Before-I-Sleep

I want I want I want For her to read me poetry Words that are soft and gentle Yet deep and consequential So that in darkness I can remember their shape To lay down on sweet grass and forget the world Dream of fireflies Her hand Light shines from Artemis’ moon and will lead the way for us I wish for time to find me a love That will be my own I miss falling in love, but I don’t miss not being loved in return So contrite, these feelings For I am lonely and in need of her Galaxies explode from those eyes That have only been imagined Like words I once said but never remembered Can you feel it? The melancholia Like a victorian love romance Am I destined to live, love, and die such as poor

I spend my nights looking at the stars And I wonder where you are Dear love I’m waiting For you to take me away Set me free For my heart is calling you from so far away.

I never believed in love till there was her Always her I never believed in myself till there was her Always her The stars in the sky that I couldn’t reach From all the way down here in the mud The beauty that I couldn’t reflect The coldness in my chest Thawed out This beating inside of me I’d forgotten this feeling It was her Always her Lips soft like sunshine With gentle eyes that pierced my very being A gentle heart, accepting and warm A hand outstretched Welcoming Like a summer night with laughter She smelled like home I only had this darkness And I couldn’t see the way Till there was her Always her She doesn’t see it I only let her see what I want her to see Because these precious feelings She could never Never love a person like me So I scream into the void With this newly found heart of mine Love me, only me See me, only me But for her I will keep these feelings in me Deep down, I’ll fill in all the cracks with her Always her But she’ll never know What I wouldn’t do for her No