Bethliza123

Wow it's been over a year since I last posted anything here. I bet you all thought I gave up on this site or something. Well surprise I've actually been active on dA for the entire time, just not posting anything. See I use this site to keep track of my fav artists so I actually check my messages like twice a day, even if no one's heard from me since last July. I'd like to say that I'm going to be coming back to the site fully because all the kinks in my life have worked themselves out and whatever; but no that's not the case sadly. I'm actually dealing with so much mental turmoil I can't work and can only take two classes in college, one ...

I recently realized, I can't come out to my family that I'm ace This brought up a conversation between me and my closest friends, where they brought up some points and now I'm not even sure if I am ace For all I know I could just be some idiot who thinks they're special But I've been questioning myself for two years trying to figure out what I am I'm not attracted to guys I'm not attracted to girls But, what if I'm just not attracted to guys/girls I know What if I really haven't met "the right person" Up to now I was sure I'm ace, I mean I met all the criteria I could find, it made sense to me Now though, I don't know what I am And I hate ...

Today, I graduated highschool Today, I looked back on everything that's happened to me in the last four years Today, I realized all I had truly gone and suffered through Today, I celebrated Because today, I beat them I conquered an army of personal demons, Survived endless self bullying, Seven years of intense depression and thoughts of suicide, And I beat it all into the earth as I walked that stage, Because after countless years spent alone, lost, and without hope or help, I walked and freed myself infront of the people who mean the world to me, And there is no greater feeling on earth than knowing that.