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No Answer

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No Answer

My teeth were chattering, hand shaking on the door as rain soaked through my careful hope and ice started to spread to my heart. (I kept knocking but there was no answer)

A girl's heart

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A girl's heart

You think you know me, But you don't. You think you own me, But you don't. I'm not a prize to be won. It is my choice to love you. It is my choice to be with you. For long you've kept this girl's heart your own. Now it is time to give it back. For I need it to fulfill my dreams.

Passing Shadows

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Passing Shadows

It feels like years since I shared the words Of an aching heart who once felt deserted. The days I reflect on now seem long and distant, yet I just can't seem to live without them. They haunt me, hunt me, beg and taunt me, yet I stand strong against the tempting and test my mettle in the forge of Life, sharpening my mind for the evident fight. They lurk like shadows of thieves in the dark, searching the land for their next victim, yet I've had my fair share of victories against those who live in the land of the forgotten. The past may seem to have been erased but someday, one day, you will come to face your fears, your regrets , your terri

Steps

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Steps

I keep marching forward Step step step Towards a far off light Step step step Towards and unspoken goal Step step step But that light keeps getting further And further away Like each step adds twenty more in effort Like each strike is 50 turns out Like each mistake is branded on Step step step Step step step I look back only to be pulled Step, step, step Memories bring me back, Make me slow They make me realize Compare now to then I'm more of a monster, A failure A hideous beast unwanted Unneeded. Step. Step.  Step. I'm filled with mistakes Step.. step.. step.. With reasons for people to leave me Step... step... step... I'm a failure In

Delete

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Delete

Just an useless conversation Some meaningless texts Still kept inside my phone With the insane belief They would keep you beside me As close as the device in my pocket With deleting them, did I also remove you out of my life definitively?

Your Voice

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Your Voice

I tried I tried so hard What more do you want from me What else can I do Nothing I do is ever good enough Everyone tells me it's beautiful Everyone tells me it's wonderful Everyone tells me I'm talented Why can't I ever believe them Why is your voice So much louder than Everyone around me Why is your voice the one that I believe Why can't the voices of so many Drown out the one voice Your voice That keeps telling me It's pointless They don't really mean any of their compliments I'm worthless They can't possibly really love me Nothing I do is ever good enough For you They tell me what I do is amazing But you tell me the

Okay?

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Okay?

Hush there Please listen Dry your eyes Try to smile Put down that knife It's going to be okay Maybe not right now But it will be I can promise that Give it time It should fare you well The scars will fade The pain shall disappear Please don't worry I know it's hard But it will get easier You can get through this It's no lie Honest One day Everything will be okay It will It just needs time So please wait No need to bleed No need to die Please The world needs you I know that now It will be okay. And if maybe I was wrong then talk to me I will listen and try be there i will try to make it okay okay?

Inspiration

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Inspiration

Let the words run free. Let the tongue flow wild. Let all the people see. That not a shadow there is of dull or mild. For these words that I speak. Ever free do they flow. Not for the mighty but for the meak. Insight into the mind I cannot show. What lay there in the dark beyond. Asleep covered in pale snow. The idea of which I am fond. That no mortal may know. I am neither hive, nor swarm. I am the raging summer. A charging Bison. Rise meak, rise the weak. Let your colors fly. As if in a blissful sleep, we cast our shadows upon the sky. There they gather proud and true. Both the shadows of me and you. Simple it is to let the tongue roll. Mor

Scared

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Scared

I'm scared of being with people but I'm more scared of being alone because leave me to my thoughts and breathing only gets harder smiling is out of the question and tears are practically guaranteed I'm scared of what my life will be like without you to say something funny without you to hold my hand as I walk without you to brush the hair from eyes because I've given you a chunk of my life and with it a piece of my heart I'm scared of uncertainty because sure I know where I'll be but I don't know where I'm going I have no idea what to do or how to do things Shit, I don't even know who I'll become The uncertainty of what's ahead eats at me

(Emotional Relapse)

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(Emotional Relapse)

Last night, I wrote a poem. When I put my pencil down, I turned my body over And tried to suffocate myself With my pillows. My heart began to thud, My head began to pound, My body began to give, & My lungs began to breathe. Last night, I wrote a poem. I answered my own question, A simple little prompt: "What is your darkest secret?" - And my past returned. I uncovered blocked memories, I uncovered emotional pain, I uncovered rediscovered loss, & I uncovered a hurtful past. Last night, I wrote a poem. One's past never ceases to haunt. My childhood that I refuse To ever go back and relive... It won't let me go. I thought I had cried My

Friendship - Let's Talk About This!

Friendship - Let's Talk About This!

    Last month my English teacher asked us to write a short speech about what friendship was to us. I thought it was a great idea and I put a lot of effort on it to get the best grade. And then I had the idea of writing a journal and spread it so that people could post their thoughts on this subject.    My teacher also told us to define a few words related to friendship and relationships in general. It was very nice, and I’d like to share them with you too. I used a dictionary, but I tried to use my own words.         LOVE: A strong feeling or enthusiasm or liking, as well as a very deep affection for another person.         LOYAL

Devious Journal Entry

Devious Journal Entry

Full of despair inside a darkness Self conscious and scared, held prisoner of war Running out of air, buried in a sadness Want a way out of this paralyzing world And the sound of the cries when a family's loved one dies It echoes through a vacant room where a young soul still resides When the night is cold and you feel like no-one knows what it's like to be the only one buried in this hole Searching for a way to escape the madness A dire need for change as we fight for better days The hurt and the pain cut deep like a razor blade Holding in a cry for love, abandoned and afraid

Devious Journal Entry

Devious Journal Entry

If I die it’s on the line in heaven I’m doing fine Cause I don’t want to be counted With the cowards Stand by to get shrouded dis empowered If it’s time then I’ll go if it’s my hour You can come down and take me If I’m a criminal Hear the bell ring and the times now Will you stand up or just bow down If the gun clicks chic, chic plow Did you get lost are you a sell out Cause I don’t want to be counted With the cowards I got chased But I’ll be praying till the day I watch hell fade away It’s a shame sin stains Step back and take aim Hunger game style from a child Wa

Hello Lovelies: Feature

Hello Lovelies: Feature

Hello, lovelies, I just want to take a little bit of time to give a shout out to a few great deviant artists. These people are amazing at what they do and I highly suggest you go and take a peak through their work. To start us off, I want to say thank you to chromeantennae (https://www.deviantart.com/chromeantennae) . Ricky, thank you for everything. You've helped me out so much with dA and have been a great friend despite the fact that we've only been talking for a month or so, lol. Your work is incredible! And some of his fabulous work: Another great person I want to give a huge thanks to is Glory1oflove (https://www.deviantart.com/glory1oflove) . His poetry is amazing and he's definitely someone to check out! Thanks m

WeaselBlog: First Day of School

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WeaselBlog: First Day of School

First Day of School    Wonderful people, do you know what today is? Well, I'm sure you figured it out by the title of this entry, but today is my first day back at school. I'm gonna be the new kid, but that's okay 'cause all the other juniors are new kids as well. You can't get into Scarlet Oaks until you're a junior, so at least I won't be the only new kid. But still, I'm freaking out because I forgot my class order. Gosh...I need to find that paper with everything on it. Hold on just a sec.    The papers have been retrieved! Along with dress shoes that are too big for me, but they work. So, now I just gotta keep myself from getting lost

Light At The End Of The Tunnel

Light At The End Of The Tunnel

There is a light at the end of the tunnel, it may seem like it's taking forever to get there, sometimes that's just how it is, sometimes your path is blocked, be it by situations, or by people...if you just keep moving, you will reach the end of the tunnel eventually, I promise...

WeasleBlog: Break Ups and Heart Ache

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WeasleBlog: Break Ups and Heart Ache

Break Ups and Heart Aches    Hello all you wonderful people. As you can tell by the title of this entry and my previous poems, I am now single, destined to be forever alone with 1,000 cats. Just kidding. the cats would mess with my allergies and um, I want to get married and start a family one day. Anyways. Let me make this clear. BREAK UPS FREAKIN' SUCK!!! Like seriously...How are you supposed to recover from a break up with someone you really trusted?    I was with a guy for 7 months as of today, and well, we kinda broke up tonight. Now, before I get people sending hate mail to him...I am okay with this, sorta. I mean, yes, I'm definite

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All Features!

All Features!

This is to organise all of the features I've done. I'll do photography, poetry and other types of art. Photography; (5th) Oldest - Newest Poetry; (10th) Oldest - Newest Art; (15th) Oldest - Newest
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Amazing Art Feature (25th Sept. 2016)

Amazing Art Feature (25th Sept. 2016)

Hey everyone! ^^ This is a list of art I've favourited over the past month/few days (give or take shhh), purely because I love every piece and want to share the love. If you want to go to each deviation, click on them and it'll take you straight to their page. Hopefully you at least consider favouriting these deviations or watching the people who made them, because both are incredibly awesome! Hopefully you love these as much as I do. ^^And for those who don't know, none of this work is mine! This is just taken from my collections. ^^ Most of what I say here is subjective opinion, while it might be criticism. So don't get your nickers in

Amazing Photography Feature! (2nd Sept 2016)

Amazing Photography Feature! (2nd Sept 2016)

Hey everyone! ^^ This is a list of photography I've favourited over the past hour, purely because I love every piece and want to share the love. If you want to go to each deviation, click on them and it'll take you straight to their page. Hopefully you at least consider favouriting these deviations or watching the people who made them, because both are incredibly awesome! Hopefully you love these as much as I do. ^^And for those who don't know, none of this work is mine! This is just taken from my collections. ^^ Just to point out, I'm very sorry for not doing this for a fucking year. That's insane to think about. That's my first thing I
If you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself; get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer, because there’s something inside you that made you keep trying despite everyone who told you to quit. You built a cast around your b...

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