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Miss You
I had all the best intentions
I only wanted to be yours
For eternity
Or what seemed to be
And still I miss you
How do I hide my face from you in the light?
Every time I see you I lose more of myself
I wish you'd vanish from existence
I want you
I want all
I want all of you
I want to pretend I don't know you
But I'd be lying to myself and them
And still I disintegrate
Still I miss you
How do I hide my face from you in the light?
Every time I see you I lose more of myself
I just hope one day you disappear
I want you
I want all
I want all of you
I know I'm lying
I'd miss you more if you vanished
But I feel I'd forget the horrors you brought upon me
If you just simply disappeared
But you should know better than anyone else
I still love you
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Mature content
Making Fun Of Everyone (Evil Justice) :iconawesomenope:Awesomenope 2 0
Literature
Forever Waiting (Stranger)
What am I doing?
I didn't take my friend's advice
'Cause I believed in something impossible
I won't kill myself over you
Otherwise It'd defeat me again
How do I get out of this hole?
When will someone reach out for my hand?
Have I fallen in love so easily?
How could this have happened?
So I'll be forever waiting for you
'Cause It's all I'm living for practically
Just please don't treat me like a stranger
'Cause I still see my reflection in you
Forever waiting...
My friends know better than me
Than to jump the gun
Like a jump rope with razor wire
But I always have to look down to see when to jump
So I'll be forever waiting for you
'Cause It's all I'm living for practically
Just please don't treat me like a stranger
'Cause I still see my reflection in you
Forever waiting...
I won't surrender to my own hands again
Otherwise it's all for nothing
all for nothing
It's my fault for waiting so long to do it
Then I gave you the note
Without you, i'm completely incomplete
I'll be forever waiting
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Literature
Weight
Alone once more
Broken and withering
I can't find my way
I've lost my way again
Blind and I won't be able to
Live with this
Surrender to the weight and the blank space
Grab my hand, put me back together, bring me back up to the stairs
I'll try to live with this
I'm falling quickly
My wings have been clipped
Like a bird unable to fly
Blind and I won't be able to
Live with this
Lifting and surrender to the wight and the blank space
Grab my hand, put me back together, bring me back up to the stairs
I'll try to live with this
Grab my hand, put me back together, bring me back up to the stairs!
Don't leave me here on the ground!
Hold these arms before they
Snatch another blade and...
Make a hundred scars on another
Hurting wound
Release me, please...
Surrender to the weight and the blank space
Grab my hand, put me back together, bring me back up to the stairs
I'll try to live with this
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Literature
Transparent
Holding my own hand to keep me calm
Climbing out of another hole
Tapping my feet to the sounds of my rapidly beating heart
As anxiety pushes me further and further away
Slow..and steady now
So upset and transparent
Still hiding all the evidence while I walk in search of some shallow flame
White as snow as I become translucent
Slow..and steady now
So upset and transparent
Angel watching over me
Don’t tell me you’re disappointed
Rain, rain, come again as soon and quick
The wall has my eyes today I never saw the tears you shed
They promised I would find some happiness if I look deep inside
It’s not possible ‘Cause I want it all
Maybe it’s okay because I still have everyone I need
Just as long as I don’t feel...
Slow..and steady now
So upset and transparent
Slow..and steady now
So upset and transparent
Over this
Over this
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Literature
Okay
The worst is over now
Still coming undone
But not too much
Now it’s just me
And all of my beautiful thoughts
Thinking about how it could’ve been different
Then again, it’s alright
I’m okay, so what does it matter?
I got the outcome I wanted, needed perhaps
The first time I ever got what, or perhaps, who I need
Now what do I do?
Leaving empty handed
I just want to ride your carousel
Never let this ride end
As it ascends into the sky
If not it’s alright
I’m okay for now
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Literature
Powerless
It’s so odd
To be here again
The same place where you struck me down
Tried to make me throw the other one away
The one I won’t let go of
‘Cause they’re the only one I can see my reflection in
How dare you
Try to push me down again
For no absolute reason
I’m already hurting from the heart
Don’t you know
That I’m not as heartless as I make myself to be?
That I’m not as strong as I make myself to be
Why do you strike me at the knees?
If you wanted to dehumanize me
I could’ve just cut my nose from my face
I hate it here
You tried to get me to believe again
‘Cause I’m as gullible as any priest there is
I’m ashamed I almost ruined everything
Do you even know what I did later that night?
Don’t you know
That I’m not as heartless as I make myself to be?
That I’m not as strong as I make myself to be
Why do you strike me at the knees?
If you wanted to dehumanize me
I could’ve just cut my nose from my f
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Literature
Nothing But Moths
Lights and dreams, moths we are flying
Tell me now:
Can you, can you, can you
Live alone, live alone
Forever, ever, ever
'Cause we're dying!
Our dreams are crushed
But we're still searching
Can anybody hear our cries?
We're like moths to a flame
Trying to find the way
Are we born to be blind, following a path?
Ripping off our chains
Yet we still listen to them
'Cause we're sleep walking in the rain
Holding hands, holding hands
Wondering, wondering, wondering
When they will escape, when they will escape
Breathe in, breathe in, breathe please
'Cause we're dying!
Our dreams are crushed
But we're still searching
Can anybody hear our cries?
We're like moths to a flame
Trying to find the way
Are we born to be blind, following a path?
Ripping off our chains
Yet we still listen to them
'Cause we're sleep walking in the rain
Can you hear me?
You may not have noticed
We're told to completely give in
Is your head in the clouds?
Or are you paralyzed
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Literature
Ghosts (Cause I Care)
Since you're leaving here, I've had the time to start look back
That if we meet again, I won't be able to say "Hello"
Now people tell me "Be weary what you hope for"
Please don't make me cry, please don't make me cry
Don't cry
I will try my best for you
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Don't weep, I don't want to make this hurt
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Cause I care, I care, I care!
(I care, I care...)
Living with these ghosts, is a hurt so heartless
Think I'd rather be numb, than live a life so bothersome
Now people say this thing, "Be weary what you hope for"
Please I want to cry, oh, I want to cry!
Don't cry
I will try my best for you
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Don't weep, I don't want to make this hurt
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Cause I care, I care, I care!
Thank you for all the memories
Thank you for all the memories
Thank you for all the memories!
Thank you for all the memories
Thank you for al
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Literature
I Hate That I Like You
I hate that I
Dream of you every night
I hate that I
Think of you all the time
I hate that I
I'm finding feelings for you
I hate that I
Want to hold your hand
I hate that you
Have some traits I hate
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
Are you nothing but selfish?
Or are you hiding who you really are?
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
I hate that I
Want to brush your hair
I hate that I
Want to gaze into your shining eyes
I hate that I
Want to become one with you
I hate that I
Am stuck in-between love and lust
I hate that you
Don't feel the same for me
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
Are you nothing but selfish?
Or are you hiding who you really are?
I hate that I like you
'cause I know you don't feel the same
I hate that I
Dream of you
I hate that I
Think about you all the time
I hate that I
Have feelings for you
I hate that I
Love love and love lust all the same
I hate that I
Have to feel sorry for this
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Literature
Through With Broken Minds
I'll never pretend
My fake loyalty, my false personality
But I'll never be putting up with you again!
There's nothing that will limit me again...
I am so through with all, all of these broken minds
Your words and actions will never be hurting me again
I am pushing you down, look into the new me!
You will never be stopping me, stopping me again!
stopping me again, again!
Yes, you told me what's wrong to you
But you should see me now, I'll never listen again
Try to stop me from being me, but i'm learning from all the fools!
There's nothing that will stop me
No reason I won't push you down!
I am done with taking scars from you!
I am so through with all, all of these broken minds
Your words and actions will never be hurting me again
I am pushing you down, look into the new me!
You will never be stopping me, stopping me again!
stopping me again, again!
(YOU!)
This the last time I'm scrapping you
This the last lie i'll take from you
This is the end of the line!
I'll never
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Literature
I Failed You
Since you're gone now
I've had the time to stop and look back
That when we talk again, I'll be the first one to say, "I'm not good enough"
Now that I think of it, I'll be the first one 'til the end
I know what they say, I know what they say
Please stay...
I am crying now because of you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
Don't go, I don't want to live without you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
(Failed you, oh-oh, failed you!)
Living with the guilt, is a monster with no forgiveness
I think I'd rather kill myself, than live a life with no meaning
Now that I think of it, I'll be the last one 'til the end
I don't know what you mean, I don't know what you mean, no
Please stay...
I am crying now because of you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
Don't go, I don't want to live without you
I know I failed you, failed you, failed you
I
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Literature
Thinking Every Night
It's every night now I'm thinking
who my real friends are
who are the ones who are real to me
Or even who understands more than everybody else
who is there for me all the time
It's weird how it went from hero to zero
'cause life is fucked up and everyone's to blame for it
I'd die for those closest to me
but who's willing to return the favor?
The train just keeps derailing
I guess I'll let it go
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Literature
Why Do I Care
Today is just the day
All the bullshit from drama
Regardless of where I am
or who I'm with
there's always drama around every corner
But I still am confused with this one thing...
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
With my family member in the hospital
You think it's a good time to start drama?
With everything that everyone is going through
This is the time for grief and horror!
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
All the topics that can trigger an audience
of a world so divided
I really don't care for any of this...
Can someone please just let me in?
Let me go?
Let me breathe
Let me see
See me fly away...
I can't take this anymore
Why do I still care for you?
You gave me such an attitude!
I'm losing my mind finally!
W
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Literature
Lashes
It's five to ten
I'm just lying in my bed by myself (so alone)
I keep lashing out on you
Please cut the cord to my life support
Why do I feel so angry today?
I feel it may be a part of me that's still angry
Lashing out on you, I'm not okay
So horrible...
Lashing out on you...
Lashing out on you...
Lashing out on you, i'm sorry
I'll never listen to them again
I'll swallow all the lies that were said
I'll stand my ground
'Cause I know that tomorrow I might be better
Lashing out on you...
So sad...
Lashing out on you, i'm sorry
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Hello! I'm an average guy in his teens who usually does a lot on deviantART. I am mostly known for my previous works of Source Filmmaker and FNaF (Five Nights at Freddy's). I have since then moved onto literature (specifically poetry) and back into Source Filmmaker doing Splatoon, Life Is Strange and Team Fortress 2 stuff. I write about relationships, depression, life and other topics and issues in my poems. If that type of stuff interests you, then check out my content! If you have any comments or concerns then questions may be asked and i'll be on top of them as soon as possible.

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I know I'm not active anymore on DeviantART (or rather often). I'm curious who will want a Tool fan button? Yes, I'm talking about the band (wow, a teen who actually bought their CD's!). 
Oh shit. I'm back ya'll. I forgot I have three poems done and need to upload them lol.
Ok, so, this may seem dumb, but apparently my friend is not dead. They just fell asleep, after saying the right sentence, to make us all believe that they were. So, cool. Still can't process anything.
Uploading hiatus. Byeeee bishes. Love having fluctuating moods on what I want to do on this weird website.
Going back into my comments of my Steam profile, and looking at every thing I have in my storage here on DA, made me wish I could stop time now, go back in time, to my younger self, and tell him everything that is going to happen and everything he is going to do. I wish I wasn't the way I was. Then again, I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't make those mistakes. There's no balance. I wish some things would just stay the same.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do on this website anymore. I have no ideas for anything but poems. I was thinking of just going on some hiatus from uploading, deactivating my account or just stop uploading in general. But I do still get ideas for poems so...
Ok, I switched the commissions to be basic scenes involving Splatoon Inklings, Inksonas, etc.
Doing Inkling profile picture commissions! Starting at 50 points!
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I switched the commissions to being basic scenes that involve Splatoon Inklings, Inksonas, etc. Hit me up!

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Hi! greetings!
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driftwoodwolf Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch! ^^
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birthdays Featured By Owner May 8, 2018
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologize that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner May 7, 2018
Happy late Birthday! Hope it was a good one! I would've replied sooner, but I was unfortunately busy with finals at the time. :/
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RoseSpectrum Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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Annaivri Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!  :party: by catluvr2
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JUMBOLA Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Cheers for adding Alissa White-Gluz by JUMBOLA to your favourites.
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