So lately I've been thinking. About life, about love...
And I've thought about a lot.
I've realized that the Gods are fickle creatures, and sometimes they favor certain people more than others. Sometimes they put someone there for you, sometimes they don't, and sometimes they put more than one person there. But always, you can tell who they are.
People talk about finding someone and feeling like a part was missing, feeling like they weren't complete. In part, that's true.
We aren't incomplete. We aren't missing part of ourselves.
Rather, we are all of who we are. We are jigsaw puzzles, and all of the pieces are there - we just can't see t
There is a man who wishes to fight,
To see her smile every night.
See there's a woman he wants to help,
A smile from her and his heart melts.
He sees her sad and something breaks,
One sad look is all it takes.
He wants to help, he's not sure how
He wants to help her feel better somehow.
But he just feels helpless, so useless and lost,
He wants to help her no matter the cost.
But no matter the method he wishes to try,
He cannot help her, she still wants to cry.
I had her, for a while,
And briefly we smiled.
But lately, it seems
That she’s gone.
It used to be,
That I and she,
Would laugh the night away.
But lately it seems,
That inside her dreams,
Something pulls her away.
And while I may manage,
To pull her back in,
I can tell that her heart isn’t in it.
Because whenever I see her,
Whenever she smiles,
That look in her eyes isn’t lit.
So I sit here and weep,
As I no longer sleep,
For I fear what I find in my dreams.
For during the night,
I relive our fights,
And I have no idea what it means.
I wish for the day
Where I know that she’ll stay
Though I have no idea when that&
There is no greater pain
Than to watch love walk away.
Nothing hurts your heart
Like wishing they would stay
If you've found the one
Who makes you want to walk along.
Walk with them; have fun,
And help them to stay strong.
There is a beast inside me,
And it's scratching at the door.
Trying hard just to feel free,
And howling out for 'more'.
See, it had a taste of freedom,
Not that long ago.
When I in all my wisdom,
Decided to let go.
So now that wild being,
Is starting to scream and shout.
Always, the same old thing:
"HURRY UP AND LET ME OUT!!!"
Right now you think that life is hard,
That it seems just plain unfair.
But your friends are also scarred,
And despite that; they're still here.
Your depression feels so empty,
And the blackness seems so deep
The pain creates a frenzy
And you wish for eternal sleep.
The truth is; it's a tunnel,
And there is a light at the end.
So if trying to face it alone's no fun,
You should face it with me, your friend.
What you should do before making a decision about something that you aren't 100% sure you want to do.
First, imagine there is a mirror in front of you.
Second, look in the mirror, at the man looking back at you.
Third, ask yourself: is he someone you can be proud of?
Fourth, ask yourself if (after you do this thing), you will still be able to look in that mirror and be proud of that man looking back at you, and what he's done.
Fifth, ask yourself if you'll think any less of him afterwards.
If the answer is no for the step four, or yes for the step five, then you probably shouldn't do whatever you were thinking about.
So, over at work here in town we got a new toy - a Makerbot Replicator 2, to be exact.
In laymans' terms, a 3d printer.
I've now taken to 3d design as a merchandise design for customers, and it's going really well. We're having lots of fun printing things people commission, and I get to play and print my own things at cost price.
My goal - I'd like to get an aeromodel built. And it's proving really difficult.
I'm working in SketchUp so the software is fairly straightforward - that part I can handle. What I need help with is finding reference material.
As I get design work done I will be posting updates here and on my blog (w
So today my old man is 51 years old. And what did I get him for his birthday?
Exactly what he wanted, and has wanted for a year - a self-darkening welding helmet, for MIG, TIG and ARC welding.
His official comment on his age is he's "half a century, with a little interest".
So I'm now in negotiations with a mortgage broker. Yes guys, I'm growing up, getting old, and looking at buying a house.
This is a huge step, and to be honest it's kind of scaring me; but the way I see it the sooner I get the loan, the sooner I can pay it off, and the sooner I am debt-free. With my own house.
It's a massive process here in NZ.
First there's the financial appraisal to see what size loan I could afford with my current wage. This will tell me how much I can borrow.
Then there's the pre-approval process, which involves the broker seeing all the banks to find out which one will offer me the best interest rates and repayment sy