There were seven days of darkness before you left
I didn't know that it was a sign
I kept thinking about death
Assuming I was thinking about mine
I wish I'd been right
Now you're lodged in the back of my throat
I can't cough you up to mourn
I curse god with every breath
I remember when you were born
and wonder why
Your tags are left behind everywhere, train tracks
with an arrow pointing forward
With that Celtic-looking spelling of "eclipse"
You eclipsed the sun and the moon, the stars went black
maybe they'll never come back
You lived life ferociously, on your own terms
You were never good at obeying the rules
But, tortured soul, you lived as best you could
Who else can truly say that?
Did you know how much you were loved?
I eat, I drink, I sleep somehow upon an earth that has crumbled
Under a sky with no stars and no chance
to hear your voice on the phone
Telling me you're finally coming home
There is no healing, only perseverance.