head When they are confronted by spiritual or political things Then they smile And tell you that's silly They laugh at out world And live in their own A world of happiness And innocence With knowledge comes the loss of innocence Though being naive can be a gift and a curse This Adam and E
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Hour Glass
Childhood comes just once in our lives People warn us not to take it for granted Not to try and grow up too fast Both visions are blurred Mirrors in a funhouse twist the picture As does age "When I'm grown up, I'll be happy," says a child "If I could go back in time, I'd change it, and everything would be great," says an adult Blinded by ambition and hope Head in the future Head in the past Never in the present Where it belongs Where it's meant to be Where it should be Memories, dreams Young, old Heedless of warnings Wisdom comes with mistakes Trial and error But then it's too late Living only in the present is just as
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Miracle Taken for Granted
Nature is a miracle given to us from God above In it we find the cures to all our aches, pains, and woes The sun will dry your tear-soaked face And sweet smelling flowers will blanket your foul hate The soft, wet rain brings welcome relief from the sweltering heat Warm tingling sunshine melts the ice away From the trees, the world you can see Cool blanketing darkness soothes the blinding light The mountains are there to climb The seas are there to explore So don't let your shackles bind you But alas Now the smog hides the sun in some places While in others The sun turns Earth into an inferno Because of what we have done
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My Heart Is Dead
You stab my heart and twist the knife Then you cut it out as easy as if it was paper You throw it on the ground And grind it into the dirt and gravel with your cruel heel A gaping hole where my heart should be pumping blood throughout my body making me live with each beat a strong burst of blood I should be dead But yet I live A hollow shell of my former self A soul trapped in a lifeless body slowly withers and decays until there's no more feeling left and I'm nothing more than a zombie Going day by day through a meaningless cycle called life Depression settles in Seeps through my veins in place of that aching yearni
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Vase of Flowers
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This is My Photo Op
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A Rare Beauty
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to move or not to move...that is the question
So a shitload has been going on in my life lately and I feel like I'm drowning in a tidal wave of bullshit. I'm wondering whether to move out or not. People have been telling me for ages that my parents are overbearing assholes that have been ruining my life and well quite frankly up until recently the mere thought of even doing anything to combat them hasn't even grazed my mind. However, seeing a way out, I wonder if I have the balls to take it. I'd pretty much be totally disowned by my family and they've been all I've ever known, considering they've never allowed me to have a life outside their existence. But now I look back on my almost t
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Maybe I Should Join a Dating Site Already!
Yeah a bit exasperated. Everything's just not going my way lately! And it totally didn't work out with that guy...he didn't even call me after the first date! And then I was going to get his number off our mutual friend because I was too much of a traditional dumbass to take it and try to invite him to dinner (surely you'd have to be insane to resist my homecooked meals!) but my friend ended up intervening and calling him to see how it was going and try to say that he should hang out with her and a few other friends and mentioned I'd be there, and he said he was too busy. I've been stood up enough to know what that means! I used to take it f
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Kicking Bad Habits...Sororities and Ex's
Here's a saying to think about that makes perfect sense to me but other people seem to think is weird...thought it up the other day... "Saying fuck off to an ex for good is like cutting off a hand that has gangreen...you know it's slowly poisoning you...but it takes you awhile to come to terms with it, because your hand has been there for a long time and you're kinda attached to it and you need it, but you know it's for the best." I've been friends with benefits/friends with my ex for about a year now on and off, and it's just poisoning me. Deep down I know that he's the one I would love to grow old with and even have kids with, and that I'll
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Still can't believe you're gone Liz. I miss you so much. I still can't believe it. I keep checking to see if you've logged on even though I know you couldn't have. I put up a poem that I wrote about you. Hope you like it.
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R.I.P. my friend.
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Yo. Get online bitch.
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Colliemom|Hobbyist Digital Artist
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You're welcome!
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pixel-def| Photographer
thanks for the favs! :)
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You're welcome!
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