Appreciating my writing was hard because I didn't have any respect for my past self.
As a result, I could barely accept anything I made in the moment, whether it be art, work, writing. Even a social media post felt daunting -- what if I am embarrassing myself? What if I look back on this in the future and I am ashamed? What if people find this and it's how they define me and I don't want to own it?
Realizing this helped me decide: I should write, and I should look back on my writing with appreciation, or even reverence. It had defined a period of my life. And it had led me here.
I originally joined DeviantArt in around 2005. I was about twelve then. It captured my imagination.
I decided to come back. I feel the community of anonymity suits me and where I am. And I feel that it's a place where one can be shameless.