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Soo... having been a few years and all, I looked through the ol gallery.  If there's one thing I can consistently notice about my character art:



Yeah, I'm gonna have to work on that.
Great Googily Moogily, it's been close to 2 years since I last posted on DA!  I blame it mostly on having a full time job and going to school full time in the evenings O_O.  I've also picked up Stand-Up comedy as a new hobby... well... right around the time I began neglecting my DA presence.  Anyway, I'm attempting to re-establish myself in art now that it's summer break and I ONLY have to work 40 hours during the week.  I have been tinkering away at a few older drawings, a few are almost ready for submission.  So, yeah.  Enjoy!
  • Listening to: The Outer Vibe
  • Reading: Way of the Peaceful Warrior
  • Watching: Stand Up Comedy
People's DA Birthday is not a feedback message.  Just sayin'...

Yeah it's been a while since I posted anything.  I've been working on and off on a few projects, but I'm kinda working on personal not art related stuff at the moment.  The end result is that, eventually, I will be getting back into the swing of things.  If past sabbaticals are any inclination, odds are it will be worth the wait :)
  • Reading: Dark Tower Book III
  • Playing: Euchre
So I'm on my 2 1/2 week help desk position near Cape Cod, MA.  I'm working second shift, and the extent of my challenges have been installing LAN printers on various laptops.  It's pretty eventless stuff... but, hey, it's work.  Originally, I thought we would have off weekends, but it turns out that is not the case.  I knew in the weeks coming up to this that it would be a great catalyst for me to get back on my feet and start running again, both literally and metaphorically, and it seems I was right.

I've found the pace i need to hold to pass my run, I just need to be able to hold it for another quarter mile or so.  Of course it doesn't help that it's been humid as hell and the roads are somewhat hilly, but still.   I've been careful about what I've been eating (and how much), and I can actually already tell my face has thinned out since I've been here.  Makes sense , really... the more weight I lose, the less I have to run around with or push up.  Path of least resistance and all.

Seems the creative bug has found me again, at long last.  I have begun to write out a short story I've had in mind for a while.  Ideally it will be a chapter in a novel, but lets not get ahead of ourselves.  I'm about 6 pages in, and as far as the outline in my head goes, It's about halfway done at most.  I rediscovered my enjoyment of writing with some papers this semester, and it seems that creative writing is much more so a pleasure compared to your standard research paper.  Writing this story has confirmed my consideration of taking some advanced level composition classes when I have made it past the prerequisites.  I really started out with an incredibly simple and vague outline of what would happen, and all the details seem to be filling themselves in.  Sometimes I'll go back and add a new line I've thought of, and sometimes several paragraphs appear out of nowhere, just flowing out.

On top of writing, I've started getting back into drawing a little bit, as well.  I've decided to expand into learning to draw animals.  I figured a different area would bring the excitement of something new, and be beneficial to my old interest in creature and monster design.

I've also made a habit of using the I-Ching every morning.  Although the book recommends consulting it for specific inquiry, I personally have found it works well as just a day to day thing, the way some people check their horoscopes.  The advice I've been presented with seems to be surprisingly accurate, and has altered the way I look at things on a few occasions.

Overall, I'm doing darn spiffy, I guess.  Maybe it's being away from my normal life (or from Buffalo o.O) but it seems I've gained a fresh perspective on just about everything.  I'm learning to appreciate what I have a lot more, and understand my 'tools' for what they're worth, learning to stop wasting my time and effort... as much.
Well I don't know what to say, honestly.  For the past few months, I have had half a dozen great ideas for art pieces, but not the motivation to bring them into reality.  They have stuck with me and grown as time goes on, but when it comes down to it, I feel like I really don't want to spend my time making art.  I've lost my spark.  It's like how I didn't run at all over the winter, and now my legs hurt like hell now that I've been picking it back up.  Maybe I'm just having art cramps, but even the thought of putting my ideas on paper (or digital paper) seems like more of a chore than I care to partake in.  I feel like the ideas I have had are not in the realm or skillset that I currently possess, and I'm not sure if I have the energy to learn what I need to learn to bring them into reality.  It's not a time issue, it's not an accessibility issue, it's a laziness issue.  I have some demons I need to confront, and I'm not entirely sure I care to confront them right now.  I've realized that the only real motivation toward art is making art for the sheer love of it.  I need to find the love in what I do, and I have yet to find it.  I'm sure I will figure this all out soon enough, but, for the time being, I wouldn't hold my breath.
  • Watching: Project Runway
  • Playing: Atlantica Online
  • Eating: Oatmeal
So I've been thinking a lot lately about where my artistic inspiration comes from. More specifically, what I have in my head when I'm trying to think of a design for a character. Things that, as I was growing up, seem to manifest themselves in the style I seem naturally gravitated toward. It seems strange that the more I identify my influences, a very small percentage of them match the intent that I think I'm going for. I'll start with direct influences from my past, then move on to styles that I seem to be unintentionally moving toward. To list a few:

Video Games. Obviously. To be specific, I would gear more along the lines of fantasy, RPG, and action games. I think throwing D&D in this category would be appropriate. I've been playing them my whole life, they are the reason I went to art school, and what I was pursuing for many years. Similarities: Fantasy and action style humanoid characters, generally intended toward a game adventure.  Medieval or "fantasy past" setting with armor, bladed or projectile weapons,and interesting outfits.

Wrestling. From as far as I can recall until about age 16, I loved the WWF. Even though I hadn't even started drawing characters then, having looked back on old stars, I can't deny it was probably an influence. Similarities: Hulking guys and strong, busty girls in sometimes unnecessarily flashy and exposing costumes.

Comic Books. I can't honestly say I've read or owned more than five. I've never been a comic book kinda guy, though I always loved the Spiderman cartoon on Fox. Yet it seems truly skilled comic art displays qualities I would hope to get better at. Similarities: Action heroes and heroines, perfect physique, strong expressive poses, either having superpowers or just being amazingly skilled at what they do.

Anime. Again, until recently have not really been an anime fan in general. However my freind Chrystal, who first taught me to really draw characters, had a strong anime background. Although I wouldn't say I strive toward this (quite the opposite, actually.) It is undoubtedly a strong influence. Similarities: Style of eyes, face, hair, and clothes.

I was watching the Underworld series recently, and realized that I had put about as much thought into Kalanni as the creators had put into Selene. She's tough, beautiful, skillfully kicks ass, wears a sexy yet probably unfunctional outfit, displays little to no character traits beyond this, and has a vague yet seemingly sufficient background story. It was kind of like watching a high budget parody of myself in a slightly different genre (vampires vs. final fantasy), and as such, a bit of a slap in the face wake up call.

I'm certain there are more, but several of them have popped up in the last few days and made themselves rather clear. Since I've felt I wanted to expand beyond my 'box', I suppose a good first step would be understanding what makes said 'box'. I'm taking steps somehow at least...
  • Listening to: 16 Volt -SuperCoolNothing
  • Watching: Project Runway
  • Drinking: COFFEE!
i made an animation.  its now my avatar, but here's a bigger version.  This entertains me far too much, i think.


www.3dgstudios.com/images/coff…
  • Listening to: Tool - Lateralus
  • Reading: The Gunslinger
  • Watching: The Prisoner
  • Drinking: Green Tea with Honey
So working only a few days a week at a college in copulation with Thanksgiving week has brought about a rather pleasant benefit; a week and a half of free time. Have I been spending this time wisely? Surprisingly enough, yes. I don't entirely credit that to my own self motivation, but moreso to the fact that certain keystone moments are coming up rapidly. Learning a new program in hopes of pursuing new, more technical employment.  Finishing up an art piece to meet the deadline for publishing in an art gallery. altering my eating habits to support my more active training regiment.  Studying much more talented artists of a similar kin so that I can grow in the direction i wish to improve in.  Getting lost in a classic RPG video game.  You know, stuff like that.

Long story short, I've been looking more into the finer details of living. Realizing that the time to act on all of the things I wish to work on is now. Being open to the possibility that I might not be doing things as intelligently as I could be. With my new information and study, I've found a new sense of spirit in working toward... well... all of the things I have felt less than potent with lately.

In short, working toward lots of things I want to improve in, and, seeing decent results for a change; if in nothing else than my ability to apply consistent effort into the attainment of such aims. yeah.
  • Listening to: Nate & Kate
  • Eating: Protein Shake
  • Drinking: Green Tea
Finally starting to get my bearings back.  To throw away 'motivation', I've come across a more accurate word for what I had been lacking until recently; resolve.  I had all of these things I wanted to improve in but, being my generally lazy self, I would be too overwhelmed by how far I had to go to take any steps at all.  But that's all one can ever do, take steps.  It was an important lesson that I learned when I was off for training; that consistent educated effort pays off, but it doesn't happen overnight.  In a situation where I was more or less forced to comply that's all well and good, but it didn't change my slothful nature, and I found myself slipping backward.  It was a chance to learn the lesson, and then it became all on me to have the strength to apply it.

This lesson of little by little applies to every endeavor, as much to art as exercise or any skill.  I'm doing a better job at keeping this in mind lately, and have been rather productive in both areas.  One of the ways to keep this up for me is to write on a calendar the days I have done something toward my goal.  To see that I have been doing well recently is motivation to keep going, while seeing I haven't done much in the last few days is a kick to get back on top of things.  I get on these surges where I work toward something for a few days, then get bored and start drifting away.  Consistency has always been rough for me, and this seems to be working, so I'm hoping it keeps up.
  • Listening to: Daft Punk
  • Playing: FFT: The Lion War (PSP)
  • Eating: Dried Apricots
  • Drinking: Green Tea
Don't those triple dots at the end of a title seem so enticing?  well, maybe not.  anyway, I've been home for a bit now, and getting back into the swing of things.  Prolly doesn't seem like much, but I've been away from art for a while so bear with me.  As I've said in the past, It's hard for me to do artstuffs lately because I'm not entirely sure where I want go with said artstuffs.  But sitting around complaining about my lack of art isn't helping anything.  The good news is, I've been getting inspired more and more lately, so at least the desire is there.  Been working on a few new projects with the motivational help of others contests and commissions and such. But yes, slowly getting back into things, as the title implies.  I am out of practice, I'll admit, but my motivation to progress forward is still there.  So yeah.. working on stuff here and there, hopefully something cool will come of it soon so the feeling of working on art will make its way back into life.  Point is, I'm still here, and working at working on stuff, if that makes sense.  peace!
  • Listening to: FFVII: Crisis Core OST
  • Playing: FFT: The Lion War (PSP)
  • Eating: Dried Apricots
  • Drinking: Green Tea
Finally back home in Buffalo.  After 8 long months of being away, it's definitely a welcome sight and a bit of a culture shock to be back at my desk.  Which is made of speakers and an old door.  Heh.  

Having much time to reflect on art, I've come to a more relaxed perspective on things.  I know now, indefinitely, I couldn't give up art entirely.  Do I still want to work in the games industry?  Hells yes, but I also have to be realistic and aware that I have *far* to go to get my characters up to standard.  Right now, with the CG Girl, I'm looking at a level of detail close to what is used on the Wii, PSP, or early PS2 games.  If I care to get into the 3rd generation of games, I need to put some diligent effort into not only my perceived level of detail, but also normal and specular mapping.

Game art aside, there's my more recent passion for making scenes.  I like those because they are relatively quick compared to 3D work.  An image in my head I either come up with on my own, or is inspired by a song/book/movie/game.  I want to make scenes that, in turn, inspire some kind of feeling in someone else.  Not necessarily by being beautiful or skillful, but by transcending a feeling or message of some kind.  I want to venture more into color work, but I still enjoy a good black and white scene.

In all aspects, I know I need to step up my level of detail.  In order to do that, I need to increase the level of detail in which i think.  I spent a lot of time people watching, looking at peoples faces (while trying to avoid being all creepy about it) and trying to discern what makes a face/hair/body type different/pretty/unique/etc.  I've established that there are, indeed, differences... but not really sure how or why.

I was beating myself up a lot in thinking that I wasn't creative.  I blame Ayn Rand for that in part, hehe.  What I've decided is that I'm not so much unoriginal, as much as I need to draw inspiration from a wider scope of styles.  Even with Kalanni being in the style of Final Fantasy, I was only focusing on a few small aspects of said style, and holding too strictly to a rather undeveloped idea.

So yeah, I'm back.  I'm ready to step things up a notch or two, it's just going to take some work and research to find out how I can do that.
  • Listening to: 311 - Uplifter
  • Reading: The "God" Part of the Brain by Matthew A
  • Playing: A Link to the Past
  • Eating: Sandwiches & Salad
  • Drinking: Water
So my little sabattical in drawing has been good for the theoretical end of things.  When you've been smashing your head against the wall, its good to step back and stop smashing for a minute and rethink things.  As a previous journal mentioned, on top of a complete lack of free time, i've had recent understanding of my lack of creativity and its making me not really want to draw.  

When i try to think of something new, it feels like all I can think of are slight variations on things i have already done.  It seems most of my 'milestone' peices have been results of riding on the coattails of someone else's style.  When I do get an interesting new idea, It usually fades away before I can really get a solid memory of what it was.  But those are the peices that have brought me the most satisfaction.  Peices like "tao", "no more running", and "don't beat yourself up" are examples of those.  I've realized that both my imagination and my focus are not very up to par as far as being an artist.  At times I only see myself as an 'artist' in the sense that I've put time and effort into the skill of drawing rather than being genuinely artistic.

It seems just about every artist starts off by trying to emulate a style they like, but i feel like ive never really been able to break free of that.  As time went on, I found several different styles I liked and, as result, began trying to emulate them as well.  Mainly characters and monsters in a fantasy setting.  Recently, I've been aiming more toward creating scenes and conveying a message or feeling with my peices.  Even though i'm evolving the reasons behind my work, I still feel like all I am really capable of is emulating a style (or combination of styles) that I like.  Most of the time, they boil down to two or three basic poses every time even though they are not originally intended that way.

Since I've got some time to think, and the occasional moment to sketch, I'd like some input on this.  What do you define as 'being creative'?  Have you found yousrelf in a similar situation?
  • Reading: The Fountainhead
  • Eating: Sandwiches & Salad
  • Drinking: Water
So it's become pretty clear over the last few weeks that my current environnment is not a good one for digital artwork.  During the week I get maybe an hour or two to myself at the end of the day.  That time is usually spent checking messages, listening to music, or simply winding down before bed.  The desire to draw comes up once in a while, and i'll work on something in my sketchbook.  The desire to get on the laptop to work on Photoshop or in Maya, however, just isn't there.  I'm here to work on a lot of personal things, mainly learning Information Technology and getting in better shape.  Those two goals take up the majority of my time, and will hold precidence for the next few months.

When I was still at home, I pictured this time as a great chance to work on my 3D portfolio.  Turns out that I was operating on a pretense that was inaccurate.  I'm not saying to expect radio silence from me until then, just that things will be less active than usual for a while.  Anything I do submit will likely be traditional scenes in Black and White.  Perhaps i'll rehash some of them when I get back to Buffalo in August.

Change to Spare

Tue Mar 24, 2009, 4:13 PM
  • Reading: The Fountainhead
  • Watching: Death Note
  • Eating: Sandwiches & Salad
  • Drinking: Water


Let's see, what's new...  I've realized over the last few months I'm always waiting for time to pass rather than enjoying it.  considering theres a whole lot of waiting here, its not an easy environment to change that viewpoint, but I'm working on it.

Started classes last Wednesday, and should be taking my "A Plus" test in 2 days.  So far class has been really easy... almost disappointingly easy, actually.  I guess I knew a lot more than I thought, between the classes at Full Sail and my own experience building computers.  A lot of it is what I consider common sense, but some of the younger students seem to be struggling.  All the exams are open book and open note, so i'm not too worried about it.  I'm going to shoot for graduating with honors, which means getting over 95% and no negative counseling statements.  Plus the top two or three in the class get to take some extra training.

I let my guard down on the diet for a while, and have been eating a lot of crap.  Luckily with the PT in the mornings and some extra efforts on my part i've remained the same weight from when I left Basic Training.  That's good, but I have more to go in order to finish off losing the extra weight.  I've decided to go back to the Basic Training diet for the next 3 weeks.  I figure its a short time but reasonable goal to meet, and I plan on sticking to it, on top of doing ab excercises every night before bed.

I had a brief scare of losing my phone, but one of my battle buddies picked it up after I accidentally left it in the bathroom one night.  Turns out my dad says i'm eligible for an upgrade anyway, so looks like i'll be getting a nifty new gadget fairly soon.  Now that I'm in classes, it's becoming more clear how much benefit I get from wearing the glasses they gave me.  They're ugly as sin, but they help.  I got my tax return recently, so I'm planning on going and getting a nicer pair or two probably this weekend.

Been working on drawings here and there.  Had some good inspiration sources lately, trying to figure out how to put some of them together.  Some good stuff on the way soon, though theres not much free time right now.  On top of classes there's internet based training I have to get out of the way, and trying to use the gym for extra PT at least a few nights a week.




Commission Status: OPEN


</b>I use different mediums, and I can try to draw just about anything. The more details of the what you would like, the better. We can work out a price if you note me. I can do:

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The Stuff of Journals, Pt. 5

Thu Mar 12, 2009, 3:44 PM
  • Reading: The Fountainhead
  • Watching: Death Note


I'm getting settled here and starting to get more and more free time.  Classes should start next week, which is exciting after a few days of raking leaves and waxing floors.  I've got a few drawings I want to post, but need to find a scanner so I can put them up.  I've heard there's one at the library here, so its just a matter of getting there.  Now that I've got a laptop and all my software, I'll admit I've got some cold feet about getting back into 3D work.  More than anything it seems to be I'm unsure which project to go with next.  The ones I am most excited about are the ones I still have quite a bit of re planning to do on the design, so I'm a bit stuck.  On top of that, I still need to finish the Bilderburg Owl's texture, but I'm not sure how to proceed with some harder parts of the texture.  

Seeing so many people playing XBox 360 here, it's pretty obvious I need to get the hang of this normal mapping thing.  I need to up the detail levels on my work if I ever want to stand a chance of getting into games.  Its pretty intimidating, and sometimes I'm not sure if I'm up for the task.  I'm sure i'll get my mojo back soon enough, though.




Commission Status: OPEN


</b>I use different mediums, and I can try to draw just about anything. The more details of the what you would like, the better. We can work out a price if you note me. I can do:

Pencil Sketches: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar… dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
Inked Lines: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
B&W Shaded: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
Inked and Shaded: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
Color/B&W Photoshop: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar… dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
3D work: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…

Re-Designing Designing

Sun Mar 1, 2009, 7:34 AM


I'm back in touch with the outside world, at last.  I arrived at Ft. Gordon Friday night, and was greeted with a weekend of rest.  Since those with family in town were able to go with them for the weekend, the rest of us are basically relaxing and getting to know the area.  I am in possession of my phone again, and Vasili was cool enough to lend me a laptop while i'm here, so i can work on my art and 3d portfolio.

The desire to draw at basic training was rare, but when it decided to stop in, i noticed hints of a new roadblock.  I had a lot of trouble coming up with genuinely interesting designs, whether it be costumes or creatures.  I wasn't sure why this was, but it was making me not want to draw.  Now, at just the time when I am free to work on art again, I was brought to vivid understanding of the nature of my problem.  

Along with the laptop, my roommates sent along some trinkets and reading materials.  One of the books was "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rynd, which is a fictionalized story conveying her personal philosophy, objectivism.  Luckily enough for me, the story is in the theme of art; an architect by the name of Howard Roark, who lives and works in a way that contradicts almost everyone of authority in his field.  He had gone to design school to learn the functional aspects of architecture, but threw away almost all classical design concepts that had been around since... well, forever.  When confronted about (and expelled for) his stubborn refusal to conform, he explained that people simply copied peices of old designs without any understanding of their function or reason for existence.  Flutings on columns designed to hid wood joints were carried over into marble designs.

This shed light on my own malconfidence as an artist.  My designs weren't creative because I wasn't creating anything, I was assembling.  My "designs" were little more than amalgamations; bits and pieces of canned stereotypes and costumes that i'd seen in the past.  I've observed and imitated several different styles, and have had relative success in imitating them, but I always felt trapped inisde a a box of how creative I could be with it all.  I understood that certain things looked good, and I used pieces of things i'd learned because of it, but I really didn't understand why I was using those pieces or why they worked.  

I can remember the one sentence that was my inspiration for Kalanni; A Final Fantasy Tactics dragon lancer in the style of FFX badass fighter chick.  When I was designing her, there were few simple rules I thought of going along.  Revealing top, skin tight pants, big boots.  Lightly seasoned with random and seemingly functionless belts, buckles, chains, and bits of cloth.  Thats what I thought of when I was designing her, and only once or twice took any liberty in changing her design in the 5+ years I've been drawing her.  On top of the design bugging me, I also know damn near nothing about her beside a vague general feeling of her personality.  Who she is, where she's been, what her influences were, if she likes chili dogs... none of it has ever crossed my mind.  How could I design better clothes or think of interesting things to draw or animate her doing if I don't know any of this?

There's a few people i know i need to ask about these things.  Of course if anyone reading this feels they can help, it would help a lot for you to drop me a line.




Commission Status: OPEN


</b>I use different mediums, and I can try to draw just about anything. The more details of the what you would like, the better. We can work out a price if you note me. I can do:

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Inked and Shaded: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
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Back in the Frozen Wastelands

Sun Dec 21, 2008, 2:18 PM
  • Listening to: Journey
  • Drinking: BEER!


Whoo... back to Buffalo for christmas exodus, just in time for a pretty ferocious blizzard.  It's BLOODY COLD in contrast to the summer-like weather in Georgia, but it's still great to be back home.  

The first month went pretty well, and the hardest part is more or less over.  The Drill Sergeants in my platoon are actually pretty cool guys and impressive leaders, so it's not the hell that I was expecting going in.  They have me on a special diet, and after only 3 weeks im down about 15 lbs and 2 inches off my waist.

Came back to literally hundreds of messages and deviations.  Sorry I didn't give them all the attention they deserved, but im sure you understand hehe.  Got some time to sketch a few things, including a t-shirt design for our platoon the "Dogs of War".  Never really drew animals before, but I like where its going so far.

Well feel free to hit me up on messengers or whatever, I am in town until January 5th.  Happy holidays, everyone!




Commission Status: OPEN


</b>I use different mediums, and I can try to draw just about anything. The more details of the what you would like, the better. We can work out a price if you note me. I can do:

Pencil Sketches: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar… dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
Inked Lines: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
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Inked and Shaded: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
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3D work: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…

i'm off like a prom dress...

Wed Nov 19, 2008, 9:46 AM


Well, the big day is here.  I'll be heading out on Nov 19th, to train at the base camp in Ft. Benning, GA.  I'm kinda at a loss for words here, but I guess all I can say is thanks for everything that everyone I know and care about on any level has done for me.  Whether it was a deep conversation or a passing comment, please know that it means a lot to me.  I'll be back for a short time around new years, then out of contact until March, and i look forward to any messages or comments I will come back to.  This will be without a doubt the hardest thing i've done in my life to date.  I'll be training in Information Technology... which is something I have always wanted to learn, and I think will give me enough experience to get started in a better career when I return.  Thank you to everyone who has offered me well wishes, words of support, anything.  It is only when you are forced to separate from someone or something that you really learn the impact they have had on your life.  I wish everyone the best in the coming months, and hope you will keep me in your thoughts while I am gone.  To some this might seem foolish, to others great.  All I can say is, whether you see it as the right step or the wrong step, it is, simply, my next step.  I know that it will be hard, but I believe in my heart that I will come out stronger for it in the end.  May the force be with you all...

<3 DreiGrasheir




Commission Status: OPEN


</b>I use different mediums, and I can try to draw just about anything. The more details of the what you would like, the better. We can work out a price if you note me. I can do:

Pencil Sketches: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar… dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
Inked Lines: dreigrasheir.deviantart.com/ar…
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three weeks and counting...

Thu Oct 30, 2008, 12:05 AM
  • Listening to: Flobots - Fight With Tools


So not a whole lot of time left before I head off for basic training...  I can really start to see my preparation efforts paying off.  I'm looking visibly slimmer, pushups are increasing in number surprisingly quickly.  Two months ago i could barely do 15 in a row, now i can do almost 100 over the course of a few minutes.  And, honestly, I haven't even really been putting a lot of effort into it until the last week or so.

It's weird... when I first signed up, there were all of the reasons why I *had* to do this.  I was out of shape, my money situation was doom level, and I felt more or less out of options.  Now I'm in really good standing in all of those areas, and I can see that if life continued as it is, things wouldn't be nearly as bleak as I had originally thought.

If I really wanted to, I could put the axe on this whole thing right now, but I don't want to.  As crazy as it might seem, especially now, I feel like this is the right move.  A lot of people look at me like I shit my pants when I tell them... having grown up in my generation, I understand.  I had a fairly strong opinion about the military, but I can see how prejudiced I was about something I didn't understand first hand.

I've been working on art more lately, after a period of time where I had kinda stopped.  Been working with color in Photoshop, doing what I can to learn from examples and those willing to help out.  I can see some improvement, but I still feel really lost when I try to get past a certain level of detail.  Just gotta keep working at it while I can, I guess...




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blades of 'good' and 'evil'

Wed Oct 22, 2008, 9:25 PM
  • Listening to: Circle of Dust
  • Watching: Fight Club
  • Drinking: COFFEE!!!


so often, it is easy to see something as "evil" based on what it has done.  I think, especially in our time, to see something as such is natural... but that feeling is often the result of a lack of understanding and true information on the subject.  I've found myself in a position where I've made the same mistake, and to remove myself from that preconception is quite enlightening.  A lesson I learned is that things we often see as "evil" are simply tools that are used for the purpose of selfish personal gain, and are not in fact evil themselves.  If you spend the time to learn about and understand the things you might think of as evil, you will find it is nothing more than a tool.  For example... you can use a screwdriver to build a machine that will save countless lives, or you can use it to stab and kill living things that would be considered good.  That does not make the screwdriver evil, nor does it's use for the greater uses make it good.  It is simply a tool, and that is all.  A good example of this, in modern times, would be a gun.  How much evil has been brought into this world through the use of a gun?  But, then again, how much protection against interlopers has it brought?

A large part of my philosophy is to see my skills as swords, to be constantly sharpened, so that I am capable of being more effective in the causes I dedicate myself toward.  With great power comes great responsibility.  I think this world suffers from too much power, and not enough people who know how to wield it responsibly.  Some people see their lack of self-confidence as more than enough reason to keep their swords dull, so that they are not capable of harming others.  But what of the good that could come from a truly sharp blade?  With pure intention, a blade wielded by a pure heart could more effectively smite the wicked influences of this world.  We must move beyond ignorant preconceptions of "good" and "evil" if we are ever to find peace and accept everything in this world as an extension of the one true source of creation.

There are things in this world to be truly angry about, just as there are those to be infinitely appreciative of.  anger and love, good and evil, must be seen for exactly what they are.  emotions are tools, just like anything else, and they must be understood and used correctly if we are ever to have hope of peace and universal co-existence.



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