Dani Jo
Dani Jo
We met in the park
behind my house –
I was seven,
you were five.
We were inseparable
ever since that day –
if I wasn't at your house,
you were at mine.
We shared our childhood
and with it Barbie, dress-up,
bug hunts, sleepovers,
and trouble.
Together we put away our childish things,
trading Barbie for boys,
skinned knees for teenage fashion,
and crayons for perfume.
Childhood was naught but a blur,
little did we know our lives would change -
we would part,
go our own separate way.
I graduated high school
and moved away to a new life –
I found happiness with that new life
as well as my other soulmate.
Musician
Musician
if i were a
musician i'd
kidnap you
take you to an opera
or a symphony
or maybe the music room
animate your movement
with an oboe
capture your laughter
with a jazzy trumpet
color you with the notes
of a piano
i'd dress you in uniform
and put you in
my marching band
or toss you in a chorus
yeah if i
were a musician
i'd kidnap you
Dream
Dream
Beneath the pale moon
silvery clouds roll by
yet I am unable to sleep
for I am thinking of you tonight.
Little cherubs soar
through everlasting sky
as my waking dreams
are woven of you.
Millions of visible stars
scatter across black velvet night;
I pull down the loveliest one
and place it in your palm.
And as I float away,
sleep finally taking over,
I offer you my hand
and with it eternal love.
Finding Strength
Finding Strength
I can't tolerate
this pain I hold anymore;
I wish I could
erase it from my being.
I serve those
who hate me;
Love those
who hurt me.
I'm so afraid
of the people around me;
So afraid
to be me.
I can't let them know
the pain I suppress;
Can't let you see
how much you hurt me.
I have to draw
my strength from within;
The inspiration
to keep me going.
Where is it?
The Outcast's Prayer
The Outcast's Prayer
Every night I pray
that God will hear
the cries of those
who are helpless.
I pray for those
who live in a dream,
with empty souls
and desolate lives.
For the children
who roam the streets
afraid of home,
even of sleep.
For people who care
but aren't cared for,
for those who don't know
love and affection.
For those who steal
just to survive
with nowhere to run,
nowhere to hide.
For those who reach
toward a warm hand to hold,
a guiding light through the dark,
and for someone to love.
For those who are ill
grasping at the straws of life,
no strength left within
their fragile, weak bodies.
For those who lean
toward a
Star
Star
I lay upon my roof
and gaze up at the night sky,
at the stars that burn bright.
The moon's divine light
touches this innocent face,
yet my mind races in thought.
I wonder
what it would be like
to be one of those stars.
What would it be
To hang suspended
above the world?
I could watch people and animals
and travel to places
beyond my wildest dreams.
Oh, how my worries would be no more
and no more transgressions
would I have to bear.
I would be a vagabond
nameless and faceless,
and then maybe I would be beautiful.
Wings
Wings
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would fly away
from this world.
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would leave behind
this unbearable pain.
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would abandon
this alienation.
I wish I had wings
to just fly away.
Outsider
Outsider
Outsider
My face is plain
and I don't fit in
but to think I am not human
is shallow.
Please excuse the way I look,
and pardon my uniqueness;
I ask that you try to see
that I am a person, too –
a person just like you.
I long for love
like everyone else,
I am far more fragile
than I appear.
I cry crimson tears
while in my solitude,
for pity is a shame.
Each day is a feat
as I force a smile
through the knife in my side.
Every day is a fight
to keep my spirit alive;
it is a battle that never ends.
Unto my very last breath
I must fight;
will the battle never end?
Have You Ever
Have You Ever
Have You Ever
Have you ever stopped to think
about the way I feel inside?
Have you ever stopped to listen
for the voice that cries inside?
I take a step
and hope I don't fall,
draw in a breath
and hope I don't suffocate.
I live my life
shadowed by this mask
with cautious smiles,
half a frown.
I don't mean to be
the way that I am;
all I ever wanted
is for someone to understand.
I want you to understand
that I am human, too;
I think, live, feel, and do
just like you.
Please open your eyes
and do not scrutinize;
I am not
what you think.
I beg for your acceptance,
no matter what you see –
please, see me.
Cheated
Cheated
Cheated
A feeling that resides
Within my very core
I feel cheated
Of all the happiness
I should have had
Cheated of
My ability to love;
Cheated of
The ability to even feel.
My pride and dignity
I was cheated of, too;
I tried so hard never
To let that go.
Now you have left me
With nothing
But a broken sprit,
And a dead heart.
So here I am
Standing alone before you
With nothing left to give,
Nothing more to say.
Here I am
With my pen in hand
And a muted expression
On this ugly face.
I was unarmed,
And you took advantage,
Robbing and cheating me
Until there was nothing left.
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Dani Jo
Dani Jo
We met in the park
behind my house –
I was seven,
you were five.
We were inseparable
ever since that day –
if I wasn't at your house,
you were at mine.
We shared our childhood
and with it Barbie, dress-up,
bug hunts, sleepovers,
and trouble.
Together we put away our childish things,
trading Barbie for boys,
skinned knees for teenage fashion,
and crayons for perfume.
Childhood was naught but a blur,
little did we know our lives would change -
we would part,
go our own separate way.
I graduated high school
and moved away to a new life –
I found happiness with that new life
as well as my other soulmate.
Musician
Musician
if i were a
musician i'd
kidnap you
take you to an opera
or a symphony
or maybe the music room
animate your movement
with an oboe
capture your laughter
with a jazzy trumpet
color you with the notes
of a piano
i'd dress you in uniform
and put you in
my marching band
or toss you in a chorus
yeah if i
were a musician
i'd kidnap you
Dream
Dream
Beneath the pale moon
silvery clouds roll by
yet I am unable to sleep
for I am thinking of you tonight.
Little cherubs soar
through everlasting sky
as my waking dreams
are woven of you.
Millions of visible stars
scatter across black velvet night;
I pull down the loveliest one
and place it in your palm.
And as I float away,
sleep finally taking over,
I offer you my hand
and with it eternal love.
Finding Strength
Finding Strength
I can't tolerate
this pain I hold anymore;
I wish I could
erase it from my being.
I serve those
who hate me;
Love those
who hurt me.
I'm so afraid
of the people around me;
So afraid
to be me.
I can't let them know
the pain I suppress;
Can't let you see
how much you hurt me.
I have to draw
my strength from within;
The inspiration
to keep me going.
Where is it?
The Outcast's Prayer
The Outcast's Prayer
Every night I pray
that God will hear
the cries of those
who are helpless.
I pray for those
who live in a dream,
with empty souls
and desolate lives.
For the children
who roam the streets
afraid of home,
even of sleep.
For people who care
but aren't cared for,
for those who don't know
love and affection.
For those who steal
just to survive
with nowhere to run,
nowhere to hide.
For those who reach
toward a warm hand to hold,
a guiding light through the dark,
and for someone to love.
For those who are ill
grasping at the straws of life,
no strength left within
their fragile, weak bodies.
For those who lean
toward a
Star
Star
I lay upon my roof
and gaze up at the night sky,
at the stars that burn bright.
The moon's divine light
touches this innocent face,
yet my mind races in thought.
I wonder
what it would be like
to be one of those stars.
What would it be
To hang suspended
above the world?
I could watch people and animals
and travel to places
beyond my wildest dreams.
Oh, how my worries would be no more
and no more transgressions
would I have to bear.
I would be a vagabond
nameless and faceless,
and then maybe I would be beautiful.
Wings
Wings
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would fly away
from this world.
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would leave behind
this unbearable pain.
I wish I had wings
to fly far away;
I would abandon
this alienation.
I wish I had wings
to just fly away.
Outsider
Outsider
Outsider
My face is plain
and I don't fit in
but to think I am not human
is shallow.
Please excuse the way I look,
and pardon my uniqueness;
I ask that you try to see
that I am a person, too –
a person just like you.
I long for love
like everyone else,
I am far more fragile
than I appear.
I cry crimson tears
while in my solitude,
for pity is a shame.
Each day is a feat
as I force a smile
through the knife in my side.
Every day is a fight
to keep my spirit alive;
it is a battle that never ends.
Unto my very last breath
I must fight;
will the battle never end?
Have You Ever
Have You Ever
Have You Ever
Have you ever stopped to think
about the way I feel inside?
Have you ever stopped to listen
for the voice that cries inside?
I take a step
and hope I don't fall,
draw in a breath
and hope I don't suffocate.
I live my life
shadowed by this mask
with cautious smiles,
half a frown.
I don't mean to be
the way that I am;
all I ever wanted
is for someone to understand.
I want you to understand
that I am human, too;
I think, live, feel, and do
just like you.
Please open your eyes
and do not scrutinize;
I am not
what you think.
I beg for your acceptance,
no matter what you see –
please, see me.
Cheated
Cheated
Cheated
A feeling that resides
Within my very core
I feel cheated
Of all the happiness
I should have had
Cheated of
My ability to love;
Cheated of
The ability to even feel.
My pride and dignity
I was cheated of, too;
I tried so hard never
To let that go.
Now you have left me
With nothing
But a broken sprit,
And a dead heart.
So here I am
Standing alone before you
With nothing left to give,
Nothing more to say.
Here I am
With my pen in hand
And a muted expression
On this ugly face.
I was unarmed,
And you took advantage,
Robbing and cheating me
Until there was nothing left.
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Favourite genre of music: Just about anything
Favourite style of art: Anime
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Wallpaper of choice: Right now I have a Sailor Venus one
Skin of choice: *shrug* Dunno
Favourite cartoon character: My faves and name explains it all. XD
Personal Quote: "Sit down, shaddup, and drink yer god damned TEA!" - Cid Highwind
Favourite style of art: Anime
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Wallpaper of choice: Right now I have a Sailor Venus one
Skin of choice: *shrug* Dunno
Favourite cartoon character: My faves and name explains it all. XD
Personal Quote: "Sit down, shaddup, and drink yer god damned TEA!" - Cid Highwind
Favourite Visual Artist
Anyone with good art
Favourite Movies
Pirates of the Caribbean
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Oh, there are so many...^^;
Favourite Writers
I have all kinds of good writers to put here
Favourite Games
Final Fantasy 7 and Dirge of Cerberus
Favourite Gaming Platform
Nintendo
Tools of the Trade
I fight off evil with...my PEN!
Other Interests
Lots of things.
I Live!
I Live!
Hello, I am indeed alive, even if I have not been active on this account. Two of my fan fictions have taken over my mind and I have been updating those on my other account. I have my poetry notebook out and am going through my poems from high school, and I might edit and/or rewrite some of them and upload them here.
On a side note, I am also somewhat working on an original fiction called Hell Comes with a Locker which is a semi-autobiographical account of high school life from the point of view of someone who is a complete outsider. Basic summary: Alicia Adams is a junior in her small town high school. Even though she has attended school wit
New Series
New Series
Hello!
For those of you who follow not just my fanfiction on my other account ~Amani-Ishikawa (https://www.deviantart.com/amani-ishikawa), I have decided to finally put something original up on here.
I am going to be working on a series of fictions based on song lyrics in the near future. The song fictions will have lyrics intentionally embedded into them for fun, not plagarism, for the purpose of seeing how many the reader can recognize!
I have the first of the series, The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald, posted already for your reading enjoyment as well as a gift for my mom. This one is actually a non-fiction as the Fitz was an ore boat that sank in Lake Superior in 1975.
I c
Professional Stuff
Professional Stuff
Okay, I have decided that this account will be dedicated to my more professional works. I have removed my poetry from :amani-ishikawa: and I will be placing them here sometime this week. I WAS going to upload them tonight, but I can't find my freaking poetry for some reason. Hnn...might be on my other comp. Anyway...keep a lookout, everyone! I will post original work only here. My fanfics will remain on ~Amani-Ishikawa (https://www.deviantart.com/amani-ishikawa) Thank you and signing off! :salute:
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B/W James and Ayse have been posted. Enjoy!
LostSoul330Hobbyist Writer
thnx for the faves
Duuude I'm home! 
OMFG YOU'RE HOME?! It's been ten days?!
...I think technically it was nine days... sorry. Guess I was wrong. *grins sheepishly* But yes! I am home! And leaving for Utah tomorrow! But I believe there will be internet in Utah, so no worries.
YAY! RP replies? XP
LostSoul330Hobbyist Writer
Thnx for the fave on My Walking Contradiction and also thnx for the Watch. 