bardiel

It's been a while since I last updated...I would go back to check on the exact date, but I'm not really feeling being all exact, at the momentMaybe it's because it's an incarnation of poetry (or vice versa), but song titles/lyrics seem to really do well for titles to my entries. This one's Mudvayne, for anyone who doesn't know.General updates: I'm still with FRA. I've been working extra hours because of staffing changes. Not really a whole lot, mostly Fridays. I work nine or ten hours, so it doesn't really kill me. So work hasn't been bad, which is nice. I was always worried about getting this job because I didn't know how mine and my brot...

Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence, And leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage For what resembles rage again So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care - I can't destroy what isn't there Deliver me into my fate - If I'm alone, I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you... My smile was taken long ago If can change, I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light But all of that was ripped apart...when you refused t...

A really good friend of mine joined the army. He left for basic training in the special forces, oh....three weeks ago on Tuesday. I've known him since I was nine years old in the fourth grade. He was the first person I remember meeting who's name was James and I thought it was so neat that we were Jesse and James. Innocence of youth, right? We didn't really become good friends until middle school when we found out we lived near each other. This was after I had gone through my year of abuse and I had all that anger built up and out of control. In retrospect, that anger being so present back then is probably the central reason he's been so a...