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I Hate That I Like You
I hate that I
Dream of you every night
I hate that I
Think of you all the time
I hate that I
I'm finding feelings for you
I hate that I
Want to hold your hand
I hate that you
Have some traits I hate
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
Are you nothing but selfish?
Or are you hiding who you really are?
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
I hate that I
Want to brush your hair
I hate that I
Want to gaze into your shining eyes
I hate that I
Want to become one with you
I hate that I
Am stuck in-between love and lust
I hate that you
Don't feel the same for me
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
Are you nothing but selfish?
Or are you hiding who you really are?
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
I hate that I
Dream of you
I hate that I
Think about you all the time
I hate that I
Have feelings for you
I hate that I
Love love and love lust all the same
I hate that I
Have to feel sorry for this
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Literature
Through With Broken Minds
I'll never pretend
My fake loyalty, my false personality
But I'll never be putting up with you again!
There's nothing that will limit me again...
I am so through with all, all of these broken minds
Your words and actions will never be hurting me again
I am pushing you down, look into the new me!
You will never be stopping me, stopping me again!
stopping me again, again!
Yes, you told me what's wrong to you
But you should see me now, I'll never listen again
Try to stop me from being me, but i'm learning from all the fools!
There's nothing that will stop me
No reason I won't push you down!
I am done with taking scars from you!
I am so through with all, all of these broken minds
Your words and actions will never be hurting me again
I am pushing you down, look into the new me!
You will never be stopping me, stopping me again!
stopping me again, again!
(YOU!)
This the last time I'm scrapping you
This the last lie i'll take from you
This is the end of the line!
I'll never
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Literature
I Failed You
Since you're gone now
I've had the time to stop and look back
That when we talk again, I'll be the first one to say, "I'm not good enough"
Now that I think of it, I'll be the first one 'til the end
I know what they say, I know what they say
Please stay...
I am crying now because of you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
Don't go, I don't want to live without you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
(Failed you, oh-oh, failed you!)
Living with the guilt, is a monster with no forgiveness
I think I'd rather kill myself, than live a life with no meaning
Now that I think of it, I'll be the last one 'til the end
I don't know what you mean, I don't know what you mean, no
Please stay...
I am crying now because of you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
Don't go, I don't want to live without you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I
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Literature
Thinking Every Night
It's every night now I'm thinking
who my real friends are
who are the ones who are real to me
Or even who understands more than everybody else
who is there for me all the time
It's weird how it went from hero to zero
'cause life is fucked up and everyone's to blame for it
I'd die for those closest to me
but who's willing to return the favor?
The train just keeps derailing
I guess I'll let it go
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Peace Without Happiness by Awesomenope Peace Without Happiness :iconawesomenope:Awesomenope 12 2
Literature
Why Do I Care
Today is just the day
All the bullshit from drama
Regardless of where I am
or who I'm with
there's always drama around every corner
But I still am confused with this one thing...
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
With my family member in the hospital
You think it's a good time to start drama?
With everything that everyone is going through
This is the time for grief and horror!
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
All the topics that can trigger an audience
of a world so divided
I really don't care for any of this...
Can someone please just let me in?
Let me go?
Let me breathe
Let me see
See me fly away...
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
W
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Literature
Lashes
It's five to ten
I'm just lying in my bed by myself (so alone)
I keep lashing out on you
Please cut the cord to my life support
Why do I feel so angry today?
I feel it may be a part of me that's still angry
Lashing out on you, I'm not okay
So horrible...
Lashing out on you...
Lashing out on you...
Lashing out on you, i'm sorry
I'll never listen to them again
I'll swallow all the lies that were said
I'll stand my ground
'Cause I know that tomorrow I might be better
Lashing out on you...
So sad...
Lashing out on you, i'm sorry
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It's a Sine! by Awesomenope It's a Sine! :iconawesomenope:Awesomenope 7 1
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Love and Lust
I'm so horrified
frozen in fear of realization
that I want to have you
but I know I can't have you
'cause it's weird
feeling the fire ignite with the sight of you
I know you won't
know you don't feel the same for me
this isn't something I've experienced before
never has this made me feel so cold before
It's been a month and a half since school got out
and I want nothing more than to see you
Even though you're one of my closest friends
I don't want to feel like this
'cause I know you won't
know you don't feel the same
for me
I'll wait for the sea to bury me
'cause this is war
inside my own skin
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Literature
Above
If I was down there
And weaker than you as God
Not I be up here?
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Literature
A Talking Crow Taught Me To Fly
The endless days I left the world in my dreams
Chained to the bed in iron shackles
I sit here every night expecting the same tomorrow
To be alone and helpless inside
Then something impossible happened...
Waking up one morning
To the sound of a crow cawing
Welcomed the crow with a smile
But the crow greeted me with an utterance
This little crow said to me that all birds can talk
But no one ever listened to them correctly
He asked why I'm all alone and chained up
Locked away from the world
I answered the crow with the words,
"I think it's right for me. Nothing's ever changed."
The bird noticed my starvation and sent himself
To go find some berries and nuts for me to feed upon
Days that could be thought endless spent with chats with the bird
Then the winter came...
Then he was nowhere to be spotted
Only three days and did I see him once again
Already lost in myself
This empty void that traps me everyday anyway
Just the day later he sent his army of soldiers to breakdown this fortress of s
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Literature
The 1,000 Year War (God Has Abandoned Us)
Teach me if it's fine to watch a kingdom grow
All the bodies on the street never dropped this hard!
I, blame, you!
(Leading all the blind)
So tell me mister
Who is it that has brought you joy?
The book that teaches you false love?
Now we're dying, one by one each day
But He took something we can never retrieve
It's been a long one thousand years, but here's the gate to heaven
You've killed about a thousand people
All that you've done is rename murder
Fuck your god and flag!
You've teared away love and replaced it with hate
Building weapons behind the scenes to see those bodies drop
Leading all the blind
We found your DNA all over the weapons
If you're looking for the Devil, take a look in the mirror!!!
You always knew that the lies would spread eventually
So don't be surprised if I show up on your doorstep!
"Sorry sweetie, we destroyed your family, defending my own"
There was never a compromise, now they're all alone
Look at all the damage you've done
Still watching them all fall down
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Literature
What There Is To Come
This has been my time
For growth and love I've lived
This power I have gained from these lows
I never rode that elevator to the gallows
'Cause it could not be shallow enough
It was not my time and it never was
So to that I here by say...
As I walk out this classroom today
I want to let them know that I'm grateful to have met them all
Whether they taught me things or simply opened up my mind
I know now that there is so much more to come
I just know what there is to come
Watching the lights, engulf the sky
When the universe is in flames, we need to realize who we really are
I'm losing it day by day
Is it worth it anymore?
Oh, losing life second by minute
Am I gonna live or die?
If the choices I made make up who I am
Then I'm fine with this 'cause it's who I am
When there's light inside, when there's light inside
I will never let go of my world of what is mine
Just like a planet exploding
The universe is coming together
We are forever falling
Just like the meteors are flying, burning
The
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Hello! I'm an average guy in his teens who usually does a lot on deviantART. I am mostly known for my previous works of Source Filmmaker and FNaF (Five Nights at Freddy's). I have since then moved onto literature (specifically poetry) and back into Source Filmmaker doing Splatoon, Life Is Strange and Team Fortress 2 stuff. I write about relationships, depression, life and other topics and issues in my poems. If that type of stuff interests you, then check out my content! If you have any comments or concerns then questions may be asked and i'll be on top of them as soon as possible.

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Ok, so, this may seem dumb, but apparently my friend is not dead. They just fell asleep, after saying the right sentence, to make us all believe that they were. So, cool. Still can't process anything.
Uploading hiatus. Byeeee bishes. Love having fluctuating moods on what I want to do on this weird website.
Going back into my comments of my Steam profile, and looking at every thing I have in my storage here on DA, made me wish I could stop time now, go back in time, to my younger self, and tell him everything that is going to happen and everything he is going to do. I wish I wasn't the way I was. Then again, I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't make those mistakes. There's no balance. I wish some things would just stay the same.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do on this website anymore. I have no ideas for anything but poems. I was thinking of just going on some hiatus from uploading, deactivating my account or just stop uploading in general. But I do still get ideas for poems so...
Ok, I switched the commissions to be basic scenes involving Splatoon Inklings, Inksonas, etc.
Doing Inkling profile picture commissions! Starting at 50 points!
Does anyone know about the band Zeal & Ardor? I just found out about it last night and honestly, I love their music. It's so weird, but it works so well. They mix blues music with black metal and honestly it's just odd but it works so well!
I'm so happy I saw Ghost at concert last night.
I'll probably be making a Splatoon OC eventually. I've been empty of ideas so maybe if I have an OC I can get more.
  • Listening to: Luis Fonsi - Despacito - Remix
I switched the commissions to being basic scenes that involve Splatoon Inklings, Inksonas, etc. Hit me up!

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Thanks for the watch! ^^
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologize that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner May 7, 2018
Happy late Birthday! Hope it was a good one! I would've replied sooner, but I was unfortunately busy with finals at the time. :/
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RoseSpectrum Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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Annaivri Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!  :party: by catluvr2
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Cheers for adding Alissa White-Gluz by JUMBOLA to your favourites.
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Oh.
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