autumn-spirit's avatar
130 Watchers22.8K Page Views483 Deviations
You're trembling as I hold you, Terrance, shivering as a wave of cold sweat wracks your form, as if you were overcome by frostbite, even though we are still in the middle of June; in the middle of this velvety warm season, with its surprise thunderstorms and golden-peach sunsets, peeking around the corner from us as we find ourselves in the unlikeliest and most tragic of situations that two Dixie kids can find themselves in. And I'm on my knees, down on the floor beside you, boy; where you are splayed and gritting your teeth in pain, shaking as a wound blossoms on your chest, burgundy pouring out and staining your navy-blue uniform, s
tell it to the moon
When our ship went down, there was fire on the water; flames reflecting in your eyes, boy, for a brief instant, before we were torn apart by an explosion on deck and found our bodies sinking, along with other dead weights, such as planks, gunmetal and unidentified dark and light matter. There were no sailors left alive, no captain to put the blame on, squarely; and truthfully, my mind went blank, shortly after, but I can speculate that we must've been washed ashore at about the same time, somewhere between a dying star's last teal spark and the rising East-side sun's first amber-ray glow. When next I awoke, it was to extreme discomfort,
the least you can do
It's New Year's Eve in New York City; and you'd think that the dazzling and ostentatious party-scene, the loud and gleefully energetic, hyped-up festivities, would have gotten to me already with their glittering reds and golds, their slick navy blue and silver tinsel; with laughter bubbling up in everybody's throats, like apple-crisp champagne and hypnotic Euro Pop beats. But contrary to popular belief, my friend, I am not always in a celebratory and rebellious mood; no, not always throwing caution to the wind and shedding layers of northern winter clothes with unapologetic movements, dancing barefoot in the light of a bohemian full moo
Proud Leo
Love, you say that I want impossible things. You claim that I don't know anything about true sacrifice and honor, and blood spilled for family members; with the fear of drowning almost nonexistent, the idea of heaven and hell only a backstory in your mind, when it comes to putting yourself in harm's way, without a second thought; and you insist that I should not even have the opportunity to experience these awful moments, these gory tragedies, that I should not have the right to ask for more than just mutual respect, distant gentleness, support and protection that don't include holding hands like lovers, but rather; fabled orphaned sibling
crystal bloodline
Under a crescent autumn moon, this city turned to liquid gemstone, a brilliant kaleidoscope on the sandpiper pond's surface, reflecting ripples of fire-truck red and denim blue, lime green, mermaid water dreams, as we waded through the mud and moss in the direction of our respective homes on the other side of the Jewish cemetery. Yes, we were marching back through the late November slush, like dishonored soldiers; with shoulders hunched, our limbs weighed down by wet clothes and imaginary armor, after we had barely made it out alive, after a failed quest for answers in a dryad queen's hazy smoke-and-mirrors court. Boy, you trudged beside me
your moon shadow
It was strange how it happened, how you left this world; at dusk perhaps, not at dawn, though how can I be sure, when the only one there to witness the dulling copper light in your wide ebony eyes; the only one to hear the sound of your last breath, wheezing as it left your throat was the very person who stuck that hunter's blade in your neck, who just happened to hit the right artery and ended your short time on this savage earth? Oh friend, how can I possibly be certain of your time of death now, if your father ever asks me that, if we ever speak again; and truth told, considering all of the bittersweet thistle regret that I am already s
birdsong on a battlefield
On my first night here, the amber candlelight flickered invitingly over the village, and I was transfixed by the sight; like a dream-like setting, a place where all forms of possibility rise, like chimney smoke into the mulberry ripe air. Oh but as I had predicted, you were not as impressed as I was by this because you had seen this view, a hundred; maybe even a thousand times before, I'm sure; in your tragically young and strong-willed, noble-hearted, and yet, still stubborn-minded lifetime. However, I was new here, having just stepped off of the dusty age-beaten dirt road bordering the “lake of invisible mermaids and great green monst
Harbor Lights
God save our young blood
You were waiting at the bus stop, with starfish clips in your hair; with ear-buds tucked in your ears, through which Sunset Boulevard melodies streamed into your memory, but you weren't as broken as you appeared to be.. Oh no, my faithful Bliss, I hate to break it to you, but you don't look nearly as invisible and inconsequential as you feel inside; and who am I to say so, to know better, you ask. Well, I'm just a guy who's been around, peering over the ivy and red-brick wall that you've built up around your ego, your swift live-fast-die-young reputation; a penchant for trouble, excitement and dancing heartbeats. Girl, you never saw me com
blue-skinned boys
I tried to find you in our old neighborhood, only traces, boy; snapshots, flashes of your know-it-all grin reflected on the surface of turquoise pool water, in the alleyways, pushed up against the cracked walls. I remember feeling resistance in the shadowy rain-streaked outline of your arms, hearing familiar whispers of “I can't” in the sugar-palm and sea-brine breeze, but it was nothing too crazy, I promise; nothing too queer and hinting at obsession and regret, unfinished business, a roller-coaster of emotion more thrilling than any amusement park ride that ever ran in circles, upside-down and around; butterflies-in-your-s
See all
dirty little stars, toy soldier hearts
Tell me, what do you think about when the debutante moon has lost her charm and there's nothing on TV to keep you up past 11 o'clock? Do your eyes glaze over, remembering how I used to hold your head on my knee and rake my fingers through your yellow hair, baby? Does your chest burn like a joint in the night with the absurd memory of my mouth pressed to your shadowy abdomen under turquoise plastic stars? David, it was heaven, making you come undone! You were dirty and beautiful; a clean-cut little show choir first date gone wrong. And I know I said you weren't my type when we met but you've managed to get under my skin and if I were being
Colorblind Immortals
Monochromatic skyscrapers held me prisoner in a city of half-raven men and angels with boyish grins; carnival sweets and baseball tosses vivid in their irises. Here the woodland pixies shed their peridot robes for a taste of urban lust, as if they'd been deprived for centuries. It's funny and scary at the same time.. I wanted hope drenched in whiskey and sonnets, mismatched puzzle pieces and friendship scars; an escape from the tragedy of secret suburban life. It was in this state that I found my answer, standing in the smoky shadows of a club on Marigold Drive. With firework highlights in his hair and limbs dove white and sinewy like the
Angels in the Dark
Loud voices bounce around like thunder, damaging the beautiful silence of nature. Townsfolk stand on the sidewalk with comical scowls on their mean faces, holding up signs spelling out hatred. October rain poured down on the tattered body beaten dry by the roadside. The boy whose character was smashed and innocence taken. His silvery skin caked with mud, Matthew lay forgotten in cowboy country. You killed him senselessly with ignorance and bigotry, had a hand in creating fear. But now the victim becomes an angel. Sun-streaked hair glinting beneath Marilyn's diamond song moon, his shale form unblemished, he rises to full height. Too stunni
Vagabond Rose
She showed up on my front porch at 4 o'clock in the chilly dawn, wearing muddy jeans and a bloodstained jacket. I recognized her immediately and my throat closed up with choking bad luck tears. This girl with vibrant teal ribbons in her auburn tresses was my serendipity partner in crime from the group home downtown where we spent our raging pre-teen years. "I've been in the dragon's den," she said when I invited her in. "The city's underbelly is full of dead pixies but I'm happy we survived," she continued with a torn smile on her lovely Eastern-European face, squeezing my hand warmly. Sometimes she could read my mind, as if my thoughts we
Milk mixed with Vodka
Matthew, what can I say, lying here on the grass, watching Ursa Minor and Callisto play tag in the denim-tailored firmament? You're probably a blond, blue-eyed bolt of light, shooting across the Toronto skyline. And I don't know why I could never make you stay with promises of better weekends and ordinary happiness. But you were always visiting the aquarium and peering at the stingrays, as if they held the meaning of all the lies you were told as a kid. Drawing fiercely in a cheap Wal-Mart journal, you struggled to comprehend why your dad disliked you so much, but few things made sense in your world, to be sure. Matthew, the only answers
Kryptonite Tears
The football field is completely deserted at 6:30 on a Sunday evening. The washboard sky is stained a buttery amber and I'm perched on the dusty hood of my station wagon. My best friend had asked me to meet him behind our high school and the nervous tone of his voice over the phone worries me. I know for a fact that Ryder's dad has been on his case a lot about his grades lately and we haven't seen each other in almost two weeks. My stomach flips as I recall the last time we met; at a diner on the other side of the highway. Ryder had reached for my hand across the sticky table while the waitress's back was turned. Although the memory is sweet
Greek tragedies and West Coast perfume
Sit down and uncross your legs. Don't pretend you're better up on some famous pedestal because you're just like me; a neighborhood-born poet with raw insides glowing in the pastoral sunshine. So drop the star kid act, dear. You're not selling me out today with your lipstick stains and California oleander blossoms pressed to your magazine fake cleavage. I can see right through the disaster fabric you're trying to beautify; it won't work here, Miss Never- going-back-to-suburban hell. Beach serenades and Cadillac breakups; it's too late to rewind this summer, you've changed dramatically, girl. It's as if you've got a root beer split personali
You claim she's making you restless with her strings of costume jewelry and celebrity perfume that reeks of insecurity and family issues. But despite all your complaining, the way I see things; your heart, friend, is just as isolated as this girl's and you two aren't that different. She thinks it's funny to call her peers names that she dug up out of her dad's expensive yard, covered in undeserving soil and pubescent bacteria. "Dance with me," she says. "So everyone will think you're normal." And you make excuses as disco balls throw cliche glamour against the rundown walls of a gym near the Pacific coast, letting the sugary fruit juice th
Fallen Star Vodka
Though I'm not a heavy drinker, that evening I downed three plastic glasses of Arbor Mist because I wanted my tongue to taste like winter air and sin. And a girl gestured for me to sit beside her on the bench facing the toy dragons where people were pounding music near the lake but I couldn't focus on the seamless pop because the navy uniform heavens were stained with burnt rose and soft violet; fireworks from an insane artist's canvas. This girl was exactly my type of tragedy, though,with peach and satin flesh and long bangs dipping into her clear water irises. Between quick glances, I realized she was deaf. Pulling out a notepad, she
makeshift paradise
The brainwashed sun sticks to my eyelids in the pear drop morning. Wandering down these shipwrecked avenues, I wear a practiced smile. But your name is something foreign; a long-forgotten page from my adolescent journal and so used to flying under the radar, I'm at a loss for words when you give me a compliment. Still, you seem comfortable in your thick skin. And it's seriously intimidating, seeing how you joke without straying from the truth, sipping from cool bottles and staring unflinchingly up at a moody sky laced with purple static. I wish I could be like that; not a sorry-ass coward. June 4th was a night of graffiti, palm branches s
past lives i.
       she used to pray to st. jude                        loss left her listless                    scraped and bruised, oh, st. jude -          and then the cavern collapsed, and                     past lives ran by her like music;                   she saw his face, this wasn't their first dance                             was it?           whisper-silent, gradual introduction,        she felt like a shotgun, pointed the wrong direction               felt more comfortable in chaos -           she cannot keep her words to herself         the roar and rush of the falls that bellowed                  inside her, hoarse      
Old Polaroids before the Fire
The Tragedy of Macbeth
I Am Proud To Be Me
Autumn Victuuri
Lunar New Year
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak.
  • July 7
  • United States
  • Deviant for 9 years
  • She / Her
Super Albino: Llamas are awesome! (299)
My Bio
Current Residence: Texas
Favourite genre of music: rock

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
The Pretty Reckless, Meg and Dia, Adam Lambert
Favourite Writers
Richard Siken
Other Interests
poetry, music


Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
SchwarzWieEbenholZProfessional Photographer
Thanks for the watch! :hug:
PoetrymannProfessional Writer
I appreciate your taking the time to view and fave my art. Many thanks!
PoetrymannProfessional Writer
Thanks for faving my work. I appreciate it.
Panda-PoodleHobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for adding my Yuri on Ice art to your favorites!
PoetrymannProfessional Writer
Thanks for the fav. I appreciate it!