How small we are. Why we lose so much time wondering about things, planning, preparing? when the time comes everything falls apart , nothing is left behind , only the felling of lost time.
Go fucking draw something, write, run, do something. Or dont. Dont do shit, but dont do it on your own terms. Stop thinking about others, stop trying to be there for everyone. You cant anyway. Thats a losing game.
And you know it, thats the worst. You know that youre just playing and fucking with yourself. Get a grip. Get over yourself ffs. Help me help you, come on.
I too dont know what you need, but i do know what you dont need. I like that youre writi
Coming back to DA. Feels kinda...idk.....i really dont know. Cant really explain.
Im thinking about using this journal-thing to help me keep track of my drawing and other secondary-crafts i always wanted to do. Ill start Wednesday, October first (the "round" date help me keep my psyco-shit at bay), and post one big (or not) schedule and goals for the month.
Coming back to first topic, i think i fell kinda bored with myself for another "restart". Bored and maybe dissapointed. Hard to explain in english(not my native language). Every restart bring back some memories from another attempt, another failure, and i kinda cant remember the f