Warning: Mention of cutting and suicide
Red marker - Irl names (apart from mine which I honestly don't care about) crossed out for personal reasons
So where do I begin? Maybe it's best to start with what's actually happening aka the story from my PoV:
So I was friends with someone... let's call her K to not give any other name. So me and K were friends from December until yesterday night. Throughout our friendship it's been very bumpy. She used to hang out with my irl friends until they got tired of her being sad almost everyday so she stopped hanging with us irl, yes I knew her irl. That's only some of my irl friends and I mean SOME, but not me. I kept trying to talk to her. However, when I talk to her she is always suicidal, self-harming etc. (I have seen images of her self-harming) So of course I gave her advice. But, I felt like she wouldn't take any of my advice whatsoever and she doesn't listen to me. I even said that "I would care if you died" and "Other people would care about you" but she still attempted anyway. Now before you guys start getting mad at me, I was diagnosed with depression as well so I know what's it like, but when I told her that she needs professional help she refused it and when I asked what's wrong she normally says "I don't know" so it was literally impossible to help her to the point where I kind of tried to do my own things but I was constantly forced by another girl... we'll call her A.
A kept constantly telling me to talk to K which to the point if I don't do it she threats me and even calls me a 'cunt'. She keeps telling K that I didn't care (which was a lie) and so there was this fucking mess of relationships to the point where I literally felt broken. However, after a while A went off Facebook and here comes Dima. Dima acted to a similar manner to A where she would say "It's your fault if you don't help her" etc. Dima and A always tried to make my reputation look bad. Yesterday was when I messaged K for the last time because before I said "If you hurt me again I want this thing to stop between us" and she did exactly that. She called me spoilt and ungrateful just because I'm 'rich' (not really since I live with a family of 7 and it's only on my dad's side). I even told her that my mum was suffering from cancer in her hand but she didn't care. So that's when I ended it. I know it's a bit stupid to block someone for calling me 'spoilt' but I actually feel insecure about being born in that type of society because was I ask to be born in that society? No. No one was asked to be born in which society. I'm honestly not ungrateful but the reason why I said that is because I said 'I don't care about the money' when I cared about my family and friends more than money.
K if you see this journal I apologise but it's the truth. If you don't want people to know who you are please pm me, thank you.
Now that I quickly summed up the story (there is more but I don't want to go on for too long), let's talk about Dima. As you can see Dima attacked me just because I blocked K on facebook and that she tried to kill herself just because I blocked her. I know Dima won't see this because I blocked her but here are a few messages to her:
1) I'm not a robot, I have emotions too. I blocked her because I
2) I do know what she is going through but I won't mention on here
3) Let me give you the define for spoilt:
harm the character of (a child) by being too lenient or indulgent.
"the last thing I want to do is spoil Thomas"
, feather-bed, wait on hand and foot, cater to someone's every whim, wrap in cotton wool, overparent
, kill with kindness; More
antonyms:neglect, treat harshly, be strict with
I am not spoilt. I don't ask for everything that I want and if you want true definition of spoilt look up spoiled compilations on YouTube. I don't scream and cry over something that I don't get. I don't beg and beg for my parents to let me go out after midnight (literally I'm not allowed to do that). My parents gave me rules too like going to bed at a certain time or coming home at a certain time. Does that sound spoilt to you??
4) You are sexist. You can handle lesbian stuff which is part of LGBT but you can't handle Gay men because they have dicks? That's actually sexist.
5) I haven't seen you draw so you can't say much, also I've seen your page and your making people give points just for you to fave stuff? That's really low you know? I shown my art to strangers before and they gave me criticism but at least it was kind criticism and they said they can see potential. Your giving the negative type so honestly your criticism is shit.
Arrogant: I care about my friends and family so how does that make me arrogant. I don't even like myself so I don't think I'm important?? I care about my own mental health though and you know what? It's okay to be selfish sometimes.
Stuck-up: It also means arrogant but sure. I have friends that don't have as much as me but I don't go and make fun of their lives because of that. I honestly don't care what society my friends are from, they're still my friends. I admit I think my friends are better than me but I don't envy them, I know some of them are smarter than me etc.
7) You spelt hypocrite wrong.
8) I only tell my friends things because I'm not going to keep my feelings to myself am I? As I said I'm not a robot, I have emotions too. If I don't tell anyone I will just end up bursting.
She also criticised my art (in a negative way) and commented on my profile (You can find it easily on my page)
Art she criticised on: Come here you lil b!tchTeasingOC: Scarlet Knight
I honestly don't mind what you do to her: block her, report her etc. I'm just clearing up my name and venting out my feelings and I'm warning people that she's a cyber-bully.
Edit: Comments on the art are now blocked by me
Part 2: My response to Lunashiiki's journal