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It's been a long time...

Sat Feb 4, 2017, 7:59 AM
I've got demons / running 'round in my head
(Bastille - Send Them Off!)

Hello everyone!

I don't know if anyone will read this as I was absent for some time. Sorry.
My parents always said I shouldn't post everything on the Internet - but I don't think that what I'm about to tell is something to hide, it's a part of me and a big part of why I kind of abandoned deviantART for some time. And drawing in general. It's not all about explaining, but giving you a way, something, to understand me better. Maybe. I don't know. Maybe it's just me feeling better writing about it.

You don't have to read, you can always close this journal if you feel the like to do. Also: Trigger warnings for the mention of mental health related issues.
So, like the lyrics of one of my favorite songs from last year at the beginning of the journal suggest, I'm struggling with some mental problems. I always did, it's part of being an over-thinker and always-worrier and perfectionist, and for some years it started to get worse. I experienced panic attacks, anxiety, meltdowns about all possible stuff, tiredness, tenseness and a lot of more things. I always thought it was normal (at least for me), or because I had something to worry about or stress at school/uni/work etc. But last year the panic attacks and anxiety became more random, happening without any reason at all (at least nothing I could figure out), the tenseness was always there and after feeling tired and without any energy for some weeks I finally went to the doctor, who, after doing some tests on blood etc, recommended me to a neurologist, where I was finally send to a psychiatrist and got a diagnosis for feeling that out of control: Depression.
Of course I knew that a depression was not just "being sad", but I always thought sadness was a part of it. And since sadness was not any of my problems, I really never considered being depressed. But depression is so much more, as my psychiatrist told me.
For me, it seems like I was so often and long under stress (some of it self made), that my brain decreased the production of a nice little hormone called Serotonin, which causes my body to feel stressed without any stress and struggling to relax and getting energy back. Serotonin is amazing, it's not just good for the mood, it also helps the body relax (so it's kind of the opposite part of adrenaline), it is important for muscle contraction and the digestion. Which is why I was always feeling tense (=muscle contraction) and tired (=no relaxiation). Also without Serotonin your body is always in flight mode which causes tiredness and anxiety. And the tenseness could also have caused a lot of my headaches in the past years. I don't know if everything of this is exactly like I wrote, I love biology but sadly was never that good in it that I know every little detail.

So, long story short, I was diagnosed and got medication (because it seems like I'm in this spirale for more than 3 years and now my body needs help to learn that it needs more Serotonin and should produce more, what the medicine is also for). But I'm still struggling. 
I have more good days than bad days, but when before everything felt more like a row of okay-ish days, I experience the bad days much worse now, but the good days also much better. At least this is something I have to talk to my psychiatrist in the next time.

My creativity and need to draw/paint was almost gone during the last months, it always felt like I had no energy left for it. That's one of the reasons I was so inactive (the other one is feeling sad and like a failure when everyone was still creating art and you just couldn't do anything at all). Now I'm slowly trying to get back into it, with the help of coloring books (yes, don't laugh, there are nice) and a bit sketching now and then.
So hopefully I will be back in short time, at least a tiny bit. I miss it.

How have you been during the last year? Tell me, I would love to hear from you :)

Jule (Ashqtara)

Ooooh, what you do for a badge...

  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt?
    7 years. Woah.

  2. What does your username mean?
    "Ashqtara" (spoken Ash-k-tara) is the name of an elfish dragonrider in a story of mine. I liked the name and so I used it :)

  3. Describe yourself in three words.
    kind. (easily) overwhelmed. clumsy.

  4. Are you left or right handed?
    Right handed.

  5. What was your first deviation?
    Sunset Melody by Ashqtara

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create?
    At the moment digital paintings and watercolour.

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
    Acrylics (I always get the feeling the paint hates me :,D )

  8. What was your first favourite?
    The Spook's Apprentice by ArtisAllan

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
    (Seriously? You ask a libra to choose just ONE?) Ehm... :iconalicexz:.

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?
    I just... I... don't know. Many artists, but it would include a lot of awkward standing around because I'm really not good at meeting new people, and especially people I admire. :meow:

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
    Everyone who inspired me.

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art?
    Pencils, paper, watercolours and my beloved Wacom.

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
    Depends on my mood, sometimes my desk at home, sometimes outside surrounded by nature.

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
    My first DD, I literally couldn't stop smiling for hours :D

Some of you may have realized that I'm quite inactive at the moment. I moved to a new town in April and started working my first real job (still exciting!) in June, and I still have no internet at home (no, it's not that I don't try, the provider just is sooooooo slow with working on my contract it's nerve-stretching).
KabelDeutschland promised me to get everything working until the end of the month but from the way it looks I think Christmas sounds like a more promising deadline... hulktransform

So yeah, I'm still alive and (kind of) kicking. And there will be a time when I'm connected to the world once more. wink :P

Till then: Take care, everyone! w00t!


A lemon.

  • Listening to: Imagine Dragons
  • Reading: Die Seiten der Welt
  • Watching: Hannibal

deviantART meme

Thu Jul 17, 2014, 4:54 AM
I've completed this deviantART meme :)

1. How did you join deviantART?

I'm sorry, but I don't know. I can't remember. It was six years ago and sometimes I can't even remember what I had for breakfast... :D

2. What does your username have to do with you?
"Ashqtara" was/is the name of a character in a story of mine, an elfish dragonrider, who was the only elfish girl among humans. I liked the name (which means "daugther of fire" in my story btw) and it was a name no one had before so I chose it as my username. (Because I'm always getting this question: It's spoken Ash-k-tara ... I definitely should have thought of an easier name xD).

3. What is your current avatar of?
My current avatar is... me. Cosplaying a female version of the 11th Doctor of the tv-show "Doctor Who".

4. How many Watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
*runs to her profile and to the gallery stats* Let's see... I have 273 watchers and I watch 478 deviants. :)

5. Do you have more than one account?
Not anymore. I had a stock-account once.

6. Name three of your favorite artists on deviantART.
How evil .____. Three. How can I choose? (I'm a libra I literally can't choose!)
:icontrenchmaker: & :iconnna:
and now I'm feeling terrible for everyone I couldn't name I'm so sorry

7. What deviant(s) do you admire because of their personality?
Many. Beside all the deviants I know in real life (look at 8), I would name :icontrenchmaker:, :iconshandria:, :iconletssavetheuniverse: and :iconsusutastic:, but also some others. I always love to read what they write :3

8. How many deviants do you actually know in real life? Post their avatars.
12. Some of them I only met one or two times, some I know for several years.
:iconbriellewonka: :iconkat-anni: :iconmietznoir: :iconnorthernraven: :iconshingel: :iconwahnwerk: :iconannamalie: :iconsan-chan5: :icongiftstift: :iconbistybert: :iconinsanepleasure:
And my real life little sister :iconwassertanz: :meow:

9. Do you comment, Favourite, or both?
I have to admit, when I like an artwork, I favourite it but don't write a comment. I mostly only write comments... hm, I guess, when I have something to say. Like what I like most about the work, of which song or quote or scene it reminds me, what I feel when looking at it or an answer to something in the artists

10. What do you typically post on deviantART?
At the moment fan art to different tv-shows or movies, also own digital and traditional art. In the next time I will try to upload a bit more photography.

11. Do you participate in clubs or contests here on deviantART?
Yes, sometimes more, sometimes less.

12. What is your most popular deviation -- as in most viewed or most favorited?
*runs again to the gallery stats*
Funny... my most viewed and most favorited deviation is my first DD:
Easter Egg Alice in Wonderland by Ashqtara

13. What's your favorite submission in your Gallery?
Hard to say. I think it's
I'm A Ghost by Ashqtara

14. What are things you wish you could draw better?
Hands. Noses. Faces. People in general.

15. Do you have a Premium Membership?
Yes :nod:

16. How many hours a day do you spend on deviantART?
Sometimes no time at all, sometimes more than 4 hours. It depends on my time ^^

17. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
I would say fast, but I always think a lot about what to write and how, so a text can take me hours, even if I'm typing really fast :)

18. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
 "How did you drew this?" (I don't know, I just did?)
"Can you draw me this or that for free?" (I could if I could survive by eating nothing. So stop asking.) only one person is allowed to ask me this question and she know who she is xD

19. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've ever received?
There is no comment in particular, but I don't like confusing comments or comments in a language which isn't German or English so I don't understand it...

20. What (or who) inspires you?

Here I would like to link to the influence map I did four years ago. It's old but most parts are still relevant:
Influence Map by Ashqtara
In short: music, movies, tv-shows, books, other artists, people, nature, life itself.

21. Do you use guidelines when you draw?
I don't know what you mean with "guidelines"... I watch/read tutorials and use references, if this is what you meant? ^^;

22. Do you associate people on deviantART with their icons? Link us to some examples!
Not really. I usually associate people with their (user)name and their art style.

23. Have you ever suggested a Daily Deviation?

24. Many people have cons idered leaving deviantART. Have you? Why?

A little help, please? :3

Mon May 5, 2014, 8:29 AM
Hello everyone! :D

I hope you had nice holidays with eggs and chocolate and sun and perfect summer weather... :sun: ... and pollen... :sneeze:

Anyway, this is not my main reason for this journal, which is me asking for you help.

Maybe you remember my deviation The Winter Soldier from some time ago?

The Winter Soldier by Ashqtara

I've submitted it to Qwertee (for those of you who don't know what it is, Qwertee is a Shirt-Printing-Website like TeeFury or OtherTees or Teebuster and so on...) and they're only for a few days left for voting.

If you would like to help me get this printed or want a shirt with this design on your own or even want to get some special positive karma points (never underestimate good karma), it would be really really nice if you could vote for it. :love:

Link for voting

Bucky Mockup WHITE by Ashqtara

Another journal with some informations about stuff I'm working on and other things will follow shortly, I tried to take some time on my own in the last weeks (didn't worked out properly though) because I felt so overwhelmed and demotivated...

Thanks for hearing me out and cookies for everyone! :cookie:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Bastille
  • Reading: ASOIAF 5 (Book number 9 in German)
  • Watching: too much tv shows which are close to their finales


Thu Mar 13, 2014, 6:34 AM
Hello Stonehenge everyone :)

I did it. I finished and passed my bachelor thesis, woohoo! :D

But with great power comes great responsibility and with a finisehd degree come tons of stuff you have to do and organize (hell, all I wanted was some free weeks after all the stress :( ).
The next step is getting a place for masters program. Hopefully. So I have to prepare portfolios now, even when this isn't what our wonderful state want me to do atm :,D

Nonetheless I also had some beautiful days - the sun is shining, spring is coming (or already here) and I have a bouquet of tulips on my desk (thanks Dad :3).

The next days will be a bit busy because of the book fair in Leipzig, but busy in a good way. :meow: I look forward to see a lot people I met there in the last two years and also some people I only knew over the internet. It's basically something I look forward for some months - and I'll be there in a Female-11th-Doctor-Cosplay, so it will be FUN! :la: :la:

Concerning the Sherlock posters of Series 3:
It's nearly done, there's only one poster to do and then, when all are finished, I'll upload them :)
Sorry that it takes so long, there's just so much other stuff to do atm x___x

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Fall Out Boy
  • Watching: The Mentalist S6

I AM BACK! (well, kind of)

Sun Jan 19, 2014, 7:04 AM
Hello everyone, hope you're doing fine! :)

I'm back online - yes, finally got internet again, after almost 3 months without it I can tell it's surprisingly difficult without being able to look things up in seconds, searching for pictures or inspiration... well, at least it is when you're working on your bachelor thesis :,D

Also this bloody bachelor thesis will hold me inactive till middle of February.

Got some questions if I'll make new movie poster designs for the 3rd series of Sherlock.
Yes, I'll definitely make some, honestly can't wait - but well, reallife has other plans. First bachelor thesis, then posters... *sighs*

Just a sign that I'm alive (sort of) and busy like a bumblebee ("panicking and running in circle with hands in the air and screaming" sounds more accurate) at the moment :)

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: "I See Fire" (Ed Sheeran)
  • Watching: Elementary S2

Merry Christmas, everyone!

Tue Dec 24, 2013, 4:59 AM

Get dressed, you merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay!
For it is Christmas, Christmas, Christmas, Christmas, Christmas Day!


Merry Christmas! by Ashqtara


I wish you a merry Christmas, a lot of fun and love, no stress during the holidays and of course lots of lots of lots of presents!


Jule :)

Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

No internet at the moment...

Wed Nov 6, 2013, 7:25 AM
Hello everyone!

Just wanted to let you know that I barely have internet at the moment, only at university.
My days are full of work right now so it's a bit a good thing - I can't get distracted by tumblr or twitter or something else online so quickly xD
But I'm also a bit pissed because it's annoying not being able to load a picture that you need for a project and doing my research properly ;____;

I was also ill for two weeks in october (yeah, right after my last journal).
Got a nice huge Tonsillitis, so everything is now reaaaaaally busy because I have to finish my research asap and then start with the bachelor thesis.
I'm always becoming ill when I don't need it >.<

So, this was just a quick note, to show that I'm alive and breathing :)

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Pacific Rim OST

Hello everyone! Hope you're all well :)

Isn't that awesome? As soon I got rid of the art block, I don't have any time for drawing because I've started with my bachelor thesis. Well... 8D
My thesis will be something about book covers and at the moment I'm a bit conflicted. I really love this theme (this is why I have chosen it), but on the other hand I'm feeling overwhelmed. Again. And it's not so much the thesis itself, it's more the thoughts that this will be my last semester, that I have to finish my thesis till January (no idea how I should survive Christmas before it), that I'll have my final presentation in February and that I have NO IDEA how my life will go after it. I have some small plans, but everything is a bit blurry right now. And actually I have no time to be bothered with anxiety about my future... *sighs*
Maybe it's just the lack of time, energy and relaxation I have at the moment because working on the research for my thesis... should be finished in one week and I'm a bit floundering right now :,D

It also means that in the next time I'll be more absent than before (if this is possible) and also no new art this year. Or maybe I can manage to finish some of my Work-In-Progress-Since-Months-stuff when I have a bit of spare time...

Bullet; Purple

An other thing that happened in my life: My birthday! Now I'm 24... o.O
Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes! :heart:

It was a great day, I've met my dear BrielleWonka and my brother and his girlfriend.
And BrielleWonka got me a Maneki Neko (also known as Lucky Cat) - like the one in The Blind Banker in Sherlock! :heart:
Basically now I'm John and she is Sherlock - so stay away from rooftops, dear! ^^

210534c48a28eb8344c966ec1ae0f520 by Ashqtara

Bullet; Purple

I also got tagged by Susutastic ^^

I'll answer all of her questions, but will not tag anyone or ask questions. Boooh, I'm a rule breaker, I know! :P

1.) You must post these rules.
2.) Each person has to share 10 things about them.
3.) Answer the 10 questions asked to you and invent 10 questions the people you tag will have to answer.
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10 things about me:
1 - It really struggles me to choose between things - I'm a libra, I literally CAN'T decide! xD
2 - I find it difficult to interact with people for a long time and I need big breaks where I can be on my own. And a lot of people don't understand that. :/
3 - And often I feel really overwhelmed by information and things I should do and people and life itself and then I do nothing even if I feel bad about it because I'm to overwhelmed to do anything (like now... I'm procrastinating again ^^)
4 - My favourite time of the year are the first warm days after a could and grey winter. When you have the first green, all the singing birds, the snowdrops and crocuses… When the nature awakes and start to become green and colorful and alive and beautiful…
5 - According to a test my patronus would be a flying squirrel.
6 - I'm quite okay with fact number 5. :D
7 - I love broccoli (why is everybody hating it? oh well… more for meeee! ♥)
8 - I hate honey (what an interesting fact xD)
9 - I have never left Europe.
10 - And I was never on an aeroplane :B


Answer these if tagged:
1. Who's your favorite game character and why?
Difficult, maybe because I havn't played a lot of games ^^ I love Spyro (because he's a fucking dragon! ♥) and Aima from the super old GameboyColor-game Lufia: The Legend Returns , because she was one of the first strong female characters I've met in games :3
2. What's your favorite fruit?
Banana. Always take a banana to a party ;D
3. Tell me your favorite lyrics from a song.
I wanna take you somewhere so you know I care,
But it's so cold and I don't know where.
So I pick you daffodils, in a pretty string,
But they won't flower like they did last spring
And if somebody hurts you yeah I wanna fight,
But my hands been broken one too many times
So I use my voice, I'll be so damn rude
Words they always win, but I know I'll lose
Yeah I'll sing a song, that'll be just fast,
But I said them all to another heart
(Tom Odell - Another Love)

4. Which actor do you dislike the most?
I... I don't know... Charlie Sheen, maybe...
5. If you could change one thing in the world, what would it be and why?
That's a hard question. I think I would like to change the opinion some people have about other people who are looking different, loving different, having other religions or genders etc. so everyone could life in peace and no one would ever be treated like animals or objects.
6. What was your last dream about?
The last dream I remember was about me having a little redhaired daughter... Have no idea where this dream was coming from, maybe the biological clock starts ticking? :,D
7. Cats or dogs?
I love both, but since I'm a bit of a couch potato I would say cats :)
8. How many pillows do you have in your bed?
9. Mir fällt keine Frage mehr ein...
Ahahahahaha. Cookie? :cookie: :3
10. Continue! "In 10 years I'll..."
- ... still not feel older than 16. Maybe. :P

Bullet; Purple

I know, I'm not really active here. Hell, I've submitted only 3 pictures this year, that's a new record x___x.
But life is busy as always and sadly this comes before every art...

Thanks again for all the comments, faves and watches - your support means really much to me! :heart: :huggle:

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Doctor Who S7 Soundtrack
  • Watching: American Horror Story *hiding under shock blanket*
  • Drinking: tea

Hello everyone! I hope everything is right and you feel well :)

After weeks full of work and deadlines, then vacation (which was great but also exhausting) and then again busy weeks I finally have time to draw - but then what happened? An art block hit me. Of course.
It's not that I have no ideas or creativity, it's more like I really really want to draw something, but have no motivation (it's more like that I'm totally afraid of doing sth. wrong) and when I start to draw sth everything goes wrong. It feels horrible :(

Bullet; Purple

But I don't want this art block to depress me so I've started to edit fanvideos again. At the moment I'm working on three vids simultaneously (a Third Star video, a Multifandom one and a song spoof for Sherlock) :D
My last video was for the tv show Hannibal:
(viewer discretion is advised OR: warning! many dead people ^^)

And a video for all German Sherlock-Fans: "Warum bin ich so fröhlich [Sherlock]" ;)

Bullet; Purple

I also have an instagram account since some months. I'm posting very different photos: sunsets and sky, animals, WIPs aaaaand... stuff. Lots of stuff. x,D

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If you want to follow me, feel free: :D

Bullet; Purple

Since march I've watched a lot of some new tv shows:
Avatar - The Last Airbender
Avatar - The Legend of Korra
Being Human (UK)
Game of Thrones (S1)
Person of Interest
The Vampire Diaries

Especially Hannibal really hit me, I think I'm a bit obsessed xD

And I have the feeling that I have a talent for choosing a character as my favourite and then this is the character who has to die... My orange "shock blanket" was really often used in the last months. ;____;
Hello feels, please come in and have a seat, do you want some tea and chocolate?

Bullet; Purple

So yeah, it's a bit wibbly-wobbly in my life, like always. xD

Thanks again for all the comments, faves and watches - your support means really much to me! :heart: :huggle:
Here, cookies for everyone!
:cookie: :cookie: :cookie: :cookie: :cookie: :cookie: :cookie:

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Save Rock and Roll - Fall Out Boy
  • Reading: The Yard - Alex Grecian
  • Watching: Luther S1

Everything comes to an end

Sat Aug 17, 2013, 2:31 PM

Tomorrow at this time I can proudly say that I survived my second GISHWHES week.
"GISHWHES?", I hear you asking.
It's short for Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World Has Ever Seen.
A team of 15 people tries to fulfill more than 100 tasks in one week. With creativity, huge fun and smiles.
Here are more informations:…

:la: And I have to say: GISHWHES 2013 was absolutely abnosome! :la:

(abnosome = abnormal in an awesome way)

Tomorrow will be the final day and I think even if my team, the Consulting Timelords, didn't scavenge all of the items on our 156-items-list, we had a great time.
An abnosome time.

So yeah, next week I have finally much time to answer all your comments.
Thanks again for every comment, fave or watch : - your support means so much to me! :heart: :huggle: :heart:

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: Pacific Rim OST
  • Reading: Under the Dome
  • Watching: Avatar - The Last Airbender (Book 2)


Mon Jul 8, 2013, 12:00 PM
~ 01/07/2013 - 07/07/2013 ~

- Desperation - by Savu-kun
Some moments when I felt desperate and scared of the future...

busy by arseni
Deadlines and organising and helping and life and everything at once ...

Visiting my family and good friends always help against bad thoughts...

This was MyWeekThroughArt. How was yours?

Someone reposted one of my works here on deviantART without my permission. Could you please report it?
Here is the repost:
And here is my original work:

Thank you!


  • Listening to: Reanimation - Linkin Park
  • Reading: The Hobbit
  • Watching: Hannibal
  • Eating: far too little

Back! (a bit...)

Thu Jun 27, 2013, 6:53 AM
  • Listening to: So Close - Ólafur Arnalds
  • Reading: The Hobbit
  • Watching: Hannibal (someone please help Will Graham D:)
  • Drinking: Tea

Hello everyone! :)

Did you miss me - or don't you no longer know who I am? ^^
I know, I haven't been online since around march and I'm sorry. I had to sort some things out in my life (even if I wasn't that successfull).
I don't know if you know the feeling, but in the last months I often felt overwhelmed. With studying, with work, with thinking about the future, even with people and with life itself. Can't explain it really good.
Maybe it's because I have to start working on my bachelor thesis in some months and I'm panicking a bit because I don't feel ready and I just have two topics till now (one of them I really like but since we have to submit at least three topics... *sigh*).
But well... that's how life works. :/

To top it all I'm ill at the moment with fever and headache (hell yeah, the wheather is really shitty, it's nearly colder than it was at christmas!). Just when the deadlines are coming closer and I have a lot of stuff to finish.

Hopefully I'll find my "inner balance" - if I can call it so - when we have holidays in some weeks. Can't wait, there are so many things I want to do (which includes a lot of drawing because I have barely time for it atm) and I really need some time for me when I don't have to think about study and my wibbly-wobbly future...

I'm sorry when I have not answered your messages till now and when you don't receive an answer in the next time, I have to deal with hundreds of messages on dA now and I think it'll take me some weeks to go through everything. Like I said, deadlines are coming. ;)

Anyway, I hope you understand why I wasn't active for some time and why it was really quiet on my account. And I hope everyone of you is doing well :heart:.

See ya! :w00t:



I'm sorry flood you with all my problems.
And like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Reading: Doctor Who and the Crusaders (David Whitaker)
  • Watching: Doctor Who S06E00 - A Christmas Carol
  • Drinking: Tea
:snowflake: :xmas:  :snowflake:
Merry Christmas, merry Christmas
Ring the Hogwart bell
Merry Christmas, merry Christmas
Cast a Christmas spell

:snowflake: :xmas: :snowflake:

Hello everyone! :)

I whis you a merry Christmas, happy holidays and a good new year! :heart:
May the odds be ever in your favour xD

In time for Christmas the Doctor Who Fan Orchestra proudly present their sixth work - "A Christmas Carol (Suite)"!

(I'm singing in the choir... you can spot me around 06:25 in the first row in the middle ;D)

And as always, thank you so much for every comment, fave or watch - your support means so much to me! :heart: :huggle: :heart:

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

  • Listening to: The Midsummer Station (Owl City)
  • Reading: Rivers of London (Ben Aaronovitch)
  • Playing: GISHWHES
Hello everyone! :)

Did you miss me? xD
I'm sorry, I'm busy with a lot of things I have (and want) to do, so free time is very rare atm.

Have you heard of GISHWHES (= the Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World Has Ever Seen)? It's an big and funny and crazy scavenger hunt, organized by actor Misha Collins. I'm taking part this year for the first time and yeah... 3 days are left and I'm working on the first item for my poor group... *sigh* Sadly I've not enough time for all the stuff, but a lot of the tasks are US related (you CAN'T find a Wallmart in Germany...). But it is fun and this is more important to me than winning GISHWHES ;)

When we talk about Misha Collins, we also have to talk about Supernatural.
I've watched all 7 seasons of this series in 2 month. xD Some episodes were really creepy (there's a reason why I hate Clowns...), some really funny ("What's a slash fan?" - "Slash like in... Sam - slash - Dean." - "You mean... Sam and Dean together? Together together?!" xD) and some were really sad. Oh, all the JoEllenLuziferMichaelBobbyCastiel-feels... T_T (ESPECIALLY Castiel who is my favorite character... who is nearly everyones favorite character, I guess xD).
And now I need time to watch Season 8..........
Can I have Hermione's time-turner? Or a TARDIS? Or both? ;)

Some journals before I showed you a video of the Sherlock Fan Orchestra.
Today I want to show you a video of an other Fan Orchestra, the Doctor Who Fan Orchestra! More than one month ago the DWFO presented their fifth work. It's the first time that I played piano for the DWFO (and the second time that I contributed my playing for a fan orchestra), so I'm a little bit proud of it. :meow:

And again I want to thank you all for your wonderful comments, your faves and watches... I read everything, even if I have no time (or are to lazy ^^;) to answer everyone. Thank you very much, your support means so much to me! :heart: :huggle: :heart:

See ya! :w00t:


Like everytime: I'm sorry for any mistake I've made in grammar and spelling. ^^

I'm back! + 2nd DD + Drawing

Sun Sep 2, 2012, 11:28 AM
  • Listening to: Cabin Pressure (what else?)
  • Watching: Doctor Who S2 (this time with my little sister :D)
Hello everyone! :)

As you (maybe) know, I was on a vacation the last week :3 It was wonderful but also very exhausting. Every day we went into a museum or were hiking, so every evening I fell in my bed and every morning I was like "What, is the night already over? It feels like I've slept only 5 minutes…" xD

Sadly we didn't go to every place we wanted to go (like Czech Republic), but all places we visited were great :3
There were the towns Radebeul, Meißen (maybe you know it, the town with the porcelain? ^^) and Dresden. We also visited the Festung Königsstein, Albrechtsburg (Meißen), the porcelain manufacture in Meißen (overwhelming!) and a lot of galleries and exhibitions in Dresden. Oh, and the Dresden Frauenkirche (…)!
I took a lot of photos, so the next days I've to sort them and edit some ;)

When I was away I've got my second Daily Deviation on the first of my Sherlock movie posters.
A Study in Pink - Movie Poster by Ashqtara
I saw a "congrats for the DD"-comment on my mobile phone and was like "WhatwhawhatWHAT?!". I think I annoyed my family a little bit because I was so hyperactive and happy the whole day and always looked at my phone to read all the new comments. :giggle:
I'm still really flattered :meow:
I think I'll need some days to answer all the new and old comments, lol.

I've a lot of works which are halfdone on my laptop or on papers, so I hope in the next weeks (which are the last weeks of my holidays) I can finish the most of it. But at first I've to do my recording part for the Doctor Who Fan Orchestra - this time I'll try to submit also a video! :D

Last but not least, I'll thank you all who write so nice comments or watch me or fave my works or even like the tings I do. This means so much to me! :heart: Thank you!:heart:

See ya! :w00t:



  • Listening to: Cabin Pressure
  • Watching: Supernatural S2
  • Playing: Doodle Or Die
Hellooooo everybody! :)

I'm going on a vacation with my parents and my little sister. We're spending one week in Radebeul in Saxony (Germany).
Which means: Dresden, Saxon Switzerland, Dresden, Czech Republic (Pravčická brána, they filmed a part of The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe here!!), Dresden. And it also means: Photographing. A LOT OF photographing! <3

So I'm not here until next saturday ;)


And some exciting news:
The Sherlock Fan Orchestra released their second piece: Pursuit
I played the piano keyboard ^^.

The next piece will be Sherlocked, so if you play an instrument or sing and want to be part of it, join us! :meow:

Next journal entry when I'm back :)

See ya! :w00t:



  • Listening to: Micheal Price
  • Reading: The Unusual Suspects
  • Watching: Supernatural S1
Hello my dears :)

Everyone who saw the new DoctorWho-Trailer knows what I'm referring to in the title. XD So excited for the new season (and so scared... Weeping Angels and tons of Daleks, aaaaah! :O)!

Finally my 4th semester is over and I have summer holidays, wohooo. But sadly last weekend I hurt my right thumb (a heavy box fell on it), so drawing is difficult and the only thing I worked on the last days were some videos, cleaning up the hard drive of my laptop and helping my parents with gardening and such things.

Yesterday I received a package from deivantART. My first reaction was like: "HolyshitwhyhowwhathappenedIneverorderedsomething!" :giggle:
Inside the package was this:

(Print by trenchmaker Whipped Cream Wallpaper by trenchmaker)
A wonderful sweet fluffy pink mug! But... I never ordered one.
It is/was on my wishlist and it seems that someone bought it. For me. But the question is WHO? Oh, I'm so happy, but I really want to know who was it... ^^

And a quick note: I changed my gallery icons (again xD), because now I've the possibility to create subfolders in the gallery folders - yay! :3 (It seems that changing the subfolder icons isn't working at the moment, I hope this will be fixed soon...)

As always: Sorry for my crappy English ^^. And thanks for all the comments and faves :heart:.
I wish you all a great morning/day/evening/night :cookie:

Ash :sun:

  • Listening to: Sherlock &amp; Doctor Who OST
  • Reading: The Joker - Markus Zusak
  • Watching: Torchwood S1
  • Eating: ice cream
  • Drinking: a lot - it's so hot outside! *melting*
Nonononono, I'm alright! ...if you're wondering about the title. ^^
Quote of Sherlock in "The Reichenbach Fall" (Monday! MONDAY! Asdfghjkl!! Even if the dubbing is strange.) that was in my mind ^^

So, only wanted to tell you: I am still alive. I'm breathing, working, sleeping. All fine :)
But sadly I've little time for other thins than university projects, commissions and some requests. All the drawings that I want to do! :ohnoes: And I have some ideas for Sherlock related T-Shirt-Designs.... gnaaah, I need more time. Or a Time Lord with a TARDIS. Probably, both. :P

I hope I'll finish all the stuff till July, so I probably would have time for doing some commissions. For money or dA-points, I'm not sure.
Would anyone even be interested in commissions? (I bet, no one is... ^^°)

And I'm sorry... I promised that I'll try to answer all the comments... I've failed. ._.
I'm so so sorry! But I'm really glad about every comment, fave and - of course! - watch! So, even if I don't answer: Thank you all so much for your support! :heart:

Have a nice day! :sun:




Fri Apr 13, 2012, 1:57 AM
  • Listening to: Sherlock Season 2 OST + &quot;Artwork&quot; by The
  • Watching: Doctor Who Series 05 (I still miss Ten)
  • Eating: my medicine and ice cream
  • Drinking: tea
Woah folks! What happened?!
I uploaded three movie posters yesterday. And then my inbox exploded.
I want to thank all of you for the favs, the comments and watching me! Your support means a lot to me. :heart:
I'm a little bit overwhelmed at the moment (seriously, I was afraid to look in my inbox this morning XD - more than 400 new messages in 6 hours!) and I'll try to answer everyone of you, which may take a while because currently I have to do a lot of things for the university.


P.S.: *shameless self-promotion on*
Do you've already seen the Sherlock fan video that was created by BrielleWonka and me?… :meow:
*shameless self-promotion off*