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Finally finished this . . . I think this took about 30-40 hours? I should probably keep better track . . . Anyways, this piece is inspired by my depression, especially the suicidal thoughts I tend to have. A lot of the time depression feels like an invisible rock you have to carry on your back. It's heavy and oppressive and it makes everything you do feel so difficult, because whatever you do, you have to also carry that rock with you. You want to say you get used to its weight, that you get stronger, and maybe you do, but when you carry something for so long without a rest sometimes you just want to give up . . . which is why it's so important to let other people help you carry that rock or to find ways to alleviate its burden, even if you feel guilty asking for help.

The specific inspiration for this piece has to do with that, because a lot of my burden is shared by my boyfriend, Kevin. I don't really know how I got so lucky to find him, but he always keeps me from giving up, from letting dark impulses rule me. I have a lot of other people who support me, but having someone who cares about me so much is so powerful to me. With how heavy my rock is I'm constantly wanting to let it crush me, but he's always there to make it feel lighter, until it's almost like it's not there at all. He tugs me back down to life, and he makes it worthwhile to be here.

I love you Kevin, and thank you to everyone who supports me and helps me realize that there's beauty and love and light in the world, and that focusing only on the evil is silly. You guys all matter so much! If anyone ever needs reaffirmation of that please just ask me. I try to share my personal battles so that others understand that it's okay to speak.
At any rate, I want to close this with a joke or something but I can't think of one. Um . . . yeah. More work later this week!

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JayLeyPrice's avatar
she      is....................................
TinariwenMS's avatar
"I will keep you from harm..."
Beautiful, beautiful painting and a strong message... Heart 
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Thank you very much, I'm so glad you like it. <3
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Thank you so much!! <3 <3 <3
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This is a very beautiful and emotive emotive piece! I love the composition and the colours you've used here. :hug:
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<3 Thank you so much!! <3
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... This one is truly powerful piece of art. 
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Thank you so much, I'm so glad you feel that way.
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I even shared it on facebook :) 
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Thank you so much! =) <3 This piece means a lot to me, so I'm glad.
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:heart: If you have a facebook you can send me your page or profile. Mine page is:
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Added you to like :) :heart: Here is mine: (if I haven't sent it to you already)
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I think I added you awhile ago. ;P Thanks! <3
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Wow!!! <3 <3 Thank you for sharing such a beautiful and powerful piece. Much hugs to you!!!
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Thank you, I really appreciate that. It means a lot. <3
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:iconsweethugplz: I send you many hugs and good vibes! :D Continue being awesome!!! <3
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<3 <3 <3 Thank you! Same to you!!!
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Stunning composition. Wonderful piece!
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Thank you so much. <3 <3 <3 =)
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Very touching. A lovely piece of work.
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