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Adam Joshua Ward
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Revisions
Revisions come on, I can't stop the rain i can't stop you from crying but i can wipe away those tears i will be there for you next time i swear i won't be late i'll take your affliction next time i will set it straight With these revisions that were made for me i will make it beautiful to be with me again so stay tonight please stay tonight there's nothing as beautiful as you by my side With these revisions so why do you always cry when every breath i breathe for you you just turn your head from me the stars are glowing for you i wish so much that you could see i know you have never seen the poison that puts me to
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Procrastination at it's finest
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My big nose
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The Homage to T
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Envious resent
Envious resent i feel i'm always in some sort of depressing dispair i should have prepared it's like a cannon ball has hit me off my feet and i always wake on the bleakened side of my bed the swelling pain in my head i think i drink too much, but it gives me what i need those words, they seem to scream from the back of my mind my thoughts become maligned there is no future for you and I, i just stare at me and when i come home i reach for a knife and scream at the top of my lungs and when it's over i spit the blood that was shreaked from the skin of my tounge so my friends all think that all I do is avoid the fresh air they t
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finally a decent shot
finally a decent shot
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Shattered soul, bitter end
who i am inside is not who you think i am i just want to cry to love something that's not real i wish i could die these feelings will not leave me but only you can save me i need to be so absolute you've barely scratched the surface i want to let you in my soul has ripped apart you're piecing it together I don't want to live past this day you are the angel in my life My god i'm so afraid I've always been there for me i cant believe you're here you're the angel on my shoulder We can run away we'll live inside our own world This tale is in my head you've gone and now i'm dead you never actually existed i've dreamed of th
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Teenage Virility
say you're you and I'm me and we get together just to see what could arise we might dispise or hold so high that we would die the power we posses how our friends distress for reasons we neglect are surely to affect the ones that we love and all held above we acted like fools and sexual tools sure we had fun but now look what we've done i thought i was god but now know i was flawed the mistake that's been made is not one that will fade here i am at 4 a.m. my child, how is screams i have lost all my dreams in a single action i have joined the faction the teenage virility was but an epiphany my lack in protection i
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Agateophobia
(verse) a world inside my head moves so fast and slow this person takes control i cant constrain my movements my body shakes and quivers i stand but its not me my mind is somehow altered this state is now my sovereign (chorus) Agateophobia I'M NOT IN CONTROL i've gone insane I'M NOT IN CONTROL its governs me now I'M NOT IN CONTROL my life is gone I NEED CONTROL (verse) the colours move fast like dark waves of gas inside a tunnel of fire my eyes they can still see but this i cannot explain the things that i do the places that i go i dont want to be here im not alone (chorus) I'M GOING INSANE i can't take this pre
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forgetful elephants
Forged from all that we know of life they roam the plains of dark and light we are the feathers on the wind we know not what we are thrust in we walk among the streets of confusion to remember that we are all in a lucid state of lving to believe in a fate that one must overcome is like the hollow bones that break and and dissapear we are not a memory but a fact, a number we fuck and spend and live for greed but the ones without are left to die the forgetful elephants will never know your name they arent your pets to mistreat and blame we are all forgetful elephants who treat the world as a playground of pain we march in the ci
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Forgotten Lovers
we stand alone in the vast space of hate where we are only seen as an imperfection we know not what we want, nor'  want what we need but we know the strife of love and lack of we are sheep in the open fields of war and prejudice but still we grasp our flags and march We are not alone now that we are one, the wars and hate cannot touch what we have done I am one of many who dare not fight for what we know we speak for what's right people cannot taste what they will never understand a drink of love across the lips and are a thousand times stronger then any word we are the now and not the present we last forever in the eyes of forg
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cold truth
i speak my mind as i hope you would like but instead i am judged with my head on a spike to speak profoundly "i'm not understood" is hard to explain to you, even though i should im wet and afraid from those who berate like a fire thats been bathed from harsh words that scathe i try to be honest and live to my best but before i can try, there are those who protest the cold truth is aparent and i am truly alone my only hope is that she will one day feel my tone Adam Ward
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Visage of War
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Cheap meat
Can you hear the voice of reason prying at this treason scratching at your mind it takes you much too long to focus this sham won't go unnoticed just because of hate You leave love inside your pocket trapped inside a locket with her picture inside ignoring that which you've forsaken the time that you have taken you sleep around too much you'll do it all again All the times you've said "I Love You" this relationship you lie through is taking it's hard toll Drinking, coming home days later leave your child at day-care the ball and chain can go You leave love inside your pocket trapped inside a locket with her picture insi
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Progeny
What makes her think that he won't come back in an hour or two Husbands and wives they just don't last in this age of ours Marriage is just a word these days like sacrifice and improvement on wedding vows but then we can't assume that it's natural Pack your bags and dive away from all your problems Family life will come to it's sad cliche closing if you can't be the man that you promised you could be "Mommy where's dad?" questions hate free this will never last fifteen years later "Fuck that old man!" how the boy has grown so cold Fatherhood is not a concept some men can ingest so the children grown up insecure in hate
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Kick in the digital pants
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Captain Jack Sparrow
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Stowaway
Within the confines of my teeth, as I brush with soft bristles, cemented in place by filmy white plaque, hides a transparent kernel, two days and two-hundred lives old. With me this kernel, has spoken my soft words, and screamed my demands. It has swallowed my guilts and misgivings. For two days, this stowaway has lived a human life. My amazement distracts me, the thick blue foam embracing it falls from existance. I have murdered in the second degree.
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Father's Will
Father's Will the iron doorknob wasn't really made for me the creaking orchestra played so i'm opposing the price i'm meant to pay because the shattered skies refuse to keep quiet anymore and the rain outside lets itself onto the floor so all i'll ask is how "often does it rain a year?" this house is now my home The paint was peeling a rusty brown from years ago as the rain beat down on the roof the floor moaned softly as i moved from room too room and that's when the idea unveiled inside my head 'cause this hole in my roof lets the sky right in there's no blame to why this house faded astray i left it alone until m
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update
so i noticed that i haven't had a journal since February, so here's an update on what my life has become. My band broke up, i still jam with my guitarist sometimes but nothing steady. I work all the time and hardly see any of my friends. I love the game Guitar hero for ps2. and that sums up the last 6 months.  Till next time..
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Hmm....
Well my birthday is coming at the end of the week. I think i feel a midlife crisis coming on. i've decided that i want to go back to school. A nice cooking school so i can get my papers. so now i save. Another show was played up on friday, except a few mistakes it was pretty good. I was a little angry after the show becuase of the mistakes and someone came up and complemented the show and noticed and i was angry and said "If all you have to worry about in a day are a few mistakes in your songs, then you've had a pretty good day."   I was cheered up instantly after that. So i've drifted away from dA and theotherroom nazis lately. I apologize a
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Festivus and the like
2 days until festivus! my pole is all ready! So in the past month i've not done much, except work and work some more. I enjoy it and the people i work with, but it's not the same as Cafe 13. In other news, i opened my christmas presents up because i'm impatient and i recieved BONGOS!!! yesssss!!! and a PSP, it's pretty sweet assed. All in all it's been a good month, the new years will provide much more since i get to keep alot more of my money instead of spending it as soon as i have it. stupid christmas. Anyways, if i don't talk to you before christmas, have a happy Christmas or whichever holiday you have!
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TOBONGA GARY

TOE BONGA





HAHAHAHAHA
how the hell have you been MANNNNN
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i've beeen omnipresent
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Lady-X|Hobbyist Writer
:hug::kiss:




:blush:
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cool4dude|Hobbyist Writer
Happy Festivus you putz.
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hey Josh :wave: just popping by to say thanks for all the support you've shown my work these past few years! ..truly appreciated :)
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no problem. but my name isn't josh ha ha
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.. um.. ya.. I was already informed of that :) ..sorry man!
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