Shop Forum More Submit  Join Login
About Digital Art / Student Martin DotsonMale/United States Recent Activity
Deviant for 7 Months
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 62 Deviations 0 Comments 121 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

night constellations by bansheekin night constellations :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0 marine iguana by bansheekin marine iguana :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0 Howling Tree by bansheekin Howling Tree :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 Puritan art by bansheekin
Mature content
Puritan art :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0
Untitled by bansheekin
Mature content
Untitled :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0
Vegas Portal by bansheekin Vegas Portal :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 Sophia Shouts Back at Herself by bansheekin Sophia Shouts Back at Herself :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 Little demons by bansheekin Little demons :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 Circle of trust by bansheekin Circle of trust :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 2 0 Wild Things by bansheekin Wild Things :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0 Divergence by bansheekin Divergence :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 Marching orders by bansheekin Marching orders :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 0 0 One oroborus above all orobori by bansheekin One oroborus above all orobori :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0 Cherry by bansheekin Cherry :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 2 0 Red Mages Wall by bansheekin Red Mages Wall :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 1 0 Octobionocalcisapiens by bansheekin Octobionocalcisapiens :iconbansheekin:bansheekin 2 0


No watchers yet.


This user is not currently part of any groups.
I come out here for peace and quiet.
Thats not exactly true, but the last several times I have come out here to thos isolated desert pass, it has been a crossroads between dimensions.
I come out here to kill myself but I still javent been able to do it in the end, something stops me each time after several days of peace and quiet.
The bible has that story about Jesus fasting in the desert and then Satan appears to himand tries to get him to fall for deception or gove into temptation several ways but the Lord knows better seeing through the devils farce with pure driven snow intentions cannot be tricked or corrupted.
That was the first time i came out here to die. I was out here for six days, getting loaded out of my mind, sorting the last of my art organizing and pisting it for posteroty i suppose. The only radio station that gets reception out here is the good ole country station. I feel like a fountry boy deep down, like all i need is my truck my rifle my woman, my dogs and me, and we coild make some moonshine or wine and grow some pot and defens our little garden and that would be a good meaningful filfilling and jouous life, homesteading. See i wouldstart out with rabbits for my meat and chickens for eggs. I was amazed when i learned that chickens lay an average of one egg per day per chicken, that means a dozen chickens feeds the whole family breakfast every day! After i got good at raising rabbits i would move on to goats, cheaper and mire hearty than cows you understand, then i couldvuse goatsmilk for dairy until i was adbanced enough to keep a milking cow. I dont thinkni woold ever raise cows for beef though, to slaughter, cows have always been my friend. I an not sure why but as a kid i felt like i communed with the cows, and i talked telepathy with dogs. A real dr doolittle. Besides there has to be a good reason that the oldest sacred scripture, the teachings of uinduism place cows in such high esteem and i am talking about a more meaningful reason than to avoid consuming prion diseases like kreutzfeldt-jacob or bovine spongiform encephalitis.
Anyway the country station plays a lot of oowy gooey gushy love songs. Its been tough because i kost my family recently. My wife was possessed by some demo. Anout a year ago and it has been deaecrating her body and her memory since, and finally everythng came to a climax and she is leaving. Its been a hard year but i kept telling myself the selfishness was just a phase, and the emotional abuse would stop eventually, for richer or poorer right? I rhought the.last year would have just been a poorer year but thjngs would look up again soon. I guess i was wrong. I think that when that demon took my wife, it happened maybe when the world ended or just before sep 23rd 2017, the date of the revelations 12 sign, because the sign never appeared in the sky and nothing ever happened. If it did, we were all transported to a dimension where everytiing is wrong andbad because satan stirred it with his pinky finger and like the butterfly effect cataclysm has rippled outward while he laughed at us, he has the most teisted nauseating sick sense of god humor there is, he likes things like radiation poisoning, disfiguring mutations, degenerative diseases like parkinsons, it seems like all the good ppl are getting the short end of the stick. And the ones he could he had demons take control of those who were new in their faith, those he could trick or demons could get access to through sexual deviancy and lust perhaps, that is how i have heard they can take over some females, that is how i believe they snatched the love of my life.
Every time sje would mistreat me or donaomething conniving or selfish ot would dishonor her memory and build resentment on me. I have never had so mich resentment that is howni started to realize something was terrobly wrong and i must be in hell.
Anyhow, out in the desert at resdington pass i acquired a paranormal friend. There is a crow that follows me and caws at me everywhere roght around dusk. At first i thougjt he was a dead froend of mines spirit, maybe a fallen soldier i ffought with in afghanistan, or my froend tom or tyler who overdosed on heroine, and they were waiting nearby because they knew i was about to take the nine millimeter express out of this dimension, and inalways imagined tyler would be waiting in the next world to show me the ropes since he got there early and he would oh so relish knowing his way around more than me, like that kid who is telling you how everything works in basic training until you realize he only got to reception one day before you did.
The ooey gooey gushy love songs are how he did it, not the crow. God was able to pierce through thenillusion amd get a message to me. Previously i had died, but i came back to thos world groggy, i had known i wasnt supposed to be able to come back. The brodge between the world of the living and the dead was dexomated long ago. I had the knowledge that this place is fake, an illusion, or a simulation, and i had gone to the real place that night. I was walking alone on the dark. This forst sox days in the desert wothout even my dogs taught me that all uimans are truly terrified of being alone in the dark. Bitnin the real place it wasnt long before i was no longer alone ibeas talking into the darkness with someone, a loyal friend, maybe.. tyler? He was explaining hurriedly to me the situation. All incould remember was that there was a situation, that it was important, that i needed to go back to he fake place to retrieve sonething thatvwoyld jelp is with the situation and that there was something important to tell someone in the fake place. But when i woke up here in the devils playground in this body, it was evident all that i am in the real place could not fit on rhis brain, only a small portion of my siul can fitnin this brain and usenit to interface with this dimension or reality. So the me in the real place has the full knowledge, and the me here in the fake place has the faith and the eyes and ears and open arms to recieve it when he sends it.
Likeninsaid, my lotd God (not just the real me) punched a message through on the country radio station, only God could do something that amazing, Xoom isnt that gifted.
My life began to flash before my eyes. I bwgan to remember only rhe good memories, theyvwere flooding in and teats were pooring out to make more room for them, there are so many amazong wxperiences with her before any of the resentment, i didnt give a crap about the reaentment anymore. When i no longer had reaentment my eyes were open and the veil lifted. I saw this place for what it was, a set of a play, with demon stage hands running around operating the stage devices and props, one big green demon was pedalling on a stand still bicycle to make the sky turn and the dake sun go down, grinning maliciously because once it was dark i would be afraid to be alone. Compared to the demons running the stage, us actors on stage numbered few and i was the only one who knew this place for what it truly was. (More to follow...)


bansheekin's Profile Picture
Martin Dotson
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Does it matter? This is one of many lives in one of many many realities. I was a kid, curious intelligemt insatiable amd uncomtainable. I was smarter than most of the adulta in charge of me or put in front of me to. Supposedly teach me by age sixteen and highly aware of it. Also thought i was mich smarter than i was, i has no idea the value of amytjimg including the precious gift of my life, i thought there was something for free from god, and i wanted everythong the easiest way possible. Keen to explore and acquire woadom i took risks and secretly broke all the rules, never getting caught, fieling my ego and self will run riot because i knew better than my elders around me. I lacked a good mentor or even senpai, and failed to recognize my spiritual malady. Also I never listened to my mother. In pursuit of money and n easy life i went to college, earning my BS in biotechnology (rather tham art like i desired), The scientist awoke. I had great strength in cpntemplation and concentration, inner reflection and introspection. Powerful design and critical thought foreplanning and an obsesaive aomglw focused mond coupled qoth extreme spiritual sensitivity whole lacking any fuodance. I tried to move directly to graduate level work because ot was the traditional path and i recognies i excelled in structured settimgs but i was lazy and self sestructive when left to my own devices. Until inhad a good woman to keep me in line i would need to be in aome sprtbof rigoroua strictures program or curriculum in order to harness my potential, and i was hooking upbworh bad women. None wanted to settle dpwn or thenpne that wanted to settle down would have killed me. Funny in retroapect becauase the last one sosnt want to settle dlwn and she is literally killing me. Awake the soldier. I joined the army as a combat medic. I excelled as a soldier loves tjw cpmpwtitove spirit and structure, gpt off pn the tpughness and was insatiable for glory. I thought there would be glory in war until in got there. Sonce o came back ibhabe been totally fucked up, jaded, ptsd, paranoid, bitter and moaanthropic. Think about suicide daily. Want nothing ro do with humanity, wven less woth their garbage heapa (cotoes and society). Dabbled in medicine shortly (finished pver half of an.d.) but heartbreak and a woman got the best of me. By thirty with ptsd and havong been a recpverong heroine addict heartbreak has become very dangerous, my brain knows just what to do npt to feel hurt. I am now in hospice mode dying pf addiction and heartbreak. Poised to commit suicide any day. I thought she was my family. I was betrayed and abandoned so deeply i want nothing more tp do with this world. This art is my only legacy sonce i mever had kids, as promised thanks again to a woman.


Add a Comment:
spectre-draws Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Student Digital Artist
Cheers for the fave! :D
GGArtandDrawing Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for watching me
OliverInk Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
LordCarmi Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2018
Thank you for the fav :TipOfTheHat:  
Spiritofdarkness Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2018
:w00t: thanks a lot for the Added to my devWatch!   Sunny
lecristal Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
thank you my friend for the deviant watch:iconmeawplz:
montag451 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for faving MAINE LIGHTHOUSE!:D (Big Grin) Clap
Dedalo-el-Hispano Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2018
Thanks for the fav, mate!
Add a Comment: