8-12-09

August 12th 2009, Augenoptik, Hoffnungsvoll

ENTRY THREE

I wrote this yesterday but somehow it fucked up. lol
here goes...again

I just got back from a shortened camping trip. We were supposed to go till friday but we got back last night...my brother got turned into one giant, walking bug bite and my brother-in-law got a bug bite on his eye and cant see out of it. We all got eaten alive but i still had a good time. swimming and drawing while the sun was up burning them bitches out of the  sky () Well, in a week and a half ill be camping again and this one will be awesome! Me,  my short talk-a-tive friend, and two of our other friends. No parents and just tents and fire ()

outside IRL, my mind has been reeling about being cold. Is it really cold to not have feelings for someone after having strong ones for almost a year. I don't think so. Thats the whole thing isn't it. You date someone cause you like them and then dump them when you don't anymore...thats all that happened. Well regaurdless i dont think i was wrong or cold.

Also i feel freer than ever, like a weight has been removed...she doesn't want to talk to  me anymore and well i was still worrying about doing things that would hurt her...FREEDOM! Well now that im free im gunna go do anything and everything. I never got to take advantage of being single so im going to now...how ever it may  present itself.

While taking advantage of myy singleness ill be looking for that girl...the one i can be friends with and still make-out with when noones around. The one that i can hang out with one day and not cry about me having plans with my friends the next. I want someone who won't complain about their weight or how hard school is....i want a female me. lol Laid back and lets their life go as it goes, and only works harder when its needed not freak out and cry about how hard it is and not do it. meh, ill find her one day...or, maybe shell find me. ()