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Mapping a Panic Attack

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Miniscule Error

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Miniscule Error

Inhale Smoke billows in and around my guilt. Memory boils inside my mind. Exhale I won't let this be purged from my veins. I am my mistakes. So I deal. I ask for advice, Opinions might validate my vice. Yet in this light, The scars are growing darker. They hold calendars and faded polaroids. Thousands litter the floor. Miniscule Errors. One tiny mistake, Maybe two. Time will birth many. I apologized while you were sleeping. Crept to your pillow, Whispered it in your ear. I could barely pull the words from their chords. "It's nothing. Just let it go." Message from a "concerned" friend. But I never could. The sm

To Face Fear

Simple Creature

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Simple Creature

I need sunlight, air, and water. I will sing for all my life. I will become music when I die. I am the embodiment of love. I love truly, deeply, permanently. I will hug on a whim. I do not need sex to express or feel love, or for fufillment. I need touch, contact. I am pure. I am innocent. I have the capacity to feel true joy. I am the last of a dying breed. I will play all my life. I will always be a child. I would never and will never intentionally or knowingly hurt another person. I will dance with or without accompaniment whenever I feel like it. I will dance in the sunlight. I will dance in the moonlight.

Gender Roles 101W

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Gender Roles 101W

Keep your fingernails clean, and keep your voice down. Don't climb the monkey bars when wearing a skirt. Keep your legs together or crossed. No daughter of mine will become a slut. "That's not very lady-like." No, I will not have a tea party with you. Take your other dolls and use your imagination. Don't try cooking without mother there to watch you. Use your KidKraft Kitchen, and just make-believe the batter. Dream of palaces and ponies, settle for a kitten and leave him INSIDE the house. It's ok to play in mother's high heels, you'll need to practice. Wear pink and pigtails and for God's sake, don't try to cut your own hair. Don't play wi
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The Last Gun Has Been Silenced

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The Last Gun Has Been Silenced

Pathetic? Perhaps. But truthful. Get out while you can. We are done with John Philip Sousa. Your parents must have really hated you. There are cold winters. It's a special time. I do not wish to hear about your childhood. You don't know me. All I want is to get out of here. My right hand is damp with sweat. It is my fate, I hear nothing, I am on an island, I am on Torture Island. Oh, do you exist? I wasn't aware we were sharing the same universe. I have a plan. It's automatic, Toward the blackboard by telekinesis. So write something down! There are six minutes left. I will describe the room merely by size and locatio

Superstar

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Superstar

"So," He asked me, by way of starting a new conversation. "What do you want to be when you grow up?" We'd been walking through the streets for close to three hours, for reasons which were unclear. It was 3:00 AM, and we were up this late for reasons which were unclear. I'd been going along with his degenerate lunacy for half a day now, for reasons so unclear they were a hair's width from being downright opaque. He was playing drum solos on a lamppost with a pair of chopsticks. I had no idea where he got them. "When I grow up?" I protested "I'm twenty two. That's grownup." "Bullshit!" He said, suddenly right in front of me with a finger in

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Gender Roles 101W

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Gender Roles 101W

Keep your fingernails clean, and keep your voice down. Don't climb the monkey bars when wearing a skirt. Keep your legs together or crossed. No daughter of mine will become a slut. "That's not very lady-like." No, I will not have a tea party with you. Take your other dolls and use your imagination. Don't try cooking without mother there to watch you. Use your KidKraft Kitchen, and just make-believe the batter. Dream of palaces and ponies, settle for a kitten and leave him INSIDE the house. It's ok to play in mother's high heels, you'll need to practice. Wear pink and pigtails and for God's sake, don't try to cut your own hair. Don't play wi
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My Bio
Current Residence: Minneapolis, MN
Favourite genre of music: Don't have one specifically. I listen to everything from glitchcore to classical.
Favourite photographer: Mark Olsen, probably
MP3 player of choice: Itunes
Favourite cartoon character: Stewie Griffin

Favourite Visual Artist
Er...
Favourite Movies
Danny Deckchair! or Amelie, Nightmare Before Christmas, Stage Beauty
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Too many to mention. Can't stop spinning Self right now... esp. Trunk Fulla Amps
Favourite Writers
Possibly Washington Irving. or Poe. Or Hunter S. Thompson...
Favourite Games
Super Smash Brothers
Favourite Gaming Platform
Game Cube or N64
Tools of the Trade
Anything that has the capacity to make an impressive mess.
Other Interests
Music, Languages: Writing, Reading, Words, Theatre, Drawing, Film, etc.

A brief note

A brief note

Climate: Akin to the surface of the sun... N64: Donkey Kong 64 NES: Supermario Bros. 3 Reading: Hey Rube by Hunter S. Thompson Watching: Batman Begins Listening to: As You Sleep - Something Corporate Eating: A ginormous pickle Drinking: Diet Coke Jesus... it's been over a year since I've even logged into here, and I have over a thousand things to sort through. Please don't hate me if I don't. Anyway, I've been doing a lot of writing, but mostly on my livejournal. I haven't been doing much drawing yet, but I still need to get pictures of my old ink washes and things. Hopefully, I will be able to steal a digital camera from one of my

There's Lysol in my esophagus.

There's Lysol in my esophagus.

Climate: Nuclear N64: Donkey Kong Game Cube: Metroid Prime Reading: Woe is I Watching: Anchorman Listening to: Don't Dwell - 311 Eating: Yoplait Whips!Strawberry Mist Drinking: Nicotine infused Saliva Christ, mid-july already? Not cool. I edited Miniscule Errors. Got rid of a lot of the lame cliches, and I like it a lot more. It feels more like poetry now, instead of a raging pity party. I have been cleaning my apartment since 9 a.m. and I am pretty shocked that I'm not dead from the fumes of all the various and sundry cleaning products. They are evil, and I hate them. My computer is fixed!  I'm hoping to write something tonight, b

Awwwwww(e)

Awwwwww(e)

No, seriously. Freakin' zombie dogs, man. http://www.livejournal.com/users/virtuistic/228677.html DeviantART has granted me a free week long subscription for no readily apparent reason... and it's screwwin' with the way I write my journals. So, here's the rest that's not covered in all these new, and unfortunately temporary, options. Climate: Dark and peaceful. N64: Donkey Kong 64 Game Cube: Super Smash Bros. Eating: Garlic Bread Drinking: Pepsi You all have made me feel so loved here.  Within the past 24 hours I've gotten loads of messages from you and I really want to say thank you. You're incredible. Speaking of incredible, anyone

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Thanks SO much for the two more faves! Ever-so much appreciated :)
Thankyou for the fave! :hug:
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank you=)
thanks for the fav on syed! keep up the good work.
Thanks for the fav!!! Isn't he cute?

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Thank you SO much for all the faves and the watch! I'm gonna watch you 'cause I really loved that poem you wrote...I'll look through your gallery in a minute, but I'm pretty confident they'll all be good! Anyways, thank you again, I really appreciate it!!
tks for the fav :glomp: