Nothing much to report. Nothing has changed except that I am 57 and realize that I have wasted my life. I wish I was 13 now and could grow up in a world far more open and accepting of difference. I pray every day to find my soulmate and to experience love and joy just once in my life. I am sick of the physical and emotional pain I have every day and wonder why anyone would want to live like this any longer than they absolutely have to. No, I am not suicidal just sick and lonely. There are millions worse off than me but it's not wrong to want some happiness in life.
Apologies. I am just feeling sorry for myself atm. Pain and depression go tog
Well, I'm now 55; my son Shaun (in the Calvin and Hobbes collage) is 23 and just came out as gay. It has been a BIG year. For the past 5 and a half years I have been carer for an elderly friend. She broke her hip at the local shopping centre and had heart attacks as she waited for 2 hours for an ambulance. She spent months in hospital and rehab and they wouldn't let her go home to live on her own. She has no other family so I moved in with her for what was supposed to be just 6 months to get her back on her feet. Well, that was in June, 2011... and I am still here.
I haven't uploaded anything for years - joining DeviantArt was always about e
Well, it's been a long time since I wrote something here. But then again, it seems almost everyone starts off like that.
I turned 50 last October and it was a shock. People won't believe it. Apparently I don't look 50. Neighbour told me they thought I was ther age - mid-30s !!!! I think they were just being polite. With my arthtritis so bad, I feel like I am 90 ! But then again, inside I am still about 13! Isn't everybody?!
I have been virtually bedridden for the last 4 months with the pain and nausea (from the meds) but today I am feeling better. Not great but definitely better. Started some new meds (expensive) that are for nerve pain. Ma