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About Varied / Hobbyist Official Beta Tester Kaily Russell30/Female/United States Groups :icondoctor-x-rose-club: Doctor-x-Rose-Club
Doctor x Rose ~Forever~
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I would have loved you
Like the sun loves the moon
And your skin brushes mine and you do not judge
These scars and bumps, this ugliness
And I feel it in my heart, really feel it
That maybe you love me too and I am loved
For the first time, she loves me
I am loved in return.
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All Roads End
It’s my fault
That I am the way I am
I don’t have the strength
I wasn’t born with it
To change myself, to be who I want to be
I can’t tell you what's in my head
Because it shouldn’t be there
Like what’s in my heart
She’s in my heart, always
The girl I can never have
She doesn’t know I exist
Do I exist?
This is where my road ends
And will it be noticed?
Like winter in California?
My head, it hurts
My heart, it breaks
My dreams, dead
I wait to be saved by her because I can’t save myself
I’m withering away inside this grave I’ve made
Without the light from dreams to light this dimming world of mine
I am so so lost and I need her
But she doesn’t know it
Please, please, please save me.
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lost my words
I’ve forgotten how to write these words
Because I haven’t felt the pain of a broken heart seep out of me onto a page
I remember a time when I bled words
When I love you’s weren’t returned
Loneliness my only friend
And even still my words have escaped me.
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Oh, thank you for my... first... llama! wow
Sat Oct 18, 2014, 8:16 PM
Thank you for the llama! :D
Mon Sep 1, 2014, 12:44 AM
Thanks for the fav :)
Tue Aug 26, 2014, 12:59 PM
thank you so much for the watch!
Thu Jun 26, 2014, 4:50 AM
Thank you for fav :)
Sat Apr 12, 2014, 12:40 AM
thank you for the favc: ^^
Sun Mar 23, 2014, 11:54 PM
thnx for the Llama :D
Sat Mar 8, 2014, 12:39 PM
thank you for the fav :)
Sun Jan 19, 2014, 12:37 AM
awesome a shotbox
Mon Jan 6, 2014, 1:02 AM
thanks for the fav :3
Sun Oct 27, 2013, 12:59 PM


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So a lot happened in April, I had a blast at Disneyland & California Adventure. I didn't want to leave!!! Got to meet some Disney princesses, met Black Panther, went on Star Tours like 5 times, made myself go on the Guardians ride that used to be the Tower of Terror.





And I got back from Toronto Canada last Sunday, what an amazing city! They say it's the most diverse city in the world and I believe it. There's so much to do there! So the documentary I'm in finally premiered there, to a sold out audience and we had special guest Zachary Levi who I briefly got to talk to. He thanked me for being a fan of Chuck and I told him I'm waiting on that Chuck movie and that he thinks he's about got it lined up. So yeah, what an exciting experience, I can't wait for it premiere here in USA, I'll keep you guys informed.



Me saying how much a fan of Chuck I am on stage and him smiling at that.


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Happy-RainbowUnicorn Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2018  New Deviant

Hello!! I'm new in here, and I just received a comment in my profile talking about someone that lives in an abusive home and wants to change it using Youtube, I know that's hard but I want to help this person even not knowing them

That's the channel:…

MiDraw Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav!! by MiDraw  
Before-I-Sleep Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :D
CherryInTheSun Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Hi Kaily!
Thank you sooooo much for hitting the Watch button, you're SUPERRRRRR AWESOME! :Chopper: 'Happy'  I'm honestly VERY happy to know that you enjoy what I create!

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Before-I-Sleep Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :D
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Before-I-Sleep Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :D
ElementShimmer Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey how are you ?
Zivichi Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2018  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for the fave!Blush  Moving Lovehug 
Before-I-Sleep Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome!
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