David Berkowitz's (former Son of Sam)
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Published: December 16, 2013


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My name is David Berkowitz, and I am a prison inmate who has been incarcerated for more than thirty-six years. I have been sentenced to prison for the rest of my life. My criminal case is well known and was called the Son of Sam shootings.

It was twenty-four years ago, when I was living in a cold and lonely prison cell, that God got a hold of my life. Here is my story of Hope...




CHILD OF TORMENT


Ever since I was a small child, my life seemed to be filled with torment. I would often have seizures in which I would roll on the floor. Sometimes furniture would get knocked over. When these attacks came, it felt as if something was entering me.

My mother, who has long since passed away, had not control over me. I was like a wild and destructive animal. My father had to pin me to the floor until these attacks stopped.

When I was in public school, I was so violent and disruptive that a teacher, who had become so angry at me, grabbed me in a headlock and threw me out of his classroom.

I was getting into a lot of fights, too. Sometimes I started screaming for no reason at all. My parents were then ordered by school officials to take me to a child psychologist or else I would be expelled. I had to go to this psychologist once per week for two years. Yet the therapy sessions had no affect on my behavior.

During this period of my life I was also plagued with bouts of severe depression. When this feeling came over me, I would hide under my bed for hours. I would also lock myself in a closet and sit in total darkness from morning until afternoon. I had a craving for the darkness and I felt an urge to flee away from people.


A FORCE WAS AT WORK


Occasionally this same evil force would come upon me in the middle of the night. When this would happen I felt an urge to sneak out of the house and wander the dark streets. I roamed the neighborhood like an alley cat and would creep back into the house by climbing the fire escape. My parents would never know that I was gone.

I continually worried and frightened my parents because I behaved so strangely. At times I would go the entire day without talking to them. I would stay in my room talking to myself. My parents could not reach me, not even with all of their love. Many times I saw them break down and cry because they saw that I was such a tormented person.


FIGHTING THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE


Thoughts of suicide often came into my mind. Sometimes I spent time sitting on a window ledge with my legs dangling over the side. We lived on the 6th floor of an old apartment building. When my dad saw me doing this he would yell at me to get back inside.

I also felt powerful urges to step in front of moving cars or throw myself in front of subway trains. At times those urges were so strong that my body actually trembled. I remember that it was a tremendous struggle for me to hold on to my sanity.

I had no idea what to do and neither did my parents. They had me talk to a rabbi, teachers and school counselors, but nothing worked.


MY MOTHER WAS DEAD


When I was fourteen my mother was stricken with cancer and within several months she was dead. I had no other brothers or sisters, and so it was just me and my dad. He had to work ten hours per day, six days per week. So we spent very little time together.

For the most part, my mother was my source of stability. With her now gone, however, my life quickly went downhill. I was filled with anger at the loss of my mom. I felt hopeless and my periods of depression were more intense than ever. I also became even more rebellious and began to cut out of school.

Yet my dad tried to help as best as he could. He managed to push me through high school. The day after I graduated I went into the Army. I had just turned 18 several weeks earlier. I joined the Army, in a sense, to start a new life and get away from my problems. But even in the service I had trouble coping, though I did manage to finish my 3 year enlistment.


THE FORCE STILL HAD ME


I got out of the service in 1974 to start life again as a civilian. All my friends that I knew before had either married or moved away. So I found myself alone and living in New York City

In 1975, however, I met some guys at a party who were, I later found out, heavily involved in the occult. I had always been fascinated with witchcraft, satanism, and occult things since I was a child. When I was growing up I watched countless horror and satanic movies, one of which was Rosemary’s Baby. That movie in particular totally captivated my mind.

Now I was age 22 and this evil force was still reaching out to me. Everywhere I went there seemed to be a sign or a symbol pointing me to Satan. I felt as if something were trying to take control of my life. I began to read the Satanic Bible by the late Anton LaVey who founded the Church of Satan in San Francisco in 1966. I began, innocently, to practice various occult rituals and incantations.

I am utterly convinced that something satanic had entered into my mind and that, looking back at all that happened, I realize that I had been slowly deceived. I did not know that bad things were going to result from all this. Yet over the months the things that were wicked no longer seemed to be such. I was headed down the road to destruction and I did not know it. Maybe I was at a point where I just didn’t care anymore.


THE HORROR BEGINS


Eventually I crossed that invisible line of no return. After years of mental torment, behavioral problems, deep inner struggles and my own rebellious ways, I became the criminal that, at the time, it seemed as if it was my destiny to become.

Looking back it was all a horrible nightmare and I would do anything if I could undo everything that happened. Six people lost their lives. Many others suffered at my hand, and will continue to suffer for a lifetime. I am so sorry for that.

In 1978 I was sentenced to about 365 consecutive years, virtually burying me alive behind prison walls. When I first entered the prison system I was placed in isolation. I was then sent to a psychiatric hospital because I was declared temporarily insane. Eventually I was sent to other prisons including the infamous Attica.

As with many inmates, life in prison is a struggle. I have had my share of problems, hassles and fights. At one time I almost lost my life when another inmate cut my throat. Yet all through this - and I did not realize it until later - God had His loving hands on me.


HOPE WAS COMING


Ten years into my prison sentence and feeling despondent and without hope, another inmate came up to me one day as I was walking the prison yard on a cold winter’s night. He introduced himself and began to tell me that Jesus Christ loved me and wanted to forgive me. Although I knew he meant well I mocked him because I did not think that God would ever forgive me or that He would want anything to do with me.

Still this man persisted and we became friends. His name was Rick and we would walk the yard together. Little by little he would share with me about his life and what he believed Jesus had done for him. He kept reminding me that no matter what a person did, Christ stood ready to forgive if that individual would be willing to turn from the bad things they were doing and would put their full faith and trust in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross by dying for our sins.

He gave me a Gideon’s Pocket Testament and asked me to read the Psalms. I did. Every night I would read from them. And it was at this time that the Lord was quietly melting my stone cold heart.


A NEW LIFE BEGINS


One night, I was reading Psalm 34. I came upon the 6th verse, which says, "this poor man cried, and the Lord heard him, and saved him from all his troubles".

It was at that moment, in 1987, that I began to pour out my heart to God. Everything seemed to hit me at once. The guilt from what I did... the disgust at what I had become... late that night in my cold cell, I got down on my knees and I began to cry out to Jesus Christ.

I told Him that I was sick and tired of doing evil. I asked Jesus to forgive me for all my sins. I spent a good while on my knees praying to Him. When I got up it felt as if a very heavy but invisible chain that had been around me for so many years was broken. A peace flooded over me. I did not understand what was happening. But in my heart I just knew that my life, somehow, was going to be different.


A DECADE OF FREEDOM


More than eleven years have gone by since I had that first talk with the Lord. So many good things have happened in my life since. Jesus Christ has allowed me to start an outreach ministry right here in the prison where I have been given permission by prison officials to work in the Special Needs Unit where men who have various emotional and coping problems are housed. I can pray with them as we read our Bibles together. I get the chance to show them a lot of brotherly love and compassion.

I have also worked as the Chaplain’s clerk and I also have a letter writing ministry. In addition, the Lord has opened ways for me to share with millions via TV programs such as Inside Edition in 1993 and A & E Investigative Reporter in 1997, what He has done in my life as well as to warn others about the dangers of getting involved in the occult.

I have also shared my testimony on several Christian TV programs such as the 700 Club in 1997, the Coral Ridge Hour (Dr. James Kennedy), and on Larry King Live in 1999. For all these opportunities I am most thankful, and I do not feel I deserve this.


THERE IS HOPE FOR YOU TOO


One of my favorite passages of Scripture is Romans 10:13. It says, "For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." Here it is clear that God has no favorites. He rejects no one, but welcomes all who will call upon Him.

I know that God is a God of mercy who is willing to forgive. He is perfectly able to restore and heal our hurting and broken lives. I have discovered from the Bible that Jesus Christ died for our sins. Yet He was without sin. He took our place on that cross. He shed His blood as the full and complete payment God required for our wrongdoing.

The Bible also says, "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23)." Furthermore, it says, "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord (Romans 6:23)."

These passages make it clear that everyone has sinned. Yes, some like myself did so more than others. But all have done things wrong. Therefore, we must all make the decision to acknowledge our sins before God and be sorry for them. We need to turn from our lives of sin as well as believe that Christ was and is the Son of God.

You must believe that Jesus Christ died and was buried, and on the third day He rose again in victory, for death could not hold Him. Ask Christ to forgive you. Declare Him as Lord of your life and do not be ashamed to do so. To reject Jesus Christ and His work on the cross is to reject God’s perfect and only gift of salvation and eternal life.


HERE IS YOUR CHANCE


Friend, here is your chance to get things right with God. The Bible says, If you confess with your mouth that Jesus Christ is Lord, and if you believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved. For with the heart mankind believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession of salvation is made (Romans 10:9,10)." So believe in your heart that these words from the Bible are true.

Please consider what I am saying. I beg you with all my heart to place your faith in Christ right now. Tomorrow is promised to no one.

You see, I am not sharing this message to simply tell you an interesting story. Rather I want you to taste the goodness of God in my life, a man who was once a devil worshipper and a murderer, to show you that Jesus Christ is about forgiveness, hope and change.

I was involved in the occult and I got burned. I became a cruel killer and threw away my life as well as destroyed the lives of others. Now I have discovered that Christ is my answer and my hope. He broke the chains of mental confusion and depression that had me bound. Today I have placed my life in His hands. I only wish I knew Jesus before all these crimes happened - they would not have happened.


May God bless everyone who is reading this message!


With Love in Christ,
David Berkowitz

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Human Manipulation by ArthurRamsey Today,  like every day,  I choose grace over Satan’s setups. Today,  I recognize that my true enemies are not flesh and blood but princes, powers, and authorities of the darkness of a realm my eyes can’t see.  I understand that in many ways like hand puppets they have influenced even the people closest to me in an attempt to close my eyes to the love and grace God but I look out over these masses and pray Father Forgive them, they know not what they do. For while some may know the existence of these dark entities they are ignorant of the power they possess to manipulate mankind. They truly don't what they are doing. fav.me/db3xibh

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LindArtz|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Amen to that, Arthur.  "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do".        It gives new meaning to the wisdom of Jesus'es word: James 5:12, KJV: "But above all things, my brethren, swear not, neither by heaven, neither by the earth, neither by any other oath: but let your yea be yea; and your nay, nay; lest ye fall into condemnation."

In our computer age especially... when we have social puppeteers pulling strings from behind the scenes... that's a lot of covert manipulation! And it happens face to face, too...  Preying upon people's mistrust and vulnerabilities in order to deceive them and get close enough to use them for whatever their diabolic reason/s.
And half the population doesn't realize they even Are being the puppets of others'...

I know in my heart this has to do with why there are so many mass shootings in this world today all over the globe (amongst other atrocties)...

I Thank the Almighty that Jesus came and laid down His life for us.  I believe in Him. He is our helper and our way to peace of Mind. The devil 'the father of lies' is out to rob people completely of that precious peace, and gift.  

Jesus/God is our Only Hope.   Lord help us all. :heart:
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What a distinct pleasure to read your pages. In Him we live, move and have our being. Bless you always for His work you're doing.
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Arthur-Ramsey| General Artist
Thanks, Hal I am thankful for the love lavished on us that we should be called children! Each day I get a small part play in His mission of love for this is I am grateful as well. 
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That is absolutely amazing I am also a Christian 
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Spark567|Student General Artist
I'm a Christian too 😇❤️
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Cool thanks for your supportHeart Heart Heart 
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You're welcome and I play guitar 
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I play drums my current project playing cover www.youtube.com/watch?v=raRHUG… great exercise no need for an exercise machine they are called DRUMS. :rofl:
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A simple test I give myself at the end of a day. If in that day I never bound any spirit of wickedness then this day I did not live by faith.

 

Life is to be lived from the inside out and most spiritual attacks or at least the greatest percentage are an attacks  on our inside man. Our greatest need and desire or in other words the petition of our prayer is to ask for more of the Holy Spirit. Consider Luke 11 and this is the message we take to the church.

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Thank you for sharing! Hug 
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Arthur-Ramsey| General Artist
My extreme joy
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virnagray|Hobbyist General Artist
Amazing testimony, 
Thank you for sharing! ♡♡♡
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Joy in the one who did for us what we can not do for ourselves.
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ReclusiveChicken|Hobbyist General Artist
May divine power propel us forward!
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Tis the only way
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Heart Thank you for sharing the light Arthur Peace 
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Arthur-Ramsey| General Artist
I am free because of Jesus I wish all to know him.
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Stunning story, Arthur, thank you for sharing it! 

You are one of a kind!  :hug:
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Thanks the truth is we are all one of a kind which is why light comes darkness comes first to the individuals then to the masses.
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One of the turning points in my life sitting a parking lot high which was not unusual as I was always high and actually forgot what it was like not to be high. Listening to Black Sabbath "Hand of Doom" 

 

What you gonna do? Time's caught up with you

Now you wait your turn, you know there's no return
Take your written rules, you join the other fools
Turn to something new, now it's killing you

First it was the bomb, Vietnam napalm
Disillusioning, you push the needle in
From life you escape, reality's that way
Colours in your mind satisfy your time

Oh you, you know you must be blind
To do something like this
To take the sleep that you don't know
You're giving Death a kiss,
Oh, little fool now

Your mind is full of pleasure
Your body's looking ill
To you it's shallow leisure
So drop the acid pill, don't stop to think now

You're having a good time baby
But that won't last
Your mind's all full of things
You're living too fast
go out enjoy yourself
Don't bottle it in
You need someone to help you
To stick the needle in, yeah

Now you know the scene, your skin starts turning green
Your eyes no longer seeing life's reality
Push the needle in, face death's sickly grin
Holes are in your skin, caused by deadly pin

Head starts spinning 'round, you fall down to the ground
Feel your body heave, Death's hands starts to weave
It's too late to turn, you don't want to learn
Price of life you cry, now you're gonna die!


I realized I had no real memories anymore its was just a blur of parties. So I quit dope decided I wanted real life again it was the start of a pilgrimage to where I am today.
You know that when I realized who God is I began to realize the worst thing darkness did was hide Him from me.  www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ze-cX8…

 

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Arthur-Ramsey| General Artist

Vertical People

 

People must know they are in a war with real enemies who are intelligent and crafty, organized, and powerful and not flesh and blood. Not just one mind you as the devil and his fallen angels were a third of heavens angels. I don’t know how many that is but I suspect it is a great number.  The sons and daughters of God must see themselves first and foremost as soldier in this world. They are called to be vertical people who have been given one little word to exercise their authority over darkness and that one little word is Jesus.

Vertical people are not bound by the horizontal plane.  In the New Testament and in the book of Acts chapter 7 we see a vertical man named Stephen defending the truth of Jesus. Acts 7:55-59

55 But he, being full of the Holy Spirit, looked up steadfastly into heaven, and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing on the right hand of God,

56 and said, Behold, I see the heavens opened, and the Son of Man standing on the right hand of God.

57 But they cried out with a loud voice, and stopped their ears, and rushed upon him with one accord;

58 and they cast him out of the city, and stoned him: and the witnesses laid down their garments at the feet of a young man named Saul.

59 And they stoned Stephen, calling upon (the Lord), and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.

Stephen was a vertical man long before his defense recorded in the bible. Vertical people don't fight against flesh and blood but against dark entities and powers. Vertical people pay less attention to this world and pay more attention to the kingdom of heaven which they know is nearer than their next breath and is also the good news they proclaim. Vertical people get pats on the back and praise from their heavenly father so they don't care about the praise that comes from people. Vertical people live in the authority of the name of Jesus and vertical people will fight every demon of hell that seeks to take their peace. It is the peace of God that leads them and the grace of God that sustains them with unlimited vertical supply. Vertical people understand the gifts of the Holy Spirit are weapons of war. Vertical people know their citizenship is in heaven so they do not fear death. Vertical people are the real salt of the earth and require no banner to fly over them except the one given through the blood of the Jesus.  Vertical people are not always blessed in the way and what the world calls blessing. rsiphotography.deviantart.com/…

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What is this art talking about anyhow?

The artworks I have been creating have a shared common thread in their message which is the need to understand everything in our heads first at the expense of turning off the volume of our heart speaking. You see not only is there more to life than what meets the eyes but the truth is the more is perceived with the heart first then comes understanding which follows. Jesus stands at the door of our HEART and knocks and those who open that door understanding FOLLOWS.

Much of my artwork in recent months has been geared to helping people understand that there are real powers and entities that are running interference to the voice of the shepherd of our souls….Jesus. I won’t go into all those messages in artwork again here and I will never be able to demonstrate all the ways darkness works to muffle and hide the word of God. My favorite artwork of recent is “Anathema” rsiphotography.deviantart.com/… because this image is really the story of my life and the ways that darkness has tried to defeat me. This series of images rsiphotography.deviantart.com/…

 I have been told by many are quite disturbing and I think the reason why is for a brief moment the heart is allowed to speak over the understanding and sort of having the first word. I am going to be moving deeper in my artwork now to demonstrate a way of living as it relates to this very real war of darkness and light and the very real players are involved in it. In fact we all are in it whether we know it or not the only difference is that if you don’t know then you are only a pawn being manipulated and harassed by forces you cannot see.

The reality is something that flesh and blood cannot reveal to you. This scripture and words of Jesus explain what I am saying…

Matt 16:13-21

“ Now when Jesus came into the parts of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, saying, Who do men say that the Son of man is?

14 And they said, Some (say) John the Baptist; some, Elijah; and others, Jeremiah, or one of the prophets.

15 He saith unto them, But who say ye that I am?

16 And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.

17 And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Bar-Jonah: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father who is in heaven.

18 And I also say unto thee, that thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it.

19 I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven; and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

20 Then charged he the disciples that they should tell no man that he was the Christ.

21 From that time began Jesus to show unto his disciples, that he must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and the third day be raised up.”

Now what he is saying is that the kingdom of heaven is going to be built in people who open their hearts and listen to the Father and what they hear is awesome life giving words. First he tells them who they are in FACT! The love and grace of God openly demonstrated in Jesus but now the reality of this fact he brings to their HEART and understanding and He doesn’t stop there at all. He applies the work and blood of Jesus to the doorpost of their heart ……..unveils forgiveness, unsurpassed love, and mercy. Then daily unveils to them special power to be a real player with real weapons to take back life and love. You may live on the other side of the world but God is teaching me to use special power and authority the very same he gives to all who ask for it. I use the authority and the name of Jesus becoming quite efficient with it and a real player in this war. Much is said about believing in God but the truth is He believes in us much more than we could ever believe in Him. 

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